Poem? 5:01:00 AM

Read this little poem, I love it. No, I didn't write it


If i dont call you

[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When i walk away from you mad

[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth

[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you

[ Grab me and dont let go ]

When i call you and say i cant sleep

[stay on the phone till i go to sleep]

When i start cussing at you

[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When im quiet

[ Ask me whats wrong ]

When i ignore you

[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away

[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst

[ Tell me im beautiful ]

When you see me start crying

[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking

[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When im scared

[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder

[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i grab at your hands

[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i tease you

[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time

[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt

[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i love you

[ I really do more than you could understand ]

When i bump into you

[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret

[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes

[ dont look away until i do ]

When i miss you

[ im hurting inside ]

When you break my heart

[ the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over

[ i still want you to be mine ]

this is painfully obvious. 6:41:00 PM

I wish I could tell all of you my secret, maybe in the next life. 

maybe you're not worth it.

Silence 5:58:00 PM

I thought that I knew you

But now I'm not sure

You used to be friendly

But not anymore

Each day we grow farther

Apart and I'm sad

We used to be best friends

The best I ever had.

At some point things changed

And our lives split apart

I miss you so much

In my life – In my heart.

Sometimes things must happen

And friends drift away

I wish it weren't us

I wish not this way...

Your beautiful soul. 5:19:00 AM

What a week.. I just met Jimmy Jim jim just now, we went to have dinner at Chomp Comp.. Freaking bus too like forever to get there. Had a good dinner with him.
The last few days Sharon asked me to bake a cake last minute; which is in a shape of 30!! God I almost killed myself if without the help of Lillykerniweeeeee!! Hahahha all in all it was good.
I cant wait for monday and Friday!! :)

Would you be my best friend and follow me
through this never ending drama called life?
I believe we only have to go through it once.
It won't be a smooth journey that's what I've been told,
there's back-stabbers, liars and crooks along the way.
I'd watch your back every minute, but would you watch mine?
There's going to be happy moments too; one of them is 
spending time with you. Well that's all I know about this journey, so would you follow me and and find out together?


Photo Caption:
"My husband is the best friend I've ever had, and I'm the best friend he's ever had. We know we can always rely on each other, like we can on no one else. My pool of friends has slowly whittled down over the years, as person after person flaked out on me or proved themselves to be unreliable or too self-involved to really be able to give me back as much as they expected in return.
But not him. He gives me everything he has, without question, and I give him back just as much...and so neither of us really loses anything despite giving everything.
Instead, we gain. And that's love. Giving your whole self away, but being richer for it."

-Artful Magpie 

Fearless 7:55:00 AM

It's a typical Tuesday night and she doesn't get your humor like I do.
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like and she'll never know your story like I do.


Graduation later in the afternoon, anxiety is possessing me.. The sun is beautiful today.

Love, the sand by the shore. 8:08:00 AM

“Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same."

There's something about you and the beach that I don't think I'll ever understand... Shall we just sit here and watch the sun set??

The footprints that you left me are still warm in my heart every time I think of you. Clasping our hands beneath the sands, laying here under stars with all our dreams; now, that's a wonderful night...

Someday all this would happen.

Remembering Sunday 6:16:00 PM

I still see you every night..

Blood rushes to my head when I'm awake.

I know now dreams are truly just dreams. 

Fairy tales are not of this world.

Everything thing seems so perfect;

you we're sooo happy!

We were just two sentimental fools 

traveling around the world with our hands together.

See you in the next life..

you keep hurting, I keep quiet.. 5:18:00 PM

Why do i even brother?? you treat me like i owe you a return.. I don't even know why I keep trying to stay on, what's the point? After all that we've been through, you act like nothing has ever happen. whatever fuck happen from now I'm not giving two shits. (or at least i'll try not to) it's just hurting me. To hell with all of you! 

Think whatever you want of me..

Kokomo sounds good now.. 10:11:00 AM

So it's the new year already.. Well there's new worries... hmmm I've been so stress out with this Poly/ITE/Army shit. Right now seriously, I feel like just going in NS this year. At least I don't have to worry about studying and all that crap. Arrrrgh. 

Why oh why?!?! 

Well let's see where the fuck this goes. 

A part of life, a joy to the soul. 4:31:00 PM

Yes we are [friends] and I do like to pass the day with you in serious and inconsequential chatter.  I wouldn't mind washing up beside you, dusting beside you, reading the back half of the paper while you read the front.  We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often.  I don't want to lose this happy space where I have found someone who is smart and easy and doesn't bother to check her diary when we arrange to meet.  ~Jeanette Winterson, Written on the Body, 1992


“Never explain yourself. Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it.”
“True friends are like diamonds, precious and rare. False friends are like leaves, found everywhere.”
A friend will come bail you out of jail but, your best friend will be sitting next to you saying… “Wow that was fun!”

you're the reason. 10:00:00 PM

The year might be over, but I'm still selfish. It really hurts deep inside, for the things you wanna say but will never be able to. Its not a nice feeling, really. I'm still in denial and I'm still part of two worlds.
I wish I didn't have you in my life at all, at least I know I don't have to go through this pain that I think about everyday. Our expressions are like a mask that we wear on our face, hiding the truth about what we feel. Life is too short for us to have pride and ego. 
Well, for what its worth you're just like any other, they come and they go. 


But on the other hand, you're the world to me. I'm so happy down to my soul. The things that you've done, the action that you do, it simply speaks louder. IT'S RINGING IN MY EAR. I'm glad that I have you. I just have to remind myself. :)


I have to stop my wishful thinking; wishes never happens.

Christmas Christmas 9:54:00 AM

First of all, Merry Christmas everyone!! Or Bong Natal to those kristang people out there :)
Man oh man why is like everyone rushing? I'm seriously feeling the Christmas rush hmmm Sharon's surprise party is in like 2 days time man.. I have yet to get stuff and on top of that I'm baking *~*hahaha

Well I can't wait although!!

Love you guys, see you on the 29 whoever you are haha

Christmas's eve's eve 5:52:00 PM

It dosent seem that long anymore eh? I can't believe it the 23rd alreay balls.. No!!! I want my 2009!!

:(

Lies, the one thing that makes you human. 4:02:00 PM

Things are happening so fast nowadays, I'm just feeling a little lost thats all... Hopefully this is not how it ends, because I pictured it ending differently. I wish I could just press the rest button and everything will be good to go, rather than working from my heart inside out..
Currently at Jrmy's place, chilling out. hmmm...

I wish for you...

12 dec 2009 11:49:00 PM

December december, why are you such a junkie? I don't mind mid night video games runaways but i ain't such a hunky. It's creepy when the days are passing so fast when I'm here still thinking about my past. Well oh well December, thanks for making such a wonderful one so far, keep it up. 


with love,
Jude

Music makes me happy :)

:) 11:24:00 PM

Never Shout Never - New Music - More Music Videos

The season of killing! 6:55:00 PM

HUNGRY HUNGRY... Left 4 Dead anyone?? 

JING JING JING 9:38:00 PM

realise 
It's official, Christmas shopping is happening! Hahaha. Well the other day Lilly and I went to town to "look around" and I ended up buying a pair of shoes and jeans that finally fit me!

I so wanted to get this pair of jeans since like forever and its something totally different from what I'd usually wear. Plus they have my size.
:)

  I I have something about shoes... I' won't usually wear them till i feel like using them. Last 2 years I bought 3 pairs of converse and I only started wearing them recently...  hehe.. Well i need to get new footwear soon.

Christmas Wish list,

1. Bed side ipod dock/clock (for my new bed that is coming tmr =)

2. A pack of Dunhill fragrance

3. Jeans from penny

4. Belt

5. RAM

7. New skates (if only... haha)

8. A new coat of paint

9.The biggest bottle of Nielsen Massey Pure Vanilla Extract 

10. Driver's  licenses

I believe the list can go on... haha

CHRISTMAS IS IN 20 DAYS PEOPLE! 20! OMFGS Noooooo... I want my 2009... :(  If only I can keep it eh?

I'm just at home now... was feeling sick for the past few days.. later maybe i'll meet up with jimmy.. see how.. well lilly's at camp.. doing her camping stuff haha...
i'll just be a internet junkie good bye

Hearts.

Nevershoutnever! 5:24:00 PM

My new found Love. (Was just thinking of this song :)' )



Hearts.

November oh November 5:37:00 AM

This weeked was a good one.. Jrmy, rickly, lilly, shern and I went to check out the new left 4 dead game. It was so happening that we went back to play the day after also!! Hahaha

Well was a good week... Been so busy with stuff and Xmas. I can't believe I'm saying this but my army check up I coming soon.. Whooray to adulthood!! -_-


That's all for now..

hearts.