you're the reason. 10:00:00 PM

The year might be over, but I'm still selfish. It really hurts deep inside, for the things you wanna say but will never be able to. Its not a nice feeling, really. I'm still in denial and I'm still part of two worlds.
I wish I didn't have you in my life at all, at least I know I don't have to go through this pain that I think about everyday. Our expressions are like a mask that we wear on our face, hiding the truth about what we feel. Life is too short for us to have pride and ego. 
Well, for what its worth you're just like any other, they come and they go. 


But on the other hand, you're the world to me. I'm so happy down to my soul. The things that you've done, the action that you do, it simply speaks louder. IT'S RINGING IN MY EAR. I'm glad that I have you. I just have to remind myself. :)


I have to stop my wishful thinking; wishes never happens.

Christmas Christmas 9:54:00 AM

First of all, Merry Christmas everyone!! Or Bong Natal to those kristang people out there :)
Man oh man why is like everyone rushing? I'm seriously feeling the Christmas rush hmmm Sharon's surprise party is in like 2 days time man.. I have yet to get stuff and on top of that I'm baking *~*hahaha

Well I can't wait although!!

Love you guys, see you on the 29 whoever you are haha

Christmas's eve's eve 5:52:00 PM

It dosent seem that long anymore eh? I can't believe it the 23rd alreay balls.. No!!! I want my 2009!!

:(

Lies, the one thing that makes you human. 4:02:00 PM

Things are happening so fast nowadays, I'm just feeling a little lost thats all... Hopefully this is not how it ends, because I pictured it ending differently. I wish I could just press the rest button and everything will be good to go, rather than working from my heart inside out..
Currently at Jrmy's place, chilling out. hmmm...

I wish for you...

12 dec 2009 11:49:00 PM

December december, why are you such a junkie? I don't mind mid night video games runaways but i ain't such a hunky. It's creepy when the days are passing so fast when I'm here still thinking about my past. Well oh well December, thanks for making such a wonderful one so far, keep it up. 


with love,
Jude

Music makes me happy :)

:) 11:24:00 PM

Never Shout Never - New Music - More Music Videos

The season of killing! 6:55:00 PM

HUNGRY HUNGRY... Left 4 Dead anyone?? 

JING JING JING 9:38:00 PM

realise 
It's official, Christmas shopping is happening! Hahaha. Well the other day Lilly and I went to town to "look around" and I ended up buying a pair of shoes and jeans that finally fit me!

I so wanted to get this pair of jeans since like forever and its something totally different from what I'd usually wear. Plus they have my size.
:)

  I I have something about shoes... I' won't usually wear them till i feel like using them. Last 2 years I bought 3 pairs of converse and I only started wearing them recently...  hehe.. Well i need to get new footwear soon.

Christmas Wish list,

1. Bed side ipod dock/clock (for my new bed that is coming tmr =)

2. A pack of Dunhill fragrance

3. Jeans from penny

4. Belt

5. RAM

7. New skates (if only... haha)

8. A new coat of paint

9.The biggest bottle of Nielsen Massey Pure Vanilla Extract 

10. Driver's  licenses

I believe the list can go on... haha

CHRISTMAS IS IN 20 DAYS PEOPLE! 20! OMFGS Noooooo... I want my 2009... :(  If only I can keep it eh?

I'm just at home now... was feeling sick for the past few days.. later maybe i'll meet up with jimmy.. see how.. well lilly's at camp.. doing her camping stuff haha...
i'll just be a internet junkie good bye

Hearts.

Nevershoutnever! 5:24:00 PM

My new found Love. (Was just thinking of this song :)' )



Hearts.

November oh November 5:37:00 AM

This weeked was a good one.. Jrmy, rickly, lilly, shern and I went to check out the new left 4 dead game. It was so happening that we went back to play the day after also!! Hahaha

Well was a good week... Been so busy with stuff and Xmas. I can't believe I'm saying this but my army check up I coming soon.. Whooray to adulthood!! -_-


That's all for now..

hearts.

memories 12:43:00 AM

A friend not worth,

is another on this dearth.

A heart full of pain,

you're just to be blame.

A soul that cares,

will never be fair.

Fuck all that have been done

I'll try to overcome.

Cold Cold heart,

who's going to break us apart?

I wish I knew how to quit you.

I'm just a twit that slit.

Hearts.

Tearin' Us Apart 10:43:00 PM

I have officially fucked my life up. Well done me, >>> I just want to run away and start a new life from now on. Anywhere would do. But bullshit. Life is seriously unfair, when you get your taste of it you'd know.  hmmm

Well I guess I can't keep sucking at this moment, I'm just going to deal with the future.


Hearts.

Chasing Pirates 7:12:00 PM

This is the Bitch! :)

On the verge crying. 9:39:00 PM

Seriously Seriously sad right now... It hurts so much when you dream about something and that dream is just taken away from you with a blink. hmmm... I have no other place where my heart wants to go, I'll just let my head to do the talking.

fuck those fucking policy and requirements. There seriously no fucking justice this world.

I don't know why Y didn't come.. 11:47:00 PM

On the way home form jrmy's place.. Meeting lilly girl to get started on school work.. Bus 82
(just using up my data credits)
This is such a nice jazzy night.. Chills :)'

Hearts.

It's wearing me down this holiday... 1:54:00 PM

Heavy rain once again this morning.. Had a massive tummy ache.. :( haha not feeling too well gonna get an MC and prepair for mum's b'day.. Hmmm
HUNGRY!

Something ulgy/cute for you:)


Hearts

You might think I'm incapable of loving a soul like yours.. 9:52:00 PM

On the train now.. On the way home from a long day of adventures. Mum's and dad's birthday is coming up soon.. Gotta get the cake ready and party stuff :)

Well I woke up late, had a bad dream lastnigh>>> than off to meet lilly to grab our baking supplies at the pastry store. After that we chowed down to have dinner at far east.. 0.o

The weather have been great for the past few days.. Not to hot anymore.. Well let's see what school has for me tomorrow.. Having my final test,(I'm going to flunk that btw)
Till tmr!

Hearts.

I want to know what Love is.. 8:23:00 PM

∂ Woof! Woof! ∂
Last night Lilly and I met up with jimmy boy to catch Hurt Locker, It was a good show.. Miss having movie nights.. I have this strong feeling that this november is going to be a month filled with movies and impulse spending. Well once a year is alright right? :)'

"Waddle waddle", Any Christmas tree yet??
Okay it's official (I think) that I'm making Christmas at my place this year on boxing day. Can't wait! (lilly, do the Mariah Carey scream!) hahaha. For the next few weeks it's going to be mind boggling for me, christmas 
planing, savings, baking & 
everything that i love!! HAHA I've always look forward to the end of the year. Hopefully everything goes well. 

Well right now a few more weeks of school and out of college east, going to miss my two years there. hmmm.. never taught i'd see it end.  AND Oh I had a new hair cut and I'm getting used to it.. Lilly's idea.  That's all for now..


Hearts. 

A Monday that I Skipped. 2:07:00 PM

Well I haven't blog for awhile now... Been busy for the past few days.. Happy hallowen, All Saints and souls days everyone.. Yesterday we went to the cemetry.. Was nice.

I'm going to meet Lilian at the polyclinc now, on the LRT.. Write back to you soon :)'

They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself. 4:22:00 AM

Jude wish he was;


intelligent, 
beautiful,
dexterous,
assertive,
ambitious,
extrovert,
polyglot,

debonair,

witty,
& knows what to do. 

crazy pool 10:08:00 PM

Just got back from swimming... Dead tired right now, but I hope this saturday won't end yet! Sides was awesome. haha

New York snow 2:35:00 PM

Bored as hell in school, I'm just waiting for my group mates to finish their part than I'll be done for today.. Well the day isn't getting any shorter; Lilly and I have RCIA later in the late eveing. Hmmm Well there's nothing much to blog for today... I stayed over Lilly's last night and had a good time. I can't wait for the weekends, and to start on my projects! :) Jrmy have gone MIA and I haven't seen sharon for awhile now, our timing are messed up.

Well everything is going good in school for now, I just found out today that one of my CA is a fucker.. I can mangae things so far, die die have too.. 28more days till school end!! But they want to cut my hair... :( nvm in time for Christmas too...

Well I'll update you soon... take care!

Question 11a 2:13:00 AM

If;

Tired + Monday = Sleepy
Sleepy + Shower = Hungry
Hungry + Lazy = Tired

Then what should Jude do?

FUCK EVERYTHING! 6:24:00 PM

A huge decision I'm about to make, result: Unknown. 

It comes down to three options, Pâtisserie arts, Pastry and Baking or Cryptographer. Colleges vary from distance, length of course and tuition fees too.  

Every fucking thing seems SO SO hard nowadays. I can cry trying to understand and choose my right path. Questions ponder in me, should I follow my heart or my head?? Is it a logical choice? Is this the right thing to do?  It's just a fucking battle in there. 

Passion versus Talent. 

Friday morning 8:06:00 AM

This week has been rather hectic,  bed time had to earlier; around 9.. Well I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm glad to be back in school... I love the feeling of new challenges and accomplishment that I face everyday. >>> Two more months till Christmas and a brand new year ahead, I too am not quite ready to leave this past year. Alot has happen. Ups and downs, center and side.. haha 

Well let's make the best of out the last few months! 

Airport lunch 12:55:00 PM

Why is every thing so unpredictable now days... A few more weeks and we know it, it's Christmas. But everything seems so strange now days. How i wish October would go by quickly... And this feeling too.

I'm having lunch at the airport now... Kinda bored right now... Just waiting for my friend than back to school till evening...

These are surely one of those dayszzz

A new 16GB added in my life ;) 8:55:00 AM

I'm still in disbelieve that I bought a new phone... Well not just any phone, it's the iPhone hahaha.. Well it's cool... Games and stuff have yet to get covers..

Well I'm in school now just doing nothing, yes nothing.. Hmmm well till then then!

Out Here On My Own 8:13:00 AM

Last night was a blast! Lilly, Ricky, Jimmy and I went to watch Fame because today it's Ricky's 16th!!


Well back to school for me, It's 8:06am now, 2 hours before I go through hell for the next 1 month...
Hahaha, Well let's see the best out of it!

There's something about you I can't let go.. 

You're the most significant mark I've ever seen.

                                     Thank 

                                                                                  God

                                                     It's 

.:FRIDAY!:.

school can suck it, in two days time..

wensday, the eight of october two thousand and nine.. 3:24:00 AM

One of the most hilarious movie of 2009 man.. Just what I needed, a good laugh so hard I fell off my seat in the cinema and not forgetting flying popcorns ... hehehe

Lilly, Ricky and I decided to have a night out... The arcade was cool, and the after movie R&R by the seashore... 

Loves theses days...

A Rush of Blood to the Head? 2:07:00 AM

I can't stop my heart's desires,
is that the way it suppose to be?
A feeling so strong I feel weak inside.
I'd try to fake it outside.
hmmm...

What a Life, Love & Art.

Days like these.... 12:36:00 AM

What a monday to start the week. Pizza the night before, Morning breakfast at macs, i had my mc cuddles hahaha... Anyways it was a really nice day to hang out with jrmy in the afternoon. I haven't seen that fella in the afternoon for so long...

In the evening we went grab dinner at the bakery and some bubble tea, than off to Left 4 Dead! Ricky meet us there and we had a hella of a good time. (minus the toilet smelling part.)

Right now I'm just exhausted after rushing back home thinking it would rain... hmm

Well all in all it was an awesome day, let see what's in stored for tmr! :)

beneath the October stars we hold hands in the cold, cold air. 7:35:00 AM

Tell me how you've been,
Tell what you've seen,
Tell me that you'd like to see me too.
'cause my heart is full of no blood,
My cup is full of no love,

Couldn't take another sip even if I wanted.
My lungs are out of air,
Yours are holding smoke,
And it's been like that for so long.
I've seen people try to change,
And I know it isn't easy,
But nothin' worth the time ever is.


And it's not too late,

It's not too late for love....

Last night Jeremy and I went to catch a midnight movie. We kinda rush like crazy to the theatre to catch a 12 O' clocker... It was kinda my fault because I didn't calculate the timing correctly on the site; there was actually a 2am show also.. :(
Well it was a good show and we walk all the way home! Jeremy's crazy! the night before, after work, jeremy meet us to play ld4 till 5.30am too.. I have on idea how he can manage his sleep. haha..


Now i'm just at home, spending time with family and stuff.. haven't played with benny for awhile now, and I'm going to make pizzas! (In compliment of jrmy's cheese, thx btw)


Till then!

Fame 2009 6:37:00 PM

You're in my dreams.. 10:49:00 PM

As much as it hurts me deep down inside,
I know this is all we can ever be.
I'm not asking for more, I'm just feeling a little sore.
When I think of you my world is in a hurled whirl,
you make me glad when i'm feeling sad.
I wish I could burst out and let you know how I feel, but that would be near anything real.
As it rains tonight, my heart wants me to write.
But how can that be, when my head is in a fight?


Sjwjnt Ubjg Cj Dbrah

Starbucks evening... 11:01:00 PM

Benny 10:13:00 PM

You're all I have. 10:39:00 PM

I don't understand... I don't understand why are we so different. Is Different good or is Same better? Somethings that we do seems to be worlds apart, it's frustrating at time but I'll try to deal with it but I just don't seem to understand why. 
We're different people from different background but who is being logical? So nearly the case that it can be regarded as so; virtual and practical.. I rushed into this, maybe it wasn't a good idea to even begin.. 

Change; to make or become different.

Sunday Morning 12:14:00 AM

Paul Smith from Lilian... Thx so much for today babe! Totally shag after shopping with lilly for more than 12hrs; right after sunday church.

Firstly, 

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JEREMY!

Well it was an awesomelious week. Sunday meet up with jrmy, rey and heleyna... Jeremy gave us a birthday treat at Chomp Chomp, was really satisfying. Thanks Jimmy! L4D after dinner and we manage to catch Phobia 2 and Gamer all in the same week. hahaha... 
That's not all, later i'd be meeting him... Let's see what happens next? =D

Orchard 6:12:00 PM

Just walking around now....

Life sucks hard at this stage. 2:06:00 PM

Well hmm alot of shit has been happening lately... I don't wanna talk about it.. I'm having my holidays and I don't seem to be enjoying them at all one bit. I guess there's nothing much to do other that my usual stuff.. Everyone is busy with either this or that. Lilly has her art stuff to deal with, Jeremy is working like a workaholic... he barely have time for anyone now... Cornell, Sharon and practically everyone els is working. hmmm... 

Well I guess it's just me myself and I again. I was thinking of catching a movie but it seems that I have to fall ill again.  Jeremy was telling me about the movie moon; he said it was really good, hopefully they'll still have it in theatre by the time I catch it. Please mind the fact that I'm super bored at home and I'd rather be in school (seriously) or working but I'm down with this FUCKING infection. Hate Germs and Viruses and these MF Bacterias... Go to hell!! The power of Dettol compels you!! 

I'm going crazy, Seriously I am. It's been over 2 months am I'm still sick. yes sick. Before Lilian's birthday party It started... The first few weeks after Jrmy started work. I had my tonsillitis at jimmy place right after we went to have supper...  Hopefully I can get my life back soon and till then!

[It's been 2 months 17 days 13 hours and 51 minutes ] 

What a morning to start 9:50:00 AM

Been waiting and waiting and waiting... On top of that i'm having a fever... Sharon too. I guess the virus got to her too *cough cough* please pray that they won't put that camera/tube down my nose again... ):

hmmm 3:40:00 AM

"Evil does not exist, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes when there is no light."

Lilly 2:20:00 AM

Something that should'nt have happen. 9:36:00 PM

Guess what? Tonsilitist is back after I went for a tonsilitomy... WHAT THE FUCK!! It's damn sucky...

Been having fever for the past few days.. was around 40.. :( Right now I'm feeling very weak and can't do much. I wish this would all go away. I'm tired of the doctors and the pain.. hmmm.. Feel like dying right now. Just wish I could.

Well hopefully there will be better days...

Feeling the same way all over again.. 12:35:00 AM

Should I leave it as it is?

sit back and watch it all end?

I know it takes two hands to clap,

but what the use of clapping if the hands are busy?

My heart is battling with my head

I guess I'd ignore all this feelings instead.

hmmm...

I wish we could go back to the past

to those days when we had a blast!

Maybe I'd just let us be

hopefully we can be free

There are so many thing left unsaid

but i know we choose to keep it in our heads.

If we ever meet again in a few years

just so you know, i'd still be here.

What a friend you're to me

well, that's all we can ever be.

A forced feeling 12:11:00 AM

Back to school for me. Although tomorrow is going to be a Thursday, it sure doesn't feel like it. I have left exactly 7 days left before my holidays again. great. It's strange why everything is going so differently nowadays, how I wish it would all slow down. Dear friends, night cycling, Beaches, laughter, skating, mid-night movies, and games nights are now only but a memory. hmmm...

I would say I'm happy where I'm at now, although it may not seem all that perfect but thanks to the people that touch my life I'm willing to give it another try. I did alot of thinking while at home.Man, how blind I can be. A few more months till the end of this year. I hope at the end of it I can say it was a good year. Being away from school for so long, I have lost this feeling of accomplishment. Like the times where you finish a project and you can say, wow I did that? Hahaha.

Maybe if I squeeze in the time for October I can try to do something I have the passion for. Well lets see how much workload are there on my desk tomorrow. Oh shit. I have my NAFA test to take still. great. Till tomorrow, Good bye

Autumn is back again
it may seem insane.
Time passes by so fast
I just want to embrace my past.

In denial I can be
that's something you won't agree.
Someone please save me
or can you just let me be?

I've gotta move on
and all the memories soon would be gone.
Till the next day we'll meet
I promises it'll be sweet.

Coffee afternoon 3:59:00 PM

So i'm at starbucks now... At raffle's city just waiting for lilly to finish school...
Just now jimmy and I went down to the CMBP place for his army... Before that we waited for like 2hrs for his glasses Hahaha like wtf?
Anyways i should have brought my laptop... Right now i'm bloging using my phone... How sad... Well i have another 2 more hours till lilly finish...
Till then!

Jeremy 1:03:00 PM

Waiting for his new glasses

Baybeats! 7:10:00 PM

Baybeats was awesome this year followed lilly, ricky and Jimy! Well Anberlin was good. We got smashed in the mosh pit. hahas

Cold Cold Heart 11:11:00 AM

Round and round carousel
Has got you under it's spell,
Moving so fast...
But going nowhere

Is it lonely?

Up and down
Ferris wheel
Tell me how does it feel
To be so high...
Looking down here

Is it lonely?

Did the clown
Make you smile
He was only your fool for a while
Now he's gone back home
And left you wandering there

Is it lonely?

twenty 6 august 11:04:00 AM

Birthday is finally over.. Had a great one this year too! Thanks for all the warm wishes and gifts. :)
Well like I always say, It was a great trip around the sun again. Hahaha Looking forward to another ride.

Sunday morning 10:47:00 PM

Today Lilly had her Rite of Acceptance into the Order of Catechumens!

Welcome to the faith Lilly, hope you will continue to seek the good news.. :)

Well today is another sleepy Sunday… Wanted to go to Holland to get Valrhona cocoa but was too tired..
Last night we met jimmy at gardens to have dinner. Really enjoyed the satay man… it’s been so long since we went night cycling, all of us.. hahas midnight supper.

Well as for me same ol' usual thing… have another week before I go back to school…
Till then! Bye bye

Not to late.... hopefully 6:17:00 AM

Firstly, my throat is still killing me. I think it got worst instead of healing.. I'm having blood clots and aches at the surgical area . Hmmm... I have an appointment with the doc this Friday.

Secondly for the past weeks I've been staying home.. boredom usually strikes at 4am. Have practically nothing to do besides the internet and Norah Jones to keep me company although she can make me crazy at time when she makes me think too deeply...

Thirdly, I taught I'd never say this but I miss school. ha. Hopefully I can graduate. Have like what 4 weeks MC and so so so much work to do... SIAN...

Lastly, I might lose my mind if I don't do something soon. I hate to be sick, I feel so dysfunctional. Hmmm there's so many things to be done but I can't because of this agonizing pain. I wish it could all go away. Happy birthday Jude. hmmm

Praying softly in my heart that everything's going alright.
The pain and pangs that are unbearable.
I close my eyes when you're away
because the pain comes when you go astray.

Lying in my bed
tears are dry out from the pain,
and memories are running through my head.

There's nothing I can do but sit here and wait.
I dream of you everyday when I fall asleep.
You make me so happy when I'm awake.
You mean so much to me, girl you know it's true.

monday blues 4:41:00 PM

Day 7 after post tonsillectomy.

Feels like there's knifes down my throat and I feel like ripping my ears out because of the pain affecting it . I miss my dose of pain killers yesterday and the pain was unbearable. But after all, I hope everything goes well.

I don't know why but I've been feeling very sad these few day. I can't understand why these feelings are here but they are here. I wished it would go all away. hmmm....
I'm going to bring benny to the vet now. I think he sprain his paw.. hmmm.
till then..

speechless 7:52:00 PM

Surgery is finally over and now I just have to endure this pain for another two week while I’m in recovery. It was kinda scary, never been so nervous before.. Had needles in me, big syringe was there too.. haha but all went well…

Just before I went in, I could see the worry in my mum’s eye and lil’s too.. Sometimes I wish I could do this surgery without telling anyone. Hate it to see everyone like so worried. Well I don’t know what I’d do without all of you...

Lilly brought balloons and the nurses were shock hahaha… Jimmy came over when I got home.. we watch Charlie Bartlet. Thanks so much you guys! With you guys around the pain didn’t seems all that pain… :)

another kind of feeling that cannot be explain... 5:49:00 AM

Let's see what happens tmr... WOW.

after movie walk home... 4:13:00 AM

Short post... Just got home form the movie theatre.. Jimmy, lilly and I went to watch GI Joe… It was an okay movie to me. Jimmy met us at AMK after work and we came from my aunt’s birthday party.

Well today was kinda of a long day to me.. but I had loads of fun! It’s not going to end so soon; sharon’s coming home! Hahaha…

Hmmm till then. bb

What do you say
when it's all gone away ?
baby I didn't mean to hurt you
truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart
no matter how hard you resist it
it never rains when you want it to

Time after Time 5:01:00 PM

Blogger is getting on my nerves! Anyways The other day I went for my appointment and guess what?! The doc said he's gonna stuff a camera down my nose! Yucks! It's was seriously disgusting to see the inside of your nose on TV... Hahhaah was rather uncomfortable but well.. This is how much I hate tonsillitis!.

I'm going to have my surgery on Tuesday and hopefully it goes well... There's a 1 in 25,000 chances that I might be in ICU... well hopefully I'm the 24,999th.. hehehe

Okays I gottta chow now.. Going leave you with my beautiful Throat, Voice Box, Tonsil and some weird ass thing... Chows!

BITCH BLOGGER!!!

Nightingale 5:52:00 AM

Blogger is finally working.. I'm happy and very nervous at the same time. Happy being I can resume updating my blog and nervous because of tomorrow.

I have an appointment in the morning with the doctor about my tonsillitis. Never did I imagine taking them out. I do not know how much it's gonna cost and everything... Hopefully not too much. hmmmm.

Listening to some jazz... trying to clam down, I'm full of anxiety; can't sleep.

wish me luck!

I turn your picture to the wall,

I don't want to see you anymore.

It's now all a memory,

now it can never be,

I'll never see you anymore..

Only thing now to do is close your eyes,

and dream.

everythings not lost... 3:26:00 AM

Everyone is tuck tightly in bed, as I watch the hour of the morning goes by. It is 3:15 am as I’m writing this. A shadow of sadness is around us, while our hearts fear for the worst and our tears try to wash the sorrows away.

Looking at the stars above us, praying for the storm to be over. The pain becomes numb and the heart changes. Feelings are thrown around, words hurts much more than actions. It’s no fantasy if you think about it.


Love; a feeling above all.

once again. 7:41:00 AM

my freaking tonsillitis just came back again. It's going to kill me... I can't go through this agonizing pain again, I want to have it removed so badly. hmmm... fever's back and i'm going crazy! It's too damn MF pain!!!

Every time when ever I have such good plans for the week ahead i'll get this... I feel like a virus/bacterial magnet. Someone please make this stop.

time that doesn't tick. 1:09:00 PM

THREE hours till freedom. bored to death in this class. Can't wait for the weekend to start. Better yet, school to end. 

walk by me... 12:07:00 AM

A lot had happen since the twenty third of July. Well last saturday jimmy and I went to the twenty four hours LAN shop at gardens. My friends told me about that place, the sucky thing was we spend thirty minutes figuring our how to work the computer and it kept jamming up. arrgh. Jimmy and I had a ridiculously good game of Left 4 Dead. hahaha we need to bring more ppl. it's hell lot of fun!

It's been awhile since I started working on something new. I'm up for a challenge. For the past few days I think my body has gone mad, couldn't do thing properly. what a question of science.

Right now I'm looking forward to tomorrow. School and than RCIA with lilly. Than come friday! woo-hoo! man how the days past.  

Confused as i can be

I know you're real to me.

days like this 12:56:00 AM

Today was a good day. Firstly, this morning was raining so heavily man i love rainy days. hahaha than jimmy and i had a L4D time out! woo-hoo! hahaha i think i love anything got to do with zombies... than met lilly and we went shopping ard city hall....

well just wanted to blog about today. such a nice day.

good night

Monday, monday, monday.... Woots! 8:30:00 PM

Well I guess today I had the Monday’s blues. I didn’t go to school, I know I have that bad habit which I’m trying to kick. Well I decided to make full use of my time by settling stuffs at home. Didn’t have the time to sort things out since the party. Major recovery. Hahaha

Well I’m looking forward to a good week. Have some tentative plans here and there. Right now I’m just learning some culinary stuff online, recipes and techniques. I’m thinking of enrolling myself into a pastry school next year, once I’m done with electronics. I’m so sick and tired of computers. I love doing things down to earth, like food, or clothes, or arts.

Well I guess I’ll take a day at a time. Right now I’m at lil’s workplace. Waiting for her to finish up. Hahaha I’m so excited! Can’t wait to spend a night out with her tonight! :)

Friday's bus ride 12:18:00 PM

On the bus ride home from school… It’s going to be a 45-minute ride. It’s so strange how time pass so fast without us noticing it. I feel so weird out inside of me. How I wish I could go back in time and make things different. What I would give to be in school another day. Hmmm… in a month time or so, it’s going to be my 18^th birthday. I seriously cannot believe it. I can remember my 8th birthday like it was months ago. Swhoosh.

Lilly 4:35:00 AM

Well it’s over, I’m glad it’s over and sad at the same time. I would say the party was a blast! Had tons of work to do, but I think it was all worth it.

Happy 18^th Birthday lilly!

Right now there’s nothing much to do, just unpacked and get going with our normal life. Hmmm…

You turned my darkness into light;

You made everything all right.

You picked me up when I was down;

You turned my life around.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A blessing is what you are to me.

When I needed you the most, you were there;

Even if it seemed like you didn't care.

When I didn't think I could make it another day,

You chased all my doubts away.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A treasure is what you are to me.

The world is full of many people, it's true;

But there is only one of you.

You fill my heart with love;

You're a God-sent gift from above.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

An angel is what you are to me.

Lost and alone, I will no longer be;

Because you are here with me.

There is no reason to be sad;

You've taken away all the bad.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A girlfriend is what you are to me.

My buddy 4:30:00 AM

The moon is at it's zenith,

I'm staring into space.

I take a glance at the stars,

There I see his face.

A smile stretched ear to ear,

Lights up my dingy soul.

He dances a jig through my thoughts,

My God! He's on a roll!

His soul is strong and full of will,

I'm so proud of him.

I admire his perseverance,

His laughter's never dim.

I spend a lot of time with him,

Happy it makes me feel.

He's the one in which I confide,

This I know is real.

Our friendship we now have

is something that I'd miss

but maybe once we let go

we will find eternal bliss.

When you think I'm being too tough,

Remember that which does not kill you

Makes you stronger.

When you need a friend to listen,

Remember that I am here for you,

Always.

When you doubt me,

Remember that I once knelt at your feet,

Washing them in service to you.

When you lose faith in yourself,

Remember that I never did,

Nor ever will.