you're the reason. 10:00:00 PM

The year might be over, but I'm still selfish. It really hurts deep inside, for the things you wanna say but will never be able to. Its not a nice feeling, really. I'm still in denial and I'm still part of two worlds.
I wish I didn't have you in my life at all, at least I know I don't have to go through this pain that I think about everyday. Our expressions are like a mask that we wear on our face, hiding the truth about what we feel. Life is too short for us to have pride and ego. 
Well, for what its worth you're just like any other, they come and they go. 


But on the other hand, you're the world to me. I'm so happy down to my soul. The things that you've done, the action that you do, it simply speaks louder. IT'S RINGING IN MY EAR. I'm glad that I have you. I just have to remind myself. :)


I have to stop my wishful thinking; wishes never happens.

Christmas Christmas 9:54:00 AM

First of all, Merry Christmas everyone!! Or Bong Natal to those kristang people out there :)
Man oh man why is like everyone rushing? I'm seriously feeling the Christmas rush hmmm Sharon's surprise party is in like 2 days time man.. I have yet to get stuff and on top of that I'm baking *~*hahaha

Well I can't wait although!!

Love you guys, see you on the 29 whoever you are haha

Christmas's eve's eve 5:52:00 PM

It dosent seem that long anymore eh? I can't believe it the 23rd alreay balls.. No!!! I want my 2009!!

:(

Lies, the one thing that makes you human. 4:02:00 PM

Things are happening so fast nowadays, I'm just feeling a little lost thats all... Hopefully this is not how it ends, because I pictured it ending differently. I wish I could just press the rest button and everything will be good to go, rather than working from my heart inside out..
Currently at Jrmy's place, chilling out. hmmm...

I wish for you...

12 dec 2009 11:49:00 PM

December december, why are you such a junkie? I don't mind mid night video games runaways but i ain't such a hunky. It's creepy when the days are passing so fast when I'm here still thinking about my past. Well oh well December, thanks for making such a wonderful one so far, keep it up. 


with love,
Jude

Music makes me happy :)

:) 11:24:00 PM

Never Shout Never - New Music - More Music Videos

The season of killing! 6:55:00 PM

HUNGRY HUNGRY... Left 4 Dead anyone?? 

JING JING JING 9:38:00 PM

realise 
It's official, Christmas shopping is happening! Hahaha. Well the other day Lilly and I went to town to "look around" and I ended up buying a pair of shoes and jeans that finally fit me!

I so wanted to get this pair of jeans since like forever and its something totally different from what I'd usually wear. Plus they have my size.
:)

  I I have something about shoes... I' won't usually wear them till i feel like using them. Last 2 years I bought 3 pairs of converse and I only started wearing them recently...  hehe.. Well i need to get new footwear soon.

Christmas Wish list,

1. Bed side ipod dock/clock (for my new bed that is coming tmr =)

2. A pack of Dunhill fragrance

3. Jeans from penny

4. Belt

5. RAM

7. New skates (if only... haha)

8. A new coat of paint

9.The biggest bottle of Nielsen Massey Pure Vanilla Extract 

10. Driver's  licenses

I believe the list can go on... haha

CHRISTMAS IS IN 20 DAYS PEOPLE! 20! OMFGS Noooooo... I want my 2009... :(  If only I can keep it eh?

I'm just at home now... was feeling sick for the past few days.. later maybe i'll meet up with jimmy.. see how.. well lilly's at camp.. doing her camping stuff haha...
i'll just be a internet junkie good bye

Hearts.