Not to late.... hopefully 6:17:00 AM

Firstly, my throat is still killing me. I think it got worst instead of healing.. I'm having blood clots and aches at the surgical area . Hmmm... I have an appointment with the doc this Friday.

Secondly for the past weeks I've been staying home.. boredom usually strikes at 4am. Have practically nothing to do besides the internet and Norah Jones to keep me company although she can make me crazy at time when she makes me think too deeply...

Thirdly, I taught I'd never say this but I miss school. ha. Hopefully I can graduate. Have like what 4 weeks MC and so so so much work to do... SIAN...

Lastly, I might lose my mind if I don't do something soon. I hate to be sick, I feel so dysfunctional. Hmmm there's so many things to be done but I can't because of this agonizing pain. I wish it could all go away. Happy birthday Jude. hmmm

Praying softly in my heart that everything's going alright.
The pain and pangs that are unbearable.
I close my eyes when you're away
because the pain comes when you go astray.

Lying in my bed
tears are dry out from the pain,
and memories are running through my head.

There's nothing I can do but sit here and wait.
I dream of you everyday when I fall asleep.
You make me so happy when I'm awake.
You mean so much to me, girl you know it's true.