you keep hurting, I keep quiet.. 5:18:00 PM

Why do i even brother?? you treat me like i owe you a return.. I don't even know why I keep trying to stay on, what's the point? After all that we've been through, you act like nothing has ever happen. whatever fuck happen from now I'm not giving two shits. (or at least i'll try not to) it's just hurting me. To hell with all of you! 

Think whatever you want of me..

Kokomo sounds good now.. 10:11:00 AM

So it's the new year already.. Well there's new worries... hmmm I've been so stress out with this Poly/ITE/Army shit. Right now seriously, I feel like just going in NS this year. At least I don't have to worry about studying and all that crap. Arrrrgh. 

Why oh why?!?! 

Well let's see where the fuck this goes. 

A part of life, a joy to the soul. 4:31:00 PM

Yes we are [friends] and I do like to pass the day with you in serious and inconsequential chatter.  I wouldn't mind washing up beside you, dusting beside you, reading the back half of the paper while you read the front.  We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often.  I don't want to lose this happy space where I have found someone who is smart and easy and doesn't bother to check her diary when we arrange to meet.  ~Jeanette Winterson, Written on the Body, 1992


“Never explain yourself. Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it.”
“True friends are like diamonds, precious and rare. False friends are like leaves, found everywhere.”
A friend will come bail you out of jail but, your best friend will be sitting next to you saying… “Wow that was fun!”

you're the reason. 10:00:00 PM

The year might be over, but I'm still selfish. It really hurts deep inside, for the things you wanna say but will never be able to. Its not a nice feeling, really. I'm still in denial and I'm still part of two worlds.
I wish I didn't have you in my life at all, at least I know I don't have to go through this pain that I think about everyday. Our expressions are like a mask that we wear on our face, hiding the truth about what we feel. Life is too short for us to have pride and ego. 
Well, for what its worth you're just like any other, they come and they go. 


But on the other hand, you're the world to me. I'm so happy down to my soul. The things that you've done, the action that you do, it simply speaks louder. IT'S RINGING IN MY EAR. I'm glad that I have you. I just have to remind myself. :)


I have to stop my wishful thinking; wishes never happens.

Christmas Christmas 9:54:00 AM

First of all, Merry Christmas everyone!! Or Bong Natal to those kristang people out there :)
Man oh man why is like everyone rushing? I'm seriously feeling the Christmas rush hmmm Sharon's surprise party is in like 2 days time man.. I have yet to get stuff and on top of that I'm baking *~*hahaha

Well I can't wait although!!

Love you guys, see you on the 29 whoever you are haha

Christmas's eve's eve 5:52:00 PM

It dosent seem that long anymore eh? I can't believe it the 23rd alreay balls.. No!!! I want my 2009!!

:(

Lies, the one thing that makes you human. 4:02:00 PM

Things are happening so fast nowadays, I'm just feeling a little lost thats all... Hopefully this is not how it ends, because I pictured it ending differently. I wish I could just press the rest button and everything will be good to go, rather than working from my heart inside out..
Currently at Jrmy's place, chilling out. hmmm...

I wish for you...

12 dec 2009 11:49:00 PM

December december, why are you such a junkie? I don't mind mid night video games runaways but i ain't such a hunky. It's creepy when the days are passing so fast when I'm here still thinking about my past. Well oh well December, thanks for making such a wonderful one so far, keep it up. 


with love,
Jude

Music makes me happy :)

:) 11:24:00 PM

Never Shout Never - New Music - More Music Videos

The season of killing! 6:55:00 PM

HUNGRY HUNGRY... Left 4 Dead anyone?? 

JING JING JING 9:38:00 PM

realise 
It's official, Christmas shopping is happening! Hahaha. Well the other day Lilly and I went to town to "look around" and I ended up buying a pair of shoes and jeans that finally fit me!

I so wanted to get this pair of jeans since like forever and its something totally different from what I'd usually wear. Plus they have my size.
:)

  I I have something about shoes... I' won't usually wear them till i feel like using them. Last 2 years I bought 3 pairs of converse and I only started wearing them recently...  hehe.. Well i need to get new footwear soon.

Christmas Wish list,

1. Bed side ipod dock/clock (for my new bed that is coming tmr =)

2. A pack of Dunhill fragrance

3. Jeans from penny

4. Belt

5. RAM

7. New skates (if only... haha)

8. A new coat of paint

9.The biggest bottle of Nielsen Massey Pure Vanilla Extract 

10. Driver's  licenses

I believe the list can go on... haha

CHRISTMAS IS IN 20 DAYS PEOPLE! 20! OMFGS Noooooo... I want my 2009... :(  If only I can keep it eh?

I'm just at home now... was feeling sick for the past few days.. later maybe i'll meet up with jimmy.. see how.. well lilly's at camp.. doing her camping stuff haha...
i'll just be a internet junkie good bye

Hearts.

Nevershoutnever! 5:24:00 PM

My new found Love. (Was just thinking of this song :)' )



Hearts.

November oh November 5:37:00 AM

This weeked was a good one.. Jrmy, rickly, lilly, shern and I went to check out the new left 4 dead game. It was so happening that we went back to play the day after also!! Hahaha

Well was a good week... Been so busy with stuff and Xmas. I can't believe I'm saying this but my army check up I coming soon.. Whooray to adulthood!! -_-


That's all for now..

hearts.

memories 12:43:00 AM

A friend not worth,

is another on this dearth.

A heart full of pain,

you're just to be blame.

A soul that cares,

will never be fair.

Fuck all that have been done

I'll try to overcome.

Cold Cold heart,

who's going to break us apart?

I wish I knew how to quit you.

I'm just a twit that slit.

Hearts.

Tearin' Us Apart 10:43:00 PM

I have officially fucked my life up. Well done me, >>> I just want to run away and start a new life from now on. Anywhere would do. But bullshit. Life is seriously unfair, when you get your taste of it you'd know.  hmmm

Well I guess I can't keep sucking at this moment, I'm just going to deal with the future.


Hearts.

Chasing Pirates 7:12:00 PM

This is the Bitch! :)

On the verge crying. 9:39:00 PM

Seriously Seriously sad right now... It hurts so much when you dream about something and that dream is just taken away from you with a blink. hmmm... I have no other place where my heart wants to go, I'll just let my head to do the talking.

fuck those fucking policy and requirements. There seriously no fucking justice this world.

I don't know why Y didn't come.. 11:47:00 PM

On the way home form jrmy's place.. Meeting lilly girl to get started on school work.. Bus 82
(just using up my data credits)
This is such a nice jazzy night.. Chills :)'

Hearts.

It's wearing me down this holiday... 1:54:00 PM

Heavy rain once again this morning.. Had a massive tummy ache.. :( haha not feeling too well gonna get an MC and prepair for mum's b'day.. Hmmm
HUNGRY!

Something ulgy/cute for you:)


Hearts

You might think I'm incapable of loving a soul like yours.. 9:52:00 PM

On the train now.. On the way home from a long day of adventures. Mum's and dad's birthday is coming up soon.. Gotta get the cake ready and party stuff :)

Well I woke up late, had a bad dream lastnigh>>> than off to meet lilly to grab our baking supplies at the pastry store. After that we chowed down to have dinner at far east.. 0.o

The weather have been great for the past few days.. Not to hot anymore.. Well let's see what school has for me tomorrow.. Having my final test,(I'm going to flunk that btw)
Till tmr!

Hearts.