Bonds of trusts 11:18:00 PM

My mind is in a whirl, only to be understood by someone, who appears to be insane to the universe. Because this is what people do, they judge. from the path chosen to the colour of clouds a reigning in your sky. This is a sad place where acceptance exists only in gorgeous dreams. No where near my heart is peace; expect for a brief few moments of escape which will be cherished for as long as the beauty of the ocean shall live.


And where that beauty resides, shall the memories everlasting be a constant reminder of the most divine yet uninhibited expression of euphoria. 

- Anonymous   

Its not the things you've said, it's those you didn't. 12:09:00 AM

This month has not been a good month for me, alot of things has happen and is happening, and is not stopping just yet. Everything is just going wrong. 

Sometimes the people closest to you hurt you the most. They say things that you could never imagine, do things that you'd never do. Well what can I do but try to forgive? I'm tired of trying to make things at peace all the time, be treated as a doormat, and just be used when needed. That just shows how much I mean to you; how much you really care. Well I don't think I need someone like that so please just go, I'd do better without you.

"True colours are shown not by the biggest of things, but the tiniest."

Poem? 5:01:00 AM

Read this little poem, I love it. No, I didn't write it


If i dont call you

[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When i walk away from you mad

[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth

[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you

[ Grab me and dont let go ]

When i call you and say i cant sleep

[stay on the phone till i go to sleep]

When i start cussing at you

[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When im quiet

[ Ask me whats wrong ]

When i ignore you

[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away

[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst

[ Tell me im beautiful ]

When you see me start crying

[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking

[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When im scared

[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder

[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i grab at your hands

[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i tease you

[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time

[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt

[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i love you

[ I really do more than you could understand ]

When i bump into you

[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret

[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes

[ dont look away until i do ]

When i miss you

[ im hurting inside ]

When you break my heart

[ the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over

[ i still want you to be mine ]

this is painfully obvious. 6:41:00 PM

I wish I could tell all of you my secret, maybe in the next life. 

maybe you're not worth it.