You're all I have. 10:39:00 PM

I don't understand... I don't understand why are we so different. Is Different good or is Same better? Somethings that we do seems to be worlds apart, it's frustrating at time but I'll try to deal with it but I just don't seem to understand why. 
We're different people from different background but who is being logical? So nearly the case that it can be regarded as so; virtual and practical.. I rushed into this, maybe it wasn't a good idea to even begin.. 

Change; to make or become different.

Sunday Morning 12:14:00 AM

Paul Smith from Lilian... Thx so much for today babe! Totally shag after shopping with lilly for more than 12hrs; right after sunday church.

Firstly, 

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JEREMY!

Well it was an awesomelious week. Sunday meet up with jrmy, rey and heleyna... Jeremy gave us a birthday treat at Chomp Chomp, was really satisfying. Thanks Jimmy! L4D after dinner and we manage to catch Phobia 2 and Gamer all in the same week. hahaha... 
That's not all, later i'd be meeting him... Let's see what happens next? =D

Orchard 6:12:00 PM

Just walking around now....

Life sucks hard at this stage. 2:06:00 PM

Well hmm alot of shit has been happening lately... I don't wanna talk about it.. I'm having my holidays and I don't seem to be enjoying them at all one bit. I guess there's nothing much to do other that my usual stuff.. Everyone is busy with either this or that. Lilly has her art stuff to deal with, Jeremy is working like a workaholic... he barely have time for anyone now... Cornell, Sharon and practically everyone els is working. hmmm... 

Well I guess it's just me myself and I again. I was thinking of catching a movie but it seems that I have to fall ill again.  Jeremy was telling me about the movie moon; he said it was really good, hopefully they'll still have it in theatre by the time I catch it. Please mind the fact that I'm super bored at home and I'd rather be in school (seriously) or working but I'm down with this FUCKING infection. Hate Germs and Viruses and these MF Bacterias... Go to hell!! The power of Dettol compels you!! 

I'm going crazy, Seriously I am. It's been over 2 months am I'm still sick. yes sick. Before Lilian's birthday party It started... The first few weeks after Jrmy started work. I had my tonsillitis at jimmy place right after we went to have supper...  Hopefully I can get my life back soon and till then!

[It's been 2 months 17 days 13 hours and 51 minutes ] 

What a morning to start 9:50:00 AM

Been waiting and waiting and waiting... On top of that i'm having a fever... Sharon too. I guess the virus got to her too *cough cough* please pray that they won't put that camera/tube down my nose again... ):

hmmm 3:40:00 AM

"Evil does not exist, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes when there is no light."

Lilly 2:20:00 AM

Something that should'nt have happen. 9:36:00 PM

Guess what? Tonsilitist is back after I went for a tonsilitomy... WHAT THE FUCK!! It's damn sucky...

Been having fever for the past few days.. was around 40.. :( Right now I'm feeling very weak and can't do much. I wish this would all go away. I'm tired of the doctors and the pain.. hmmm.. Feel like dying right now. Just wish I could.

Well hopefully there will be better days...

Feeling the same way all over again.. 12:35:00 AM

Should I leave it as it is?

sit back and watch it all end?

I know it takes two hands to clap,

but what the use of clapping if the hands are busy?

My heart is battling with my head

I guess I'd ignore all this feelings instead.

hmmm...

I wish we could go back to the past

to those days when we had a blast!

Maybe I'd just let us be

hopefully we can be free

There are so many thing left unsaid

but i know we choose to keep it in our heads.

If we ever meet again in a few years

just so you know, i'd still be here.

What a friend you're to me

well, that's all we can ever be.

A forced feeling 12:11:00 AM

Back to school for me. Although tomorrow is going to be a Thursday, it sure doesn't feel like it. I have left exactly 7 days left before my holidays again. great. It's strange why everything is going so differently nowadays, how I wish it would all slow down. Dear friends, night cycling, Beaches, laughter, skating, mid-night movies, and games nights are now only but a memory. hmmm...

I would say I'm happy where I'm at now, although it may not seem all that perfect but thanks to the people that touch my life I'm willing to give it another try. I did alot of thinking while at home.Man, how blind I can be. A few more months till the end of this year. I hope at the end of it I can say it was a good year. Being away from school for so long, I have lost this feeling of accomplishment. Like the times where you finish a project and you can say, wow I did that? Hahaha.

Maybe if I squeeze in the time for October I can try to do something I have the passion for. Well lets see how much workload are there on my desk tomorrow. Oh shit. I have my NAFA test to take still. great. Till tomorrow, Good bye

Autumn is back again
it may seem insane.
Time passes by so fast
I just want to embrace my past.

In denial I can be
that's something you won't agree.
Someone please save me
or can you just let me be?

I've gotta move on
and all the memories soon would be gone.
Till the next day we'll meet
I promises it'll be sweet.

Coffee afternoon 3:59:00 PM

So i'm at starbucks now... At raffle's city just waiting for lilly to finish school...
Just now jimmy and I went down to the CMBP place for his army... Before that we waited for like 2hrs for his glasses Hahaha like wtf?
Anyways i should have brought my laptop... Right now i'm bloging using my phone... How sad... Well i have another 2 more hours till lilly finish...
Till then!

Jeremy 1:03:00 PM

Waiting for his new glasses

Baybeats! 7:10:00 PM

Baybeats was awesome this year followed lilly, ricky and Jimy! Well Anberlin was good. We got smashed in the mosh pit. hahas