Sugar 4:34:00 PM

Oh gosh... Finally I'm resting on my bed. It's been nearly a week since I last baked, and I told myself, No! this could not be happening!! Well I went to the supermarket today after we made a useless trip down to downtown east. Lilian and I were suppose to booked a chalet for her birthday, but ended up, going back empty handed.

Well, anyways Got myself some flour and other baking needs and I decided to make some macaroons today.

Well the macaroons did not turn out to how the macaroons I intended it to be. It came out some sort of shortbread-cookie thingy. Well there's always another try.

I made classic sugar cookies instead! :) Awesomelisicous

Prayer 11:46:00 PM

I thank you for my friends, for those who understand me better than I understand myself, for those who know me at my worst and still love me, for those who have forgiven me when I had no right to expect to be forgiven.
Help me to be as true to my friends as I would wish them to be to me.
Help me to take the first step to get into touch again with friends from whom I have drifted apart.
and help me to have no bitterness but only forgiveness to any of my friends who failed or who turned against me; this I ask for your love;'s sake. Amen.


Source: Jeremy's prayer book.

Strange Saturday.. 9:22:00 PM

Another lazy Saturday.. Something seems different than usual, I just can't put a finger onto what it is. I had a good dinner. Had a bad dream last night, I dreamt about my worst fear. Couldn't believe when I woke up. Told myself thank god it was a dream. But maybe, just maybe it might happen in reality. The signs are there.

Music seems to be the only thing that understands. Feelings inside me are all jumbled up, I don't know what I'm feeling. It's mixed with pain, joy, jealousy, love and fearfulness.

I wish this feeling inside me would just disappear. Life is just full of shitz...

How far is far?? 1:09:00 AM

I am speechless, I don't know what to say. I am so tired right now, but I had a fantastic Friday night. It sounds a little crazy but maybe we'll try it someday again. Lil and I cycled all the way to east coast to chill out at the beach there.. So sad Jeremy couldn't make it, as he had something on this evening. Well we'll go someday again kk!! Anyways we took around 1 1/2 hrs to reach there. It was a 15.6km cycle to the park; wasn't too bad...

Loads of traffic, stupid ppl bumping into each other and women driver! hahaha. was really fun.

I'm going to sleep now.

(too tired to upload the pictures...)

Caramel thursday 2:21:00 AM

I'm finally on my bed resting. Today lil came over and we started making some muffins and sugar cookies. It was good I'd say. Everything went well except for the icing and not forgetting my eyebrows and toes. Freaking boiling hot caramel splash onto my brows and toe. damn pain balls... Now it's swelling really bad and I hope it gets better.

Well, today was good.

I wish, I really wish we could turn back time together..

More like I had a better week than day 4:52:00 PM

Still down with the cold... Look like it's going to stay for long.. I can't do anything, feeling so weak too. Plans today had to cancel. I was suppose to follow jimmy for his interview this morning, than chow down to school for awhile, but what the hack. Damn flu

I just got back from the clinic, and the doc gave me 2 days MC!! well it's not happening when you're unwell.. damn. Hahaha the doctor said I had most of the swine flu symptoms. well I ain't pig.

well I'm more than happy to stay home...

Oh wait! This seriously made my day. I need to find that owner! She's crazy like sharon with benny.

What's up with the party hats and balloons?? hahaha

In the middle of the night! 2:06:00 AM

waken up by the wary of life in the middles night. Shock and uncertain where I was, I realise it was only my room. Wondering who's still awake at this hour, I went online. Lil was still on, chatted with her for awhile and now, the silence in the night seems so dead. And lifeless.

My nose feels like a tap. My head feels like a drum and my body feel like a meat tenderiser is hitting it. Geezed! I guess i'd got to see a doctor.

Till the drips stop...

I had better days.. 10:04:00 PM

Down with the flu... hope its not swine or that hunch I had. WHO was right. I hope it's not the end of the world. Well anyways I just got a new oven and it's so cool. Just baked some bread to try out. It came out awesome.

till the flu's over.. bye

Something from the heart. 3:53:00 AM

I can't sleep. Somethings are in my head that are bothering me. I just need to let you know both that I'll sill love you the same what ever happens. It just hurts me sometimes, but I'm pointing fingers at anyone. We're only human, you and me. Life is too short to have pride and ego to cover up our true self.

I maybe sensitive at times, but I'll always try to understand your situation. Love and care is a two way path in human nature, I was taught to live with only one; give but have nothing in return. But sometimes it just kills me inside, so maybe today is one of those days.

I'm sorry if I have ever let you down; mistakes can only be learnt when the person sees the outcome. I'll try to do that.

For what it's worth, both of you'll are my biggest inspirations.

Something that was not to be spoken of. 3:20:00 AM

Saturday wasn't such a good day.. It was fun and everything, but not how I pictured the day would end. Three of us, Jimmy, Lil & I went to have supper at the new Prata shop near jimmy's place. While we were cycling there, I saw this ambulance next to me. Personally I don't like ambulance, police cars or fire trucks. It's kinda like an omen to me.

Yea so anyways, we went to eat, enjoyed the food.. After we left the coffeeshop, I felt like as if there was this weight next to me on my bike that was trying to pin me down. I just didn't bother at first. After a while later I had a really bad fall while going to the slope, the bike skidded with me. I had some cuts on my hand, twisted my shoulder and my whole left arm was numb.

I just didn't want to bother about the pain, I just laugh about it. I seriously think that was a bad night, whatever that was trying to get me.

I just got back from the movies. It was a interesting show, I'll just call it A&D. It kinda get you thinking about the Vatican. Not about the catholic church, more on the Vatican councils.

Well it's been a long day. Looking forward to tomorrow.

Till then,

God bless.

Ice-cream??!! 9:42:00 PM

Just got back from compass point... Had dinner with mum at KFC hahha haven't had dinner with her for a while now, just the two of us. Well, went to look around at stuff.. Kinda lazy.. today feels like a lazy Sunday, somehow.

I can't wait for next week! Tuesday somebody special is coming to my place to stay!! :) I think I'm becoming crazy... I'm so excited I can't stop this anxiety.

I'm so bored... There nothing to do, ON A SATURDAY NIGHT! nothing's on TV, facebook or the net is not doing any good..

Surprising this was in orchard...

A new place. a new routine! :) 3:24:00 AM

These are one of those nights that are silence, The streets seems so lifeless at this hour. Well it's not how the Friday night I pictured, but that would do. Hopefully my weekend is going to be supered! :)

I'm spending the night chilling with Jimmy today. We went to have supper at the Prata shop behind his place. Was not bad, something new.. It was kinda scary cycling through the private estate in the dark streets, but it was fun to have that thrill at the same time. I'm going to miss these time, cycling in the middle of the night to nowhere, laughing, talking shit about our daily lives.. I'm going to miss you when things start to change for us as we both have to go our own ways... Never taught I'd have a friend like you... Deep down I'm happy and sad at the same time, hopefully this will never end. Hmmm...

Anyways now I'm back at his place.. just surfing the net while you're sleeping! Told you'd sleep! :) hehe...

Friendship, a gift from God.

Life is just full of shits, thing that you have to go through and don't, things you got to try and things you have do to that you don't like. It's really unfair but that fucking life! Hopefully heaven would be better..

I see no change 1:45:00 PM

I have just change the templete.... Still working on it.

If only it was that easy...

$$$$ 11:40:00 PM

The paper with the 4 magic number has finally come,

it is in good hands now and all I have to do is wait for 3 days...

Soon.... :)

Thx for following me guys

The love that you bring. 3:43:00 AM

Saying a little prayer for you as I rest my head and go to bed,

Thinking of you every night before I sleep.

May you have the most wonderful dream and goodnight.

You'll always the warmth in my heart, love you.

Friday that seems to be like a Thursday. 4:40:00 AM

Sometimes I wish you would understand me better,
trust me and have faith that we'll grow old together.
There is no limits to what I'd do for you.
Let it be something so simple like a shoulder
or learning how to fly, I'd always want you to have the best.

You bring light into my life, when there's darkness.
You're always there even before I need you.
You have shown me what and how much you care;
I am grateful for that.

Now all I ask, if you could see the light that I bring to you.
I'll only give you when you need it, but not when you want it.
So if there's a day that we run out topics in our conversations,
let us just keep our mouth shut.
Because you wouldn't need a mounth to speak when there's love.

I hope we would last, because I've shown you all I have;
there's nothing more of me than what you can see now.
This is me, only me. No masks, no disguise.
If the day comes when need more, I'm sorry;
but that's all I have, now and forever more.






These rainy night makes me wonder. The thunder roars and the splattering rains sounds so familiar. I'm over at Jimmy's place now, we went to catch a midnight show; Star Trek. Well it's a good movie. Very future realistic. We walked back from AMK hub and now i'm dead tired. Going to take a shut eye soon and I can't wait to see what's installed for me tomorrow! Oh ya! I tottaly need to get a last minute present for mother's day. Far east flora! Till tmr good night.

wooo!!! rainey nights =D
ps: I had a dejavu during the movie.

Lost day, Bad dream...

Just another Monday's blue 9:21:00 PM

Woah, it’s been like so many days since I’ve updated. Load’s have happen since I last updated. We went night cycling again to Parsir Ris this time with Ricky. Went for a SJC drama play at NAFA; was really good. Yea and load more that I’m too lazy to think back now.

Today school was okay, accept they were a lot of health checkup because of the SIV. Damn sickening. Well after school I went down to ikea to buy some kitchenware… yea boring day, nothing much… I guess I’ll just wait for Sharon to get back home tonight :D