Bored = Bo red. 11:26:00 AM

Jude is dead tired and bored in school now. DAMN this projects....

Monday Blues 11:35:00 PM

Damn tired. Had to do my fitness test today, and I walk home from Ang Mo kio. yea. Legs are officially dead.. Goodnight.

We ain't so big no more.. 6:13:00 AM

(Spitzer's Infrared image of the Milky Way Galaxy)

Have you ever look up at the sky at night and asked yourself, where are we in this vast emptiness of space? Well I do. I don’t know about you, but if you can visualise big numbers, you’d understand what I’m talking about. Let us travel from the start, to the end.

Earth, or as we know it as home, is the only place in the universe where life is known to exist. Life on Earth is abundant, everywhere there’s life. From the deepest ocean to the peak of mountains, there’s certainly life. Earth has only one known satellite; or I’d like to call it, the Moon. Earth is home to everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar," every "supreme leader," every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived here.

(The first photograph of an Earthrise by humans.)

Let’s go back to something more down to earth, like our neighbourhood. We all know that there are eight planets in our solar system, and there are another five more dwarf planets, so there is a total of 13 planets in our solar system.
There’s the Sun, Mercury, Venus, Earth, Mars, (The Asteroids Belt), Ceres, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, (The Kuiper Belt), Pluto, Haumea, Makemake, (The scattered Disk), Eris and the Oort Cloud.
Well that’s just 13 planets, hundreds of moons, The asteroid belts and the other debris from the formation of the Solar System orbiting one star; our Sun.

(The Milky Way as seen from Death Valley.)

Than comes the Local Interstellar Cloud or called the Local Fluff is a cloud where our solar system is in and is moving.
Than next we’re in this Local Bubble, where it sits at the Orion Arm in our Milky Way Galaxy.
The Orion Arm is just one minor spiral arm in our Milky Way Galaxy. The Milky Way is know to harvest approximately 200 billion stars. Our Milky Way galaxy looks like a stream of milk in the night sky, hence it’s name, and our galaxy is one of a 100 billion in the known side of the universe.

(the majestic spiral galaxy NGC 4414, NASA, ESA Hubble Space Telescope)

Our known observable universe is very large, it spreads over a distance of 93 billion light years across of space. Once light year is roughly 9.4 trillion km, or the time light travels in one year.

So where is earth in this emptiness of space? I don’t know.

(The Hubble Ultra Deep Field, is an image of thousands of galaxies)

To me, life here on earth is so small. We’re like ants, digging holes into the earth to make cities. Oblivious to what’s really around us out there. There is so much wonder out there that I myself cannot possibly imagine. Look at it this way, when you sow a seed, how can that small seed turn in to bush of flowers? That one tiny seed, now made colours, sent, and beauty. The next time you see a plant, take a look at it’s leaves. You’d realise how unique and detailed a leave can be. So simple as it is, life can flourish around earth.

Weekend getaway 10:21:00 PM

Just another weekend runaway adventure. I'm tired and sleepy, but what the hack, I only have one weekend to enjoy every week.

Church tomorrow morning.

If i fall in love with you its not my fault... 8:37:00 PM

Falling in love with you

is one of the hardest things I've ever done.

Some people find that strange,

but then,

they haven't been fighting their heart for years,

relabling every feeling as "misguided" or worse.

When I speak to you,

I'm still waiting for the numbness that refuses to come.

The other day when you left,

my heart screamed a protest.

Was it fake?

I ask myself the question again,

the same question I've been asking for all this time.

The difficulty of the situation is made harder

by the fact you want me too.

How do I know?

The smiles you give me,

the phrases you choose,

your eyes.

I stare into your eyes and my heart jumps.

I stare into your eyes and my head reels.

You've taken over my mind and stolen my heart.

but its alright i dont want it back.

you can take it but please dont break it....

i loved you then and i love you now

i wanted to tell you i just didnt know how.

i lay in bed with thoughts of you

running through my head......

But I just want this part of me to disappear,

and back where we were before.

Food Fair! 2:29:00 AM

Today was my class Carnival food fair.. It was so fun. I didn't get to sleep much the night before, so what the hack, I just got to school. Got there, The crowed was great. We manage to make a profit of about $30 each. Hahaha at least it's better than nothing or better yet a lost. hahaha.

Well the cakes and brownies was so happening. My friend's mum made it was awesome. Other's sold donuts, sweets, satay, drink and muffins.

He's backkkk... 2:15:00 AM

Jude's back! :)

Fuck it, I quit. 3:20:00 PM

I feel so fucked up. So many shits that gotta be done. Please... hmmm… I just want to give up like seriously. No more shits has got to be done. Maybe the days aren't so happy anymore.

The stupid things that I do.

Crazy cross town cycle. 5:22:00 AM

After the night market at compass point, and all that Ramly burger we were chillout under the block like some mat deciding what to do next. We finally decided to go cycling. But to where?? Parsir Ris Park! Yup. We called Shina and she could join us too…

We took the Defu Lane - Old Tampines road – Elias Road. But when we were on our way back, we found out we could that the new Bungkok Road and we cut 20minutes off our clock.

So anyways we had so much fn at the playground! We went on the spiderweb thing, which I was soaked in perspiration, like as if I just came out form a bath. Did some flying fox thinging, which Jeremy nearly flew. And our usual disk like spin. And we ended off with the good ol’ swing. The RAIN CAME!! We rushed, and cycled to a bicycle shop that had a very small sheltered parameter. Well at least we’re out of the downpour. We kinda dryed ourself and chillout there for like I thin 40 minutes and afterwards dash to the toilet, than down to a block near by the park.

After awhile the rain stop and we headed home. Well it was a nice ride back home. Morning came, the birds started chipping and the air was fresh. Welll I really enjoyed myself at this crazy cross town cycle. We gotta do this some day again.

Woohoo!!

The furniture store 6:35:00 PM

Going to ikea now :)

It's not the right time, it's like the end of the world. 8:13:00 AM

Too tired right now. Have lots on my mind... Having a pain because of all this.

Maybe it would be better if I never existed.

[[it defiantly can't be fluffy anymore]]

Past few moments in life 5:42:00 PM

Fuck! So many things has been going on these past few days.. Let me start off with what happen the other day in punggol end. Nell, Lilly and I went to the beach and the water was super clear that day. So guess what?? We decided to swim… It was so fuckin fun… besides the rocks and the sea weed… but the water was super clear…

Neeways… after that after that went to SGH.. Waiting in the clinic for like 2 hours but at least I enjoyed the Mee Pork there… was awesome…

Yea than in the evening I went to JK with jimmy. We went to check out that new park that recently open at Fernvale… it’s kinda boring… nothing much yet.. no playground no chillout place. Welll maybe soon.

Yea I kinda woke up late and I couldn’t make it to school today… Had my usual morning crankiness… srry jimmy hahaha air corn..

Well till later, see you.

Bored to death. 1:54:00 PM

I'm super bored right now!! I'm in school doing nothing for shits! On top of that, the internet here is so MF slow and I'm using a keyboard with missing keys... like wtf?? well at leaast I still have my MP3 player.

After school i'm going to meet up with lilly and cornell.. Well i hope we can go to the beach and just chillout... it's been awhile since we went there... well,the last time was when I braided my hair.

Well pray for me that time would fly by faster... till then..

Freedom in 3 hrs

mid-night anxiety 4:31:00 AM

Awaken by my mid-night anxiety again.. It was 2 I the morning when I woke up, and after having something to eat and some Mr. bean on TV, I still can't sleep. Why can't I just drift off into dream land... 2 more hours till my day starts.

The weirdest things 5:02:00 PM

I realise that my 5 minutes in the morning is longer than the usual 300 seconds time frame, it’s more like the 3 hours frame… I was suppose to get up at 11 this morning and guess what? I got up at 2… Well at least I had a good sleep. There was this one dream I had, it was seriously weird, I went to this computer store and I saw this mouse that was in a cat. Haha. It’s a compute mouse, but it’s a live cat! Than I ask the guy, “so what? When I move the cat around on the table the cursor will also move?” yup. And lilian ask if the cat would bite or scratch (because it was alive). Jeremy wanted to know if “they” come in other breeds.. hahhaa what a screw up dream man.

Well I went to school for like 10 minutes… Learn quite some interesting shits… well this is my final exams I’m having… next term is damn slack…. Well I guess school is kinda fun. Minus the shits, it’s actually quite cool… hahaha

Now I’m just at stcrbucks chilling out, waiting for lilian to finish work at 7… Well let’s just see what happen next.

yearly April fever 3:49:00 AM

Okay it's 4 in the morning, and i still can't sleep. I'm having this same old weird feeling in me, the one where you have when you're beginning to start school in a new place or class... But the thing is, i'm not changing my class or school.. Well, maybe school sucks pretty much. Just gotta go through it for another 7 more months I guess...

Well i can't wait to have a source of income. I'm stuck in school and the only income i'm getting from it are binary and a bunch of IP addresses... Well maybe Jude needs a job hunt! Part-time doing sales? Become a computer geek? or maybe a fashion model? hehe.. I doubt that'd will sell. Seriously neeeeddd Innncooommmee!!! well I'd just see what life have installed for me.

Everything is just one big blur right now. Maybe it's the yearly April blues I'm having...

You know the feelings you have after you forgotten someone for so long? The "how was it like back in those days? Was it better or was it worth not having them anymore?" kinda feeling. Yup I'm having that now....

I'd say, it was kinda both. But for the other person, HELL NO!

I wonder what's its gonna be like tomorrow in school. What's gonna happen? I seriously hate this first day of school feeling. Since young I used to have them. Well I hope tomorrow it's gonna be a good day... I think I'd just head to bed now if not I won't find out!..

Fast and Furious 1:58:00 AM

Just got back from the theatre, went to watch Fast and Furious 4 with jimmy lilly and ricky. It was so fun! The movie was good but personally i still prefer 2 Fast 2 Furious, guess it was because of Ludacris. Well kinda sad that Michelle Rodriguez was just on screen for awhile... yea love her shows, she's so bad ass. haha well kinda enjoyed my self today went to the arcade wasted like 5 dollars on trying to get a penguin and a hamster. Damn machine! so yea. Till then! :)

Let me be patient let me be kind,
make me unselfish without being blind.
Though I may suffer I'll envy it not,
and endure what comes
cause she's all that I got.

Now I may have faith to make mountains fall;
but if I lack love then I am nothin' at all.
I can give away everything I possess,
but left without love then I have no happiness.
I know I'm imperfect
and not without sin;
but now that I'm older all childish things end.

I'll never be jealous,
and I won't be too proud;
cause love is not boastful
and love is not loud.
Tell her I need her,
everything' gonna be alright.

Now I may have wisdom and knowledge on Earth
but if I speak wrong then what is it worth?
See what we now know is nothing compared
to the love that was shown when our lives were spared.

It'll be alright

-Lauryn Hill

Easter, Swing, Crazy dish-like thingy 3:55:00 AM

Okay I just got back from dinner, we went to Boon Tong Kee to have chicken rice. Well I really like the chicken there and the tofu. There was this waiter there who was so shy of Sharon and it was so funny. After dinner, the plan was to catch Fast and Furious but the show had already started by the time we finish dinner. We headed down to the theatre anyways; hoping that they will have a later show. But to our disappointment they we close. So we decided to go bowling, but yet again they were close. Haha so my dad brought us to this huge playground at the park near by and we started climbing the spider web ropes, the swing, the flying fox, the slid and this huge dish like thing. Haha we had so much fun and I this all of us have no more energy left.

Well that a nice way to end my 4 weeks holiday and my Easter. Well Happy Easter everyone!

Good Friday 3:54:00 AM

Friday was Good Friday and this year was quite chill out. This year Lilian followed us to Saint Joseph’s church and so did Jeremy. Well after church we went to chill out at the McDonalds near Bugis street with Fiona and Nash. Well after awhile we wanted to have some Carl’s Jr and with high hopes we went to Far East Plaza for the 24hrs Carl’s Jr and guess what?! It was close! Well wasted.

By the way we bump into Jeremy’s classmate Sha there also. After being disappointed that Carl’s Jr was close, we decided to go to the 24Hrs Jason Supermarket and get some snacks and chill out; till the morning came.

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE! :)

Good Friday Night 6:43:00 AM

Okay, Swoosh tired. Enjoyed this year's "after good Friday" I see the sun rising! Gotta hide under the sheets.

Till later, goodnight

Brands make me sick. 1:50:00 AM

Okay, Jude is going to tighten his belt and his jar! No more means no more! It's seriously time for a different shoe. Just wait and see...

I'll take that sad song and make it better!

Critical getaway! 8:53:00 AM

I seriously need a getaway. We’re supposed to go to Malaysia today but I guess the plan just died. Damn, school going to start the week after Easter and there’s only a few more days left. Hahaha we’ll maybe tomorrow we’ll go somewhere nice and have fun! Sentosa anyone?

Hallelujah 8:35:00 AM

The craziest things that we’ll do; Lilly help me braid my hair and now I’m like some Chinese nigger… haha well it’s kinda nice… we stayed up for hours doing it and when it was finally done, everyone started laughing. Hahaha yea, so yesterday lilly and I went to the beach to chillout and here’s some pics.

inside my own bubble. 5:40:00 PM

Disaster has strike, penance for tomorrow. Muscle gone weak, heart becomes numb. Another 7 days to go.

March fever, April Headache 7:24:00 PM

The other day lilly and I went all over Singapore to look for Easter deco supplies.. First we had lunch at Far East Plaza, than down to Takashimaya to look for make up. After that we went to louis vuitton to repair my wallet, Lilly is so funny hahaha she was so scared to enter the outlet. Haha anyways after that we went to craft store, got some great stuff at Art Friend.

After all than artsy fartsy stuff we went to my florist to check out some spring greens. Well I need to get back there this Saturday as I’m throwing a dinner party. Well I just finish doing my Easter bunnies and some of my eggs. I got lots of great idea this year and i can’t wait for the holiday!