Aftermaths 9:57:00 PM

I have no idea where to start! Okay on Saturday night I called Cornell and we were just talking on the phone… Than both of us came out this crazy idea to take the Night Rider and go down to her place. So lilly meet me after work and we headed down to nell’s place… it was so freaking fun! Lilly and I walked to compass point and we took the Night Rider from there to town.. it was round 2am in the morning.. hahaha

When we got to summerset we drop and change to another Night Rider Bus and we waited so long for that bus.. man at least 45 minutes. Well when we reach Jurong we meet up with Cornell. We just chillied and talked till morning and fell asleep.
When we woke up, it was already 6 in the evening… than Cornell wanted to come over to my place to chill out…

Gosh, when we got back home, we meet up with jimmy and we went night cycling! It was so fun! (We need to do something first in order to go night cycling… hahaha)
Well we cycled to JK and had supper there. Omgs it was fun last night. Right now, after 12 hours I’m still damn tired.

Well Cornell is now resting, she didn’t sleep for more than 48 hours I think. Well later we might go night cycling again and down to the beach to watch the sunrise! Hahaha

Till later…

Sengkang-Jurong-Sengkang.... Where's next? 10:51:00 AM

Oh my gosh!!!! Just got back from sleepless nights!!! Went night cycling and chillout... I am so bloody shag right now, i can't even feel what i'm typing. Well i'll right in soon... going sleep under the bed now.
HAHAHAHA BREAD??!!

Update 3:48:00 AM

Hahaha oh my gosh... finally I manage to do my blog layout... we i still haven't decided to stick with this or edit some more...

A small light, hopefully.. 1:51:00 AM

I don’t know what to say anymore.. the funny thing is that, you don’t know what you’re saying anymore. Let say if we ever get back together, is everything going to be the same or will there be a change? Nothing has been happening since the last time; it’s like history is just repeating itself. You tide me down, leave me out in the cold and expect me to play like nothing ever happen? I don’t know, maybe you’re just covering your tracks or just simply leading me off.
It’s seriously hurting when I stood by you all along and now I realise that it all never actually did started. Well I’ve learnt how to just forget about things easily, well same goes to you.
Family? A word that means nothing no more to me. Fate chooses your families but you choose your friends. I chose you to be my family, but what mistake it was. Nobody’s perfect. Life is full of imperfections; there is absolutely no room for perfection. That’s what I feel. If life was made perfect everyone would be the same.
Nothing would ever matter, nothing would ever change.
People change, some for the good, some for darkness.
But everyone can turn on a small light in a dark room if they try.
Forgiveness is something truly hard to do, not brothering is something different.
Trust is to earn, so as to respect. Easily broken, easily lost.

evening coffee 1:42:00 AM

Today was such a nice day… after I got down from the bus; I went to pick up lil from her place. We came back to my place for a while to change and stuff and we quickly chow to the beach. We meet jimmy there and just chill out for a while. By the way, I lost the button on my wallet… gotta go back to the shop soon to get it fix.
After the beach we headed to compass point to have dinner… and as for dessert, we went to Starbucks for a drink. I had my evening coffee, jimmy had a frapachino, lilly had ice tea. Yea we chit chatted till we started to shiver because it was so cold and needed to use the washrooms.

Yea, lilly and I sent jimmy off at the bus stop and we took a slow walk back home…

Its such a nice day! One more day till my H-O-L-I-D-A-Y!
Dead tired now, going to bed, talking to lil till I fall asleep. Night.

eastcosty 1:41:00 AM

The other day lilly and I went to spend the whole weekend at the beach again. We went camping! Hahaha It was so bloody fun! I wish everyday could be like that… Jimmy couldn’t make it couz he wasn’t feeling too well… well no worries.
When we got to the beach on Friday night, it was already 3am in the moring… I know, WHO THE FUCK goes to the beach at 3am in the moring?! Hahaha yea, the idea was kinda last minute. Well we set up camp, started marinating the chicken wings and sausages, after that we feel asleep.
We were woken up by the heat! The freakin tent became an oven balls! So we decided to start our BBQ and have chicken wings for breakfast. Went for a swim, chillout by the shore and just let the waves crash at us and just chillout for the whole night.
In the evening we went to the supermarket to stock up our supplies… it was so much cheaper than at the 7-11. Well I tottaly enjoyed my whole weekend. We were so sad when were had to go home, and back to our normal lives… IP Addresses, DNS servers, Geeky stuff and as for lilian, mocha frapachino, cappuccino, latte, ect.. hahaha!
Gosh I can’t wait to have another weekend at the beach… maybe next month or so… after easter. Well we can play beach volleyball.. hahaha


Well I’m on the bus now, Going to the beach I think, and after that I think we’ll be going to sbucks I need to finish up my projects! Can’t freaking wait for e holidays! Hahhaa
OMG it’s my stop! Chow!

How to get to... 1:20:00 AM

Today was awesome! after school lil and I went to orchard to have dinner at Far East Plaza, than we were off to the movies. We watch The Boy in Stripe pyjamas and it was an awesome show! Really sad though…
well I really enjoyed myself today… I can’t wait for tomorrow and the day after… well yea! I’m looking at the bright sunshine of life.

Sunny Day
Sweepin' the clouds away
On my way to where the air is sweet

Can you tell me how to get,
How to get to Sesame Street

Come and play
Everything's A-OK
Friendly neighbors there
That's where we meet

Can you tell me how to get
How to get to Sesame Street

It's a magic carpet ride
Every door will open wide
To happy people like you--
Happy people like
What a beautiful

Sunny Day
Sweepin' the clouds away
On my way to where the air is sweet

Can you tell me how to get,
How to get to Sesame Street...

How to get to Sesame Street

Reward 12:35:00 AM

I’m so angry and so sad right now. The disappointments in me just change to anger at the fact of the situation. I can’t think, I can’t believe and I can’t imagine what it’s like right now. Seriously, you threaten me, you throw shit at me and you even talk shit about me, I don’t give a fuck anymore. I have stood up and help you further and tried all my best, but nothing means shit no more. It’s funny how money can change a situation. But leave that out now.
I just wanna stand up and walk away because I can’t take no more shit from you and I’m sick of how you would change. I will remember you, but I can’t embrace you. If I stay on I’d learn to hate you, but I don’t want that. I guess I’d just have to move on.
I’m sad that you just leave me hanging. You expect everything to be all right. You always bring money into the situation. You were my best friend penniless, now I’d just don’t know what you’ve become. You ask what happen to us, I’d say what happen to you? I’ve been the same person all along; you just didn’t want to come along. I sit down and think, I’ve tried, I push myself and I realise I’m not the one who’s bringing this down. As for the record, things would never be the same this time. I have lost all my trust in you. I still can’t get over the fact of what you’ve done.

All I want to say is good bye, but i don't know if I could...

Projects 1:27:00 AM

Jude is having the busiest week with school ever and is too tired to blog...

Here comes the... 9:21:00 PM

Today was a good day for me beside that I had the worst migraine this year thanks to the stupid rain and shine… Well I started the day early, watched the 81 Oscars award. I like the musical part. After that I went to school to do my phase test and it was seriously too easy. I started to panic because I was thinking that the answers could not be so easy... I manage to finish the test within 15 minutes, after that I met up with lilian. We went to the mall where we met my mum and had lunch.
After that lil came over to just chill out, while I continued to the website for dru. These damn web hosting people, they are so not reliable. I keep calling them like 10 times to ask them for my account details. Anyways lil and I started listening to oldies from the 80’s and 90’s. Than we switch to Marvin Gaye with his sexual song hahaha wth.

Oh gosh, here’s the best part. I received an SMS from my teacher and he said I scored an A for my test. He must have marked it already. And while I was in school just now, he said I should be receiving a scholarship again! and on top of that I might, just might get a bursary also. Hahaha

I can’t stop think what I should do with that money. Should I get an oven? Or should I save for my driver’s license? I could also give my room a make over. Well let’s talk again when I have the Chi Ching! Hahaha

Well yea now just back home. Dead shag, going to bed now hopefully I can start the day early tomorrow like this morning. Yea well boo ya!

Jude wants these!! Yves Saint Laurent Classic 80's inspired sneaker.. wuooo please...

Stuck in reverse 10:43:00 PM

Right now, I’m just having a coffee and a banana walnut muffin at starbucks Wheelock. Lilian’s studying for her exams tomorrow and I’m just doing some accounting online. It’s been such a hectic week. I’m having mock tests in school in preparation for my exams. My lecturer said that the mock test is going to be harder than the actual exams but, it seem too simple. Hahaha. Well I’m just getting tired of all these computer stuff. I really with I could do something more down to earth.

As on the side line of my life right now, I’m creating a website for Rockstar Posters. And I just can’t get everything to be right. The web hosters are making so many mistakes with my account. And that’s just pissing me off.. Well let’s not get into that.

(I finish my muffing by the way *bellyrub*)

This evening when I got up from a nap, I realise that my herbs are dying. I’m so sad. I guess it was too freaking hot this afternoon. I started planting them about two months ago and they were looking great until this evening. I hope they’ll be okay.

Well lilian looks stress oppsite me, she’s like writing down notes and listening to her MP3. Hahaha the woman sitting next to her is so loud that’s why we started listening to music. Well I kinda like this starbucks in twon but I prefer the one at the Plaza.

I cannot wait for this weekend, I don’t know why but yea. I’ve been craving for a BBQ since last year man. Like a chalet with sting ray, prawns, kebabs… wooo
Yea, I miss those chalet days hahaha. But on the hand I can’t wait to get my driver’s license!! Or COLDPLAY! Well I can’t seem to get tickets to Coldplay though. That’s the saddest part. “When you get what you want, but now what you need”


Yesterday I met jimmy for dinner. I brought his to this Indonesian restaurant at Far East Plaza. After that we sat at the starbucks at Wisma and just chilled out. We started talking about Physics and Astronomy and just debating about stuff. Hahaha well I seriously think that if we all were to study physics we could create a worm hold.
(okay I’m going to stop this geekyness’ hahah)

Well lets see what happen this week!

Just another boring day... 2:01:00 AM

Okay today was the best. I woke up late and rush to school, and guess what? Class was only for 5 minutes. I was like WTF? Anyways after class, I followed jasper to Aljunied. After that we went to the coffee shop at the back of church to have lunch and stuff… yea. Hahaha

Friendship: a building contract you sign with laughter and break with tears. 1:59:00 AM

I'll never find another friend to take the place of you.
No one will ever touch my world exactly like you do.
No one who's quite so thoughtful, no one I cherish so.
No one will mean so much to me I just wanted you to know.
Why is it that after going through so much together, you act like it’s been so little?
There are times that I miss you when I'm sad and when I'm lonely.
But most of all, I miss you when I'm happy.
You don't seem to notice, you don't seem to care
You promise me something, and then you aren't even there
You tell people my secrets, tell me your lies...
Who wants a friend.. That makes you want to cry?
So if I have to leave you, I want you to know that in the end,
It wasn’t because I stopped caring, it’s because you stopped being a friend.
I swear on my life that if I could take this knife out of my back, I would,
But between the loss of blood and the trust I had in you,
I don’t think it’d do any good.
I'll never forget what you did to me, but I'll never let you know I remember it so dearly.
I was the one who said things changed;
You were the one who proved it.
People act all nice and then turn around and talk shit...
So as for trusting people...fuck it I quit.

Sleep walking without leaving the bed. 7:06:00 PM

Hahaha this music video is damn cute

Project 5:37:00 AM

Okay it’s 5:28am now and I’m still awake.. I suppose to get up at six and get ready for school… it’s going to be a long day tomorrow; I finish at 5pm.
I feel damn sucky now. The thing is, I didn’t do a thing for my project but my group mates finish it. I couldn’t go to school for the past few days because of my hair and stuff. So I couldn’t do my part of the project. I seriously don’t deserve any marks as I have not done anything accepts some backgrounds shit for the presentation.
I don’t know what to say to my group mates tomorrow as we’re supposed to hand it in by tomorrow. Hmmm… and the suckiest part is, I don’t know weather I’m still in their team anot. Hmmm well done Jude well done.
Ahhh!!! Will someone please tell me what to do. I have no clue. Looks like I just gotta face the music later. I hate this feeling. I need to change my life. Seriously.

Things to get... 5:37:00 AM

Things I hope to get before Christmas!
1. An oven
2. Driver’s license (or by next year)
3. A PHONE
4. New skates
5. Hard disk
6. Get a makeover for my room
7. Good results (so I can freaking get out of school!)
8. Cookbook
9. Play the guitar
10. May be, just maybe a car

Things to do before I leave this earth.. Hopefully
1. Sky Dive!
2. Explore this earth.
3. Understand the constellations
4. Visit the town Barrow (way north) and Vatican
5. Diving
6. Sky dive again
7. Maybe play the piano
8. Have some Jude junior I guess
9. And maybe explore space??
10. Get a house by the beach… pungol end?

Chinese New Year 5:36:00 AM

Okay, it has been a good Chinese new year for me this year. We’ve gotten a lot of stuff and deco for the year of the Ox. Man, I went to Chinatown a few times this year, gotten lots of flowers too. I think it’s going to be a good year.

On Chinese I played 21 and won! Hahaha I guess its beginner’s luck. The steamboat is awesome!! Hope we can have it again soon. Clara surprises us by coming home early for Chinese New Year!
Hahaha I can’t wait to see what else is installed.

Okay, I’m now at Starbuck, waiting for lil to finish work, yea… I feel like going to Ikea after this.. I need to take a break from this workload that I have on my shoulders for just a second. Man there’s so many things I’ve got to do ASAP. Firstly is a website. A WHOLE SITE. From scratch. Secondly are my projects, I have 3 due by the end of the month. And last but not least, things at home. Swhoos…

Well I prepared myself for a busy 2009. Well look like I predicted correctly. Well everything looking good so far, school is great. Everything that they are teaching I already know, so I hope I won’t fail this semester.
Well I can’t wait for Chinese New Year. I know, I sound chi-na but yea. It’s rather fun. Get money, have shark fin. Steam boat. Yea Chinese New Year don’t seems that bad at all.
Well, I’m still not sure if I’m going to have a open house at my place or I’m going on a holiday! Hahaha. Well I just can’t wait.
Hopefully after Chinese New Year I can give my room a make over like once and for all. I hate my room man. It’s so not what I wanted it to be. Well ass!

Wishing you were here 12:19:00 AM

Love is special,
Once bitten, twice shy.
Even if it hurts,
It’s forgiven.
All those secrets,
And questions.

Lonely and scared I maybe,
Thinking of you makes me happy.
The joy that you bring,
Is as everlasting as it could be.

Running is the easiest option,
Where is the hardest answer?
Clocks that tick by,
Is useless now.

Home is were I want to go,
But there’s no place.

Being in this box for so long,
I can’t breath or speak a word.
I feel so alone in the dark.
Is there anyone upon whom I flow?

Fantasy it may seem,
Reality it may be.
The truth is,
I miss you so.
I crawed back into your ams.

Warmth that can fill all hearts desires.

2009!! 7:19:00 AM

It’s has been a great 2008 for me. There was so joy and laughter, it’s so sad that 2008 is over but well 2009 here! I hope this will be a good year. I have a hunch that it’s going to be a really busy year.
Everything’s changing so fast, I hope thing will be good. Well I’m just glad I have what I have.

Swoosh, the parties that have been going on for the last week was crazy! Christmas was so nice this year. Everyone was there, family and friends. This year I spent Christmas with Jimmy, Lilian & dru.
Had such a wonderful Christmas, not forgetting the presents.

Sharon’s birthday was madness. I hope everyone enjoyed, we only started dancing at the stroke of dawn. Damn stupid police.
And as for New Year’s Day we partied till the afternoon. Hahaha we drank, sung and dance. Woo-Hoo 2009!!

Hey there, 7:17:00 AM

You make me happy whenever I’m with you,
A warm feeling rushes to my heart, as a chill goes down my spine
Never have I taught we could be such good friends
As confuse as I can be,
I know you’ll always be beside me
Every night I think of you,
Cuddled under the sheets, I ponder where our lives would lead us.

Sitting by the beach, listening to the waves pounding against the rocks
I think. I know I could never be the one, but I’ll always be by you side
Watching the sunset by your side seem so restful.
I embrace every moment spent with you. With that I ponder on the one question,
What have I done to deserve you in my life?

I have so much left to say, but I can’t write it all…

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Tesco! 3:55:00 AM

Okay today was such a nice day. I woke up totally late. Devin was trying to wake me for like 3 hours I guess. He brought in the dog, Bongo and the two cats, but yet I still slept.

After I got up, we went to Tesco and Central Festival Mall. Tesco is like Giant but it’s British! WE BOUGHT DUNKIN DONUTS! We bought like three boxes lah! Well we went to shopping and had to change money. Thank god there was plastic bags. Hahaha. Dru bought a raft and some floats for the swimming pool. We bought the raft; two board float, a inflatable ball and a tyre float. So total there were six big items in a small pool, including an inflatable chair. Hahaha. We enjoyed the raft today, and were just sitting in it to chill out. Darn we ran out of beer!

So anyways we wanted to go to Body Glove, but totally forgot about it. yea So Clara wanted to get some IT gadgets like web cams and head phones… I got myself a pair of shades, and some fridge magnets. Wanted to get the Thai boxing gloves but it cost S$50 for a pair.

So we came back and just swam, ate our donuts and watched some movies. Oh ya Pizza Hut here is so cool! The number to call is 1150. That’s all.

Yea, tomorrow is going to be another day. So I better get ready for it! Darn these freaking ulcers.


Devin and I were just taking snap shots in the room.






One lamp traffic light??


This girl is very cute, But guess what, she's on a motor bike. Her younger brother is sitting down. He's about 3 yrs old i guess. And the whole family is on one small bike without helmets!



These are their cables. You wouldn't want to catch a fire in there.I'm thankful for singapore.


Its a Buddha statue on top of a Mountain.

The moon was amazing tonight. Unedited. ET 1/60. FL 78. ISO 80. AV2.875

Phuket 4:38:00 AM

Okay this is just too exciting and too much for me to handle.. There is so many thing that I need to say, well I hope I can remember all of them.

Lionel offered to send us to the airport. Went there, and did those legal shit at the check in area. After that DFS!! Woo-Hoo! Fucking grey goose cost $50, Absolute Vodka cost $20. TWENTY! Well the freaking shitty part is I can’t buy them. Well there’s next year.
Well anyways, I nearly threw up in the plane, thank god they have those paper bag where I can catch my breath in it. Ate a sandwich and they had Holicks.

OMG when I reach the Thai airport, there was this man who pass passing us a trolley for our luggage, “it was the last trolley by the way” and guess what I found GOLD under the handle bar. I turn back and saw him digging his pie hold! Fucking shit.

Well anyways, we met up with Clara at the airport; we went to eat at this place near by a beach. Tom yam was awesome. View was cool and the place was nice. Than we headed back to Clara’s place. The house is so beautiful! Just totally awesome.

Yesterday we went to this place called Natural Restaurant. The food was great, decoration was really unique. They used old TVs as fishtanks. Hahaha
After that went to go shopping, bought some stuff and chilled at STARBUCKS! I think I can’t leave with out it. I wanted to get the Phuket mug, but it was not worth it. So I got gum. So after the chilled out session at Starbucks, we went to this supermarket; not that super by the way.
It reeks of rotten fish, it has no aircon and the best, they have no plastic bags. No bags, I taught I had to pay to get a bag, but there is no bag at that supermarket. Their slogan is “CASH & CARRY”. Gosh.
And I was so expensive. We spent S$250 there; one trolley which is not even full. Ahh they are full of shit.

Well today was a good day. Woke up late; had to catch up on my sleep. Chilled at home. Swam. BBQ. And watched In The Name Of The King.
Well now I’m just chilling out. Going to bed soon, it’s 3:33 here. One hour back from Singapore.

Well I’m coming home on Thursday. Hopefully I find some nice gifts here. Missing Singapore in a way or two. I guess I’m too much of a Singaporean. I can’t wait to get back and prepare for Christmas! Christmas baby here I come!

Missing everybody back home!

Under the Mistletoe 4:40:00 AM

I can't sleep now, excited about tomorrow... I'll be in phuket! Hehe for a few days... Yea.. I can't wait!!

Okay ANYWAYS I love this video, I watched it three years back when I was studying flash, and I so wanted to do something like that.. haha Well Merry Christmas Everybody!

Under the Mistletoe

Christmas 12:40:00 AM

Okay, so Advent is here! Wooots! Well I’m feeling happy and sad at the same time. I’m glad dru’s back home! I’m going to Thailand on the 17th to the 20th. Can’t wait for that. yea… and I’m going shopping for Christmas! Going to get a huge bonus this year. Hahaha well I hope everything will be good. Lots to do in such a little time.

Hmmm why are things so different now?
How did we end up here?
I wish you would be back for Christmas.
Things have change since then.

I don’t know what I should do now.
Should I leave it or let it go?
But then I miss you most at Christmas time.
In the spring time those memories starts to fades..
I can’t get you off my mind.
Hmmm…

Brianne Simpson says:

"I love this group! Where is Christ in Christmas now days?! All you see at the malls are Santa's and frosty. Where is the Nativity? yea hopefully everyone will know what's the true meaning of christmas."

Oh my gosh..."Christ" has absolutely nothing to do with December 25th...he was not even born in winter..Christmas originated from the Pagan's celebration of The Son of Isis...on...guess what day??

December 25th.

Then Christians came along and adapted their beliefs...and stole december 25th since it was already a well-respected/well-celebr

ated holiday...


Jude Brian says:

Well, thank you for that information, but I already know that. It's just like they don't know when Jesus actually died. Duh, it's been over 2000 years.

Why I'm disappointed is because people don't see Christmas as a religious holiday, they just think its a holiday of snows, exchanging gifts and christmas tress.


Brianne Simpson says:

ok...but why celebrate it as a christian holiday?

can't we just celebrate it as humans?...kindness, family, sharing, loving..the winter season...the warmth behind watching the little ones (whether your own...your little brother or sister...your little cousiin) get all excited and worked up...

what's wrong with that?


Jude Brian says

I didn't say it's wrong...

Picture this, You're going for a birthday party. You and your friends are getting all excited and worked up about it. You reached the birthday boy's house, celebrated it and went home. But when you reach home, you realise you don't know who's birthday it was.

Technically you just went for a birthday party, you didn't find out who's birthday it is.

Another example, New Year. Celebrating New Year but not realising it's going to be a new year at midnight.

I'm just try to spread the word that christmas is not only the time of giving, its the birth of Jesus Christ. Something which is far more important.
I'm not saying a non christian can't celebrate it. But just know what you are celebrating.

Anyways, Merry christmas!


Brianne Simpson says:

but it's NOT jesus's birthday...

That would be in late summer/early fall...

why would some kid celebrate his birthday 3 months AFTER his birthday???


Jude Brian says

Well, Christians and Roman Catholics around he world just marks and honors the birth of Jesus on the 25th of December!

And one more thing, nobody knows when Jesus is born. Gosh!


Brianne Simpson says

and they stole it from pagans...so why do christians have the right to complain about "their holiday" being turned into a "secular holiday"...

and most historians/experts on the matter agree it was late summer/early fall...


Jude Brian says

Firstly, historians have no hard proof. Different historians have different views on history. That's why they are called historians; His-Story...

Secondly, we didn't steal the holiday. I just said that it's a day that we mark on our calendars. Can't two occasion be celebrate on the same day? Pagans are a group of religious people, where els the catholic faith has a huge clergy.

Thirdly, we are not complaining about our holiday. We invite all people of all religions and walks of life to celebrate Christ's birth with us. Which was and till today is the birthday of jesus christ.


Brianne Simpson says

But not all people want to celebrate the birth of jesus...

Which, to me, seems perfectly fine...let them celebrate a secular christmas.

You were in the group "Keep CHRIST in Christmas"...which is where I got your quote from....but Christmas isn't about "christ" to a lot of people...why force it on them?

http://www.new-life.net/chrtms10.htm

pretty convincing...most "his-storians" are in agreement...of course there are a few ones who don't want to accept this...just like there are a few "scientists" who don't want to accept evolution...

On a final note, christ has nothing to do with me or my family's christmas celebration...and I don't see how or why this would bother you.

All the best.


Brianne Simpson says

...unless you are saying you believe the CHRISTIANS should keep christ in christmas...which I can understand (and respect) more....however, most people saying "Keep Christ in Christmas" are just angry that "their" holiday is becoming a secular celebration...


Jude Brian says

I feel sad and sorry for you... Well in that case, you might as well celebrate Easter, Hari Raya (Islamic), Chinese New Year, Deepavali (Hindu) And all the other religious holidays!
Why? Because you think it's cool and fun!

I feel sad for you. Merry Christmas anyways.



Brianne Simpson

haha why do you feel sorry for me??
because I can celebrate and appreciate without nonsense mythical idealogy?
I feel sorry for you that you lack the ability to critically reason.

My backyard constellations 5:01:00 AM

I’m so not feeling well for the past few days. Just having this feverish feeling. Well, I’m stuck at home now. I was supposed to go over to jimmy’s place today after dinner with my dad’s side. We wanted to watch some Russell Peter’s stand up comedies with chips and fuzzy juices. Darn fever, well at lease I enjoyed dinner.

Well, I’m so bored now. I was just looking up at the night sky. It’s so beautiful. I seriously want to get a proper telescope. But, it’s no use. What freaking constellations can you see in Singapore with all the light pollution? I tried going to Punggol end before, but the sky is still too bright.

So tonight I could see Venus and if I’m not wrong the other bright object was Sirius A. Well I tried using a telescope but sadly I couldn’t see the clouds of Venus. Another thing is, I’ve always wanted to see the rings of Saturn with my own eyes. It’s so freaking beautiful, Saturn is my favourite planet since young. But thanks to Singapore’s light pollution, this is not possible.

Well, I took this picture of the moon. I seriously think this it’s and awesome picture. I’m just waiting for this coming 12; it’ll be a full moon. So yea. We live in a universe of unimaginable scale and almost incomprehensible beauty. How is it that the light from distant galaxies takes so long to travel to our eyes and what beauty it has?
We’re not looking at the present, but what happened in the dinosaur era.



ET 1/10. FL 78. ISO 80. AV2.875

Christmas Chill 3:35:00 PM

Okay people! Christmas is coming soon! So you know what that means right??? Major shopping!! Go change that spending limit on that magic card of yours. Let’s shop like crazy fucks!!! Let it snow, let it snow!!!

Right now I’m just chilling at starbucks waiting for lil to finish school. well, the cups that they use at starbuscks have snow flakes on it. so cute. Well I hope nobody kills the spirit this year.
Anyways today I freaking went to school and guess what, there was no lesson again. Sheeez!
I so need a holiday right now.

This week 3:34:00 PM

Okay so much have happen since I’ve updated. Where should I start balls??
Okay Sharon had a whole week off for my mum’s and dad’s birthday. Finally I could spend some time with Sharon. She’s a workaholic. So anyways, one of the nights, we went for our night cycling. We planed to meet at dru’s bus stop. While we were on there lil fell down on her blades and fractured her wrist. so lucky timing, Clara was on the way home and offered to drive us to the hospital. Got to the A&E. waited there for like 4 hours. And lil went home being lame. Poor thing la that child.
Hahaha so yea. Well she’s back on her feet and we cycled to JK again. Last night was awesome! Hahaha

OH GOSH. I forgot the best part. The day after Lillian’s fall, we cycled to JK also. But this time, Sharon followed us. She was on a trolley and I pushed her all the way to JK. Hahahha. Half way there my blades just gave up and fell apart. So sickening! I need to get new blades now. So yea. That was such a cool night.

it's been far too long 5:16:00 AM

Sometimes I feel hurt deep down inside.
I say nothing; I tell myself maybe next time.
When the time comes, it happens again,
I wonder why, thinking to myself.

There is so much that I can take. The expectations are too high.
How could you do something like that?
Everything seems down but we’re just putting on masks.
Maybe I should leave? Or should I hold on and give it another try?

You seem so far away; you’ve gone for so long,
I don’t blame you.
You apologise, but make the same mistake.
Why do it then? I rather you keep things the way it was than change it.

I’m truly sorry. But I need some air.
It’s been awhile since the breeze has come.
I’ve now truly given up hope on you.
So sorry, but I can’t no more.

The night and dawn of the day 5:02:00 AM

Well oh well, I officially called the party a success! Hope everyone enjoyed it. it had it’s up and down, but I guess after all the hard work, it seriously paid off! Awesome Awesome Awesome! Thank you everyone for helping out in this party and supporting us!

Awesomelicious

I have just given up. I don't care anymore. I can't believe you can think of me that way.
Let's just forget about everything.

Work work work 5:02:00 AM

Okay, it’s been a really long week. I haven’t had any time to even sit down. I’ve been preparing for a Halloween party for the whole past week. Hmmm… There is so much to do in such a little time. I’m just so stressed out right now. I feel like letting go. I really just want to run away to some place and be alone.

I’m worried that the party won’t turn out right this time. Hmm.. I just feel so tired now. I feel that the expectations are too high. I just want the best for my friends. I want to see them succeed. But, is this world really “every man for himself”? I don’t believe in that.

There are so many things running through my head. You see, it just takes one mistake to make a bad impression. And likewise, first impression is the only impression.

I seriously hope that everything goes well.

Afternoon coffee 4:12:00 PM

Okay, I'm at starbucks now. Just chilling here, accompanying lil while she's working. Gosh, I just got myself a blueberry muffin and it is so freaking nice!! hahahaha. It's awesome! I was actually craving for a banana walnut muffin but I guess they didn't have. Well the weather is so freaking hot. Good thing i'm in here now. haha....

Okay I guess I'm like super bored. I can't believe it's only 17 more days till Halloween!!! Man oh man. There's still so much freaking work to be done!!! The website is still not up!!! Don't hate me guys... :?

Crumpler 10:26:00 AM

Oh gosh the day before yesterday I went over to Wheelock Crumpler to help Cornell out with work as she had not enough staff.. I tell you it was one of the best days I had man. We were laughing through out the day and it is so freaking fun working with her la!!! I don’t mind working sales man. OH YA! I got a new bag anyways, its The Considerable Embarrassment. Hahaha it's full of watches... Thx Nell.... Well it was a nice day.

After work I went over lils place to help her bro with some of his work yea… we chilled till morning and we ordered MacDonald’s also… its seriously fun to chill with them hahaha we were cracking jokes and stuff… by than, I was totally shag man…

Got home and slept for freaking 18 hours straight. Got up and was super hungry hahaha.. I guess I was hibernating. Ate dinner and after that met jimmy for supper. Cycled to JK and while we were cycling back, we came across this street sign. I don't know why but the both of us found it fascinating... We wanted to bring it home but it was too large and heavy. hahahaha so we decided to just leave it there and take some pics...





Now I’m at his place to watch The Hitter (I think that’s the title) we watch the first part and it was freaking cool but the second part can’t seem to load… so yea

And now Jeremy is like sleeping when I told him not to because I wanna go to the shop near by his place to get some contact lens… so sickening, I tried tickling him till he laugh but he’s not ticklish I don’t know why but don’t ask me. Well just let hime rest till later...

So now I’m like sitting here thinking what to do…

(There is something up with his room, you can sit and stare blankly at his comp for hours. I don't know why but it's really weird... yea....)

Fear 7:59:00 AM

Right now I’m feeling very scared. I don’t know why the sudden rush but I very afraid. I feel dirty and sick. I don’t know. I think there’s a problem with me. Whenever I think about germs and bacteria I feel disgusted. As if I’m shouting inside. I’ve just read this article about germs and bacterial and how it becomes a phobia.. I think I’m having mysophobia I use to joke about it and stuff but they were explaining about the emotional fear and pain, which one has to go through, which is so true. I don’t know man.
What if I was sent to some mental ward?? But I can’t help myself. For an example, I won’t open doors with my hands. If I’m eating out, I’ll use the left-handed side of the mug because that’s cleaner I guess. I’ll sanitise the table. If I’m in the public toilet I won’t touch the cubical doors, I bring my own pen along with me so that when I sign my receipts I don’t have to use the one they supply. I prefer to pay my credit than cash, and I won’t lean against the glass panel in busses or trains.

I hate this. But I can’t help myself. I feel like lilian and my parents are irritated with me about this. I just wish I could like have a normal life. I don’t know, my dad was piss with me just now because I was wiping the remote with hydrogen peroxide. I mean I can’t help myself. I like things to be clean. I feel weird if I don’t clean or when something is not clean. It’s like, I can feel it’s not clean.
I wish someone would understand how I feel….
Hmmm….

Jimmy's Birthday 4:57:00 AM

Yesterday was such a nice day. Clara, Lilian and I gave Jeremy a birthday treat at Kenny Rogers. I suggested Kenny Rogers because jimmy love chicken hahahaha… so anyways we made out way to down to the east cost outlet. Yea dinner was really good. After dinner we had cake and I had gotten the relightable candles… hahhaha

So here are the pics we took.











Okay this is the part where Lil caked Jeremy. Hahaha it was really a good one!



Here's another,

Just thinking of you. 6:57:00 AM

Okay, I cannot believe my holidays are finally here…. I don’t know, but I’m feeling abit down. Jeremy just came by my place I went to help Clara in the afternoon.
Anyways, I’m feeling really sad now. Just don’t know why all the sudden. I miss my sis really bad. I haven’t spent time with her for weeks. Yea I’m feeling like I’m loosing her as I think she might be settling down soon. hmmm…

On the other hand I miss Andrew. He’s so far out in the middle of the sea, and home, don’t know if that place is save and everything. I can’t wait for him to be back. Sometime I don’t know what I’ll do without him. Hmmmm

I don’t know, sometimes I feel lil and I don’t need to talk much to communicate with each other, but yea… I miss spending time with her. Like we use to chill in town and just walk endlessly in the city! I love that! I guess she slept early because of her work and stuff at starbucks. Yea it’s seriously tiring, I’m so proud of her. Hope by the time she gets back to school, she’ll get use to with the workflow.

CORNELL!!! I miss that child la. I can never stop missing her la hahahhaa… I really seriously miss the time we use to chill till like there’s no tomorrow. Like she use to come by my place and cycle at night to go and have supper. Hahahha I love the time where we would laugh and laugh till we piss in our pants and if there no more piss, will just drop onto the floor crying in pain.

Jimmy tucy and I are going for supper tomorrow. I can’t wait. I really like to roller blade to JK although I’ll cry in pain with blisters on my feet when I get back. It’s just thins nice feeling where the both of us will chit chat about stuff while we have the morning dew. It’s nice! Jimmy says it makes his hair soft. What rubbish!!!! He’s just one of a kind. One of a kind!

Well hopefully this holiday will be a great one!!!! Hahahhaa I love you guys!

K2 12:51:00 AM

Oh gosh I just realise that my skates are screwed. So yea. I’m thinking of getting a new one… it’s the Roller Blade Twister III…. My last one was the K2 vert one. I was thinking of getting a blade runner or Twister III but I taught, what the hack just get the twister III. Hahahha


This is Twister III





apparently the nuts broke like a million times and non of the wheels are round anymore....

Mid- autumn 12:12:00 AM

Okay yesterday was like a really cool day! We went to the beach to celebrate mid-autumn festival. Lilian brought the lanterns and moon cakes and jimmy brought the drinks. Yea we had a really good night. We ate moon cakes under the moon lilted night, which was surprising really bright. Hahahha it was a good festival in such a long time. Hahaha

Jks 4:15:00 AM

Okay this was like yesterday night. Jimmy and I went to Jk for supper. Was great! Hahaha well today its another shag day. Went to get Devin’s birthday’s stuff… okay I’m dead tired now, blog tmr.

Look deeper 4:14:00 AM

I don’t know. I it makes sad that you think of me that way. I guess you still don’t know me that well. You say your life is difficult, what’s life if there’s no up and downs? No mater how much I do, you’ll never be satisfied. You always take things for granted. You’re a good person. But it’s like no mater how much I do, it’s never enough. Nothing is ever enough. You can’t expect me to see you everyday, or hold your hand everywhere I go? I think need a time apart. There’s so much that is going on around me, and you’re disappointed because I don’t pay enough attention to you? Things are critical now.

All I’m asking is to give me a break from all this…

You’re better than this.

Right now, it’s  .

Is this really


what you want


to be doing


right now?

“What is this?”
It’s an undistraction by Merlin Mann.
Reinvent this idea how ever works for you.
Then kindly get back to work.

8GB 4:22:00 AM

Okay I just got up from a 7 hour nap. Now it’s 4.11am in the morning. Well yesterday was not a good day for me. It was such devastating day, I lost 8GB of my life. Well here was how it started out. I woke up at 7.30am and went to school. I attended all my lessons in such a long time. And after my break I had industrial electronic class, and that’s when someone stole 8GB of my life. Sorry I can’t say what’s that 8GB about because it was a gift from someone and I have yet to tell that person. I’m am so piss. Hmmm… what comes around goes around right?

Anyways I’m thinking of getting an ipod classic soon. I have had it with Creative mp3 and Macintosh. They can never get along. I tried my best, but they really can seem to get along.

Great, I don’t think I can sleep anymore, so I’m just going to watch some primetime entertainment now.

Chows!

24hrs awakeners 11:24:00 PM

OMG!!! Today is such a happing day! Well since I couldn’t sleep last night I went to school and reach there on time. Jimmy called me early in the morning complaining that he doesn’t have school… what the hell?? That’s Jeremy for you. Had to do like some electronic circuits and I couldn’t get the light bulb to light up so I just copied from my friend. I guess I’m loosing my touch. Hahaha well whatever

Meet Lilly at compass, had lunch. Than came back to change and headed straight to town to meet Nell at the train station. Lilly went to get her jab at the private clinic. After all that painfully stuff we went to Burger Queen to have a drink as we were dying of thirst. Sat there and chi chatted for like ah hour and guess what? It started to rain. We were stuck but we manage to get through using the underpass.

When we got back to my place, we went to aunty Angie place for some neighbourhood prayer. They mass was very sweet and nice had dinner and stuff. So long didn’t see Fiona, Consie and Adrian. We left quite early cause Nell had to go off and Lilly could not stay out too late. Well that was it.

Well now for the best part, Lilly made me that picture album for our 1-year anniversary!!! It so sweet! Thanks babe! Love you!

Autumn's morning glory 6:53:00 AM

Oh well now it’s six in the morning, I couldn’t sleep last night. Yesterday I went over to jimmy’s place to help him with his project. Than we had dinner. Hahaha so much for an exciting day huh? The night before that he came over and we watch Freedom Writters and Never Back Down. Freedom Writers is a really good movie. I love it!

Well today I’m going to school at 11 alothugh I start at 8, because I really don’t want to go for PE. It sucks. Whatever.

I miss lilly. I’m going to meet her tomorrow! I can’t wait! Hehehe and Cornell is meeting me too! Coolness! Dru is leaving for work today. He flight is at 8am. Hmmm gonna miss him. Hmm… well when he’s back, we’ll have one hell of a party!!


Gosh I have so many things to do. First I got my projects at school, next is my work; the website. Third is I’m planning my class bbq and last is all the other daily shits that I got to go through.

I’m so freaking stress! I swear this Christmas I’m going to take a time-out! I need a freaking break.

Time really past fast. Can you believe it’s going to be one year? Well it was a wonderful trip around the sun, and I hope to have many more wonderful trips with her. Haha you know who you are!!

Sometimes I sit back and think, where is my life leading me? What if I fail in life or am I just shattering my own future right now? Life is so freaking hard to predict. Hmmm… what if I can’t provide for my love ones in the future? I don’t want to be this failure or loser. I’m so scared of losing any of them. I’m really scared right now.
What if I make a mistake? Will you forgive me? Or can I even forgive myself?
Hmm… why does it seem to be so unfair and unpredictable?

Well that's life! Have a great September everyone!!

A maiden born when autumn leaves
Are rustling in September's breeze,
A Sapphire on her brow should bind;
To bring her joy and peace of mind.

If you judge people, you have no time to love them. 5:38:00 AM

Okay I still can't sleep, I just saw this old post on Lilly's blog. It's a misattributed quote by Mother Teresa. It's really sweet. 

People are often unreasonable,

Illogical and self-centred;

Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind,

People may accuse you

of selfish, ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.

If you are successful,

You will win some false friends

and

some true enemies;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,

People may cheat you;

Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building,

Someone could destroy

overnight;

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and

happines,

They may be jealous;

Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,

People will often forget

tomorrow;

Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you

have,

And it may never be enough;

Give the world the best you've

got ayway

You see, in the final analysis,

It is between you and God;

It is never between you and

them anyway.

Mother Teresa

A birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. Enjoy the trip 5:00:00 AM

Oh gosh, what a week man. It feels like my birthday started on Saturday and ended today. I really had a blast of the year man!! THANKS GUYS FOR EVERYTHING!!

Saturday, we had a party at my place. Had loads of food and drinks. We really went crazy. Freaking police came like 3 times I guess. Hahaha they wanted to confiscate my sound system. Wtf.! Fucking neighbours la… hahhaa we’ve been used to that since young. Every party we have, confirm the police will come.

So theses dogs came and we couldn’t party in the living room anymore so we moved to my bedroom hahahaha it really went crazy to the wee hours of morning. I feel asleep and go up half a day later with a hang over.


Tuesday was my birthday; we went to Boon Tong Kee for dinner. Food was fucking great! And we went to the movies after that. hahaha Sharon came home around 3am and she surprise me with a cake. Hahaha so sweet la. It was a cheesecake!!! Love it!!

Oh ya lilly got me two dashboard confessional cds!!! It was their old albums!!! And she design this little card which it make out of a cassette tape. What rubbish rite… thanks babe! It was one hell of a day.

Now I just got back from town. Jimmy and I went to watch Wall. E. He gave me a birthday treat! We went to Swensen’s for dinner and was great! We found a membership card in-between the pages of the menu and had a complimentary drink and they gave us the wrong ice cream and we and two complimentary scoops of ice cream! How cool is that??!! hahaha

Yea, Wall. E was good! Thx jimmy!!!


That you guys for everything! I really had a blast!

I would just need some help.... 4:09:00 AM

I just give up right now. I can’t take it any more… School is like shit, life like shit and I’m so lost where I wanna go about everything else. I’ve screwed everything up.

I really feel like shit now. Can I just run away? All theses stupid stress and shit is driving me crazy. I just flared up at jimmy and I know I shouldn’t but … lets just fuck it. hmmm we should just refrain from speaking of another's faults until we are sure that we have none of our own.

This is like the worst week I had this whole year. Seriously. I really don’t feel like celebrating my birthday, my mum made a party, but I feel like running away. I just want to be alone….

I have had it with this world. All the shits that you do just go down the drain. I mean there are great times but life is really unfair! This is stupid.

Well things could have been worst.


A friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be anywhere else.

There are so many things that are left unsaid. I’m so tired of these streetlights and this madness that is going on. I can’t take this stress any longer, and this pain that is in me. I got to be honest; I’m really sick and tired of everything. I look into the mirror and I don’t know this person anymore. I feel that I’m carrying the weight of everything; can’t you just cut me some slack? Hmmm. Man why can’t things just be like yesterday? Why is there this emptiness in our relationship? It will just keep getting bigger with the things that are left unsaid. I feel like a shitload right now. Why do I feel like a villain when I did no wrong? I can’t believe that we are going through all of theses once again. Well,

Hopefully we can find some comfort.

Today 3:16:00 AM

Okay today, was alright. I ate the worst lamb chop I ever tasted in my life for lunch. I was doing nothing in class for 4 hours, was online and didn’t have anybody to talk to. Friends and I was just surfing youtube there’s like so many cool videos on that site, just got to find it. Was watching family guy. Hahahas

Well that dumb bitch teacher of mine told me to go for a hair cut, but I overslept in the evening so tmr I can’t go to school. Well I just saw the text Andrew send me, damn I feel so bad that you guys wanted to watch a movie. So sorry guys, I was to shag when I got home. And I’m still having this darn cough! Fuck it’s been one week.

Oh this is the video I took at marina square were we watched the fireworks hahahas

Best week ever 2:19:00 AM

HEY OMG… everything is moving so fast for the past few days la! I can’t believe it’s going to be one week since singfest! I still can’t get over it

The Sunday performance was awesome! Jeremy join us for the second day. Jason Mraz was AWESOME! Especially I’m Yours, he also sang Three Little Birds!!! How cool is that?! Pussy Cat Dolls was good also, but the best of the best was my beloved Alicia Keys!!! Her performance brought the house down! It was like too perfect! WOO-HOO! I loved it when she sang No One! OMFg

Yea Singfest was too awesome man. It was really my best weekend of the year so far! I hope next year will be good!

So anyways I just got back from the movies with jimmy, lily & dru. We went downtown to catch The Mummy. Hahahas the show was alright la. Not too bad. Yea.

Oh ya, cornell came over yesterday night. We had a movie night. We wanted to watch Singapore Ghost Stories but we ended up watching Meet The Spartans. We had my darling Grey Goose! hahahahs

So yea now I’m going to bed. Tomorrow I got to go to school before I become a collage drop out. My attendance is super low for this semester.
Gosh! Where is life leading me? I love living it!!!

SINGFEST DAY 2 2:56:00 AM

OH MY FUCKING GOD! TODAY WAS SUPER AWESOME!!!! LORD THANK YOU! ARRRGGGHHH!!!!
MAN, I'M TO SHAG TO BLOG NOW. I CAN'T EVEN THINK STRAIGHT! I'LL CATCH YOU TOMORROW!

IF YOU DIDN'T GO FOR SINGFEST, YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE MISSING BALLS!!!!