it's been far too long

Sometimes I feel hurt deep down inside.
I say nothing; I tell myself maybe next time.
When the time comes, it happens again,
I wonder why, thinking to myself.

There is so much that I can take. The expectations are too high.
How could you do something like that?
Everything seems down but we’re just putting on masks.
Maybe I should leave? Or should I hold on and give it another try?

You seem so far away; you’ve gone for so long,
I don’t blame you.
You apologise, but make the same mistake.
Why do it then? I rather you keep things the way it was than change it.

I’m truly sorry. But I need some air.
It’s been awhile since the breeze has come.
I’ve now truly given up hope on you.
So sorry, but I can’t no more.