I wish I could write again, but it hurt so much.

Never Shout Never - Lousy Truth (Official Video) 4:11:00 AM

But just so ya know
I been thinking a lot about who we coulda been

and that's the lousy truth

Intended 5:26:00 PM

Hmmmm... I am speechless.
I have never felt such a feeling before,
it is strange, very strange.
But I know it's true..


My thoughts are out of this world,
Would I leave in the next hour to see you? Yes.
Would I give up everything to hold you? Yes.
I'd do anything...

I'm happy, but why am I hurting so much too?
I have so many questions about this feeling.
Is this love? Why? Why are we so far apart?
I can't help but to fall in love with you..

What dose the future holds?
Will you promises me you won't hurt me, like the others did?
I'll sacrifice everything, I want you. Period.

I love you, and I can't take you off my mind.
You're the first thing I think of when I wake
And the last when I go to bed.
You make my heart skips a beat.


S.H.K.N

Time.. 5:45:00 PM

Someone once told me that things would start to change, I didn't believe him.. Well now I know I was wrong.. Things did change, it change for the better... People walk in and out of your life like a waiter seen so many faces.. 

Something is starting deep inside of me.. It started not here, but 10,000 miles away from me. I'm happy to know that I'm not dead inside after all.. But I'm afraid of getting hurt again. The light inside of me is slowly glowing.. 

I think you'd be perfect. Just reality is in our way..

How can anyone be afraid of love? 3:13:00 AM

How can they not?

When you love someone… truly love them, friend or lover,

you lay your heart open to them.

you give them apart of yourself that you give to no one else,

and you let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt-you

literally hand them the razor with a map of where to cut deepest

and most painfully on your heart and soul.

And when they do strike, it’s crippling-like having your heart carved out.

It leaves you naked and exposed, wondering what you did to make them

want to hurt you so badly when all you did was love them.

What is so wrong with you that no one can keep faith with you?

That no one can love you?

To have it happen once is bad enough – but to have it repeated?

Who in their right mind would not be terrified of that?

Dangerously shattering... 1:49:00 AM

This guy lives thousands of miles away from me and I can't get him off my mind.. It's crazy how you can fall for someone who you don't even know in real life. But yet it's almost like you do know him in real life. And it's frustrating cause you can't hold him in your arms, and look into his eyes and tell him you love him. I believe one day we'll find away to each other. And I bet if you were to tell your friends or someone that you fell in love with someone who lives miles away they'd laugh and say its impossible but they don't know what it's like..

-Don't give up. If you love him and he loves you, you guys will find away to be together no matter what.

-Unknown 

Is this a phase.. or is my heart being true? If it is, than why am I risking to break it once again?

Just me and you. 1:45:00 AM

I don't know how to go a day without you.
You are my rain and my shine, my air my breezes.
You keep my heart warm and my soul filled.
I know I'm not completely true to you, but I love you.


You are so special. 

Lets clasp our hands together in the sand while we watch the sunrise and be completely filled by the sounds of waves..  

winter blues. 11:15:00 PM

It's easier to tell my problems to a stranger than to my close friends..
Its hard when nobody wants to listen, no one wants to care..
I'm back to where it all started; alone and feelings all bottled up inside.

I am lonesome tonight, and I do miss you.. 7:56:00 AM

I've met someone new, I wished you could tell me it's true.
You're so far, I'm wishing upon a star. 
It's so very strange, but I don't think my heart wants a change.
I'm so fragile, is any of this worth the while?


No one would understand, if I told them.
It would be just our little secret. Just a duet.
Every night this is my getaway.

iloveyoumorethanyouwilleverknow 4:16:00 AM

A couple of pills and a couple of scars

because of you it doesn't mean nothing. 

Behind these smiles and behind these unpublished blogs

lie what I truly want to say, what I truly feel.

When you are in Love you can't fall asleep

because reality is better than your dreams.

I'm not going to let you know if you don't ask.

Time 3:12:00 AM

I'm afraid. 

A wormhole 9:18:00 AM

Hey I know its been awhile since I've updated yeah Been busy with loads of stuff recently.. Let's see what I have in my album, oh Jrmy had a new tattoo, national day just passed, Lilly lost her iPhone and I'm still the same ol.. :/*
oh well my holidays are coming in about 1 hour time!! I'm on the way to school now in 31 but I'm supposed to meet Jrmy at the National university Hospital; fucked I wish I could be at both places at the same time! Oh fished!





That's all the pics that I have for now. Upload more soon! :3

My favourite childhood memory... 1:19:00 PM

Was craving for it the other night ... Muhahaha the next time will be 50!

Stranger 1:09:00 PM

FRIDAY'S HERE!! well well I hope today goes out as planned. Really really looking forward for a
movie tonight with jrmy and whoever's coming along. :) I'm actually craving for a Magnum Gold right now haha.. I'm on the bus on the way to the polyclinic to to meet Lilly and have lunch with her.. Oh well short post :|

Room 2.06 3:25:00 PM

Theres something for everyone today. Okay, right now I'm at the polyclinic with in uniform I was suppose to go to school but I taught I'd get an MC while I'm seriously sick and needs some checking up.. Its been awhile since I got here id just gotta wait and wait...

Well I hope the day don't get anymore boring.. I'm gonna help sharon later at her work place with some computer issues.. Well I hope she pays me! :) haha anyways I can't wait for the weekend!! Its gonna be jam packed with a whole lot of stuff!! Hehehe

Okay dokay I got to go... Tell then!!

People, places & time. 9:04:00 PM

You're the best thing that ever happen to me...

Dream a little dream of me 8:35:00 PM

What a Sunday is was, well I don't think the day is going to end anytime soon... This is how it all started...

Slept over at jimmy's place last night, was just blogging till late.. Had a hearty breakfast in the morning at the Indian prata shop. Than went for St Anne's church feast day. Was a huge fun and food fair ate there too haha... Music was so loud that we could hear Justin Biber during mass too... Oh the bishop serve the mass today..
So anyways went home to take a nap than went down to SGH for a while... Send jeremy off to camp and now I'm in the train on the way to Lilly's place to help her with her project...

Okay I'm not going to bore anyone anymore.. Hahah yea so that was my day so far.. Was nice.

A month left to be 18... :/*

Inked 12:27:00 AM

 For me, why he got it, and who he makes himself out to be are two very different things. -You

Inked for all the right reasons.

Jesus, guide us. 10:25:00 PM

Wednesday Wednesday, what a day it have been.. Today was a nice day, it's one of those days that I don't think I'll forget and when I look back at it in the future I'll miss old times.. So anyways, I went to school and was not feeling well, so I decided to head back home and out of nowhere, cornell called and asked if she could meet up because she was lead of work early.. I swear just for that moment my fever was nowhere in sight.. hahaha After all those pondering on where we'd meet we decided to head down meet up at Temp and have lunch, After that cornell came over for awhile just to chill and all.. haha Yea I'm not feeling so good today man..


I swear I just can't wait to move on in life,  I guess the feeling of me wanting to grow up quickly have not gotten out of me.. I'd rather work than study, simple as that.
I can't wait for the weekend! Hopefully Jrmy can book out on friday than we can chill out have dinner and maybe a MAGNUM GOLD?! or choco cone?? hahaha


Till I met you weekend, Take care

No camera in this world could every capture the beauty of my life.. 2:04:00 AM

Okay, so right now I'm over at Jrmy's place, we just went to watch Predator at AMK hub. It was a nice show, enjoyed it and so was the BBQ Nachos, thanks jimmy by the way. Can't really sleep right now, I have alot on my mind.. Lilly's all the way in the north, working... I guess I'm going to pick her up when she finish later, can't wait. I swear, although I'm going through alot of shit right now, It's really the people that are close to me that keeps me going. I really love all you guys. You know who you are; if you've touched my life.

Alright I got to go now.. Till next time!