I had better days.. 10:04:00 PM

Down with the flu... hope its not swine or that hunch I had. WHO was right. I hope it's not the end of the world. Well anyways I just got a new oven and it's so cool. Just baked some bread to try out. It came out awesome.

till the flu's over.. bye

Something from the heart. 3:53:00 AM

I can't sleep. Somethings are in my head that are bothering me. I just need to let you know both that I'll sill love you the same what ever happens. It just hurts me sometimes, but I'm pointing fingers at anyone. We're only human, you and me. Life is too short to have pride and ego to cover up our true self.

I maybe sensitive at times, but I'll always try to understand your situation. Love and care is a two way path in human nature, I was taught to live with only one; give but have nothing in return. But sometimes it just kills me inside, so maybe today is one of those days.

I'm sorry if I have ever let you down; mistakes can only be learnt when the person sees the outcome. I'll try to do that.

For what it's worth, both of you'll are my biggest inspirations.

Something that was not to be spoken of. 3:20:00 AM

Saturday wasn't such a good day.. It was fun and everything, but not how I pictured the day would end. Three of us, Jimmy, Lil & I went to have supper at the new Prata shop near jimmy's place. While we were cycling there, I saw this ambulance next to me. Personally I don't like ambulance, police cars or fire trucks. It's kinda like an omen to me.

Yea so anyways, we went to eat, enjoyed the food.. After we left the coffeeshop, I felt like as if there was this weight next to me on my bike that was trying to pin me down. I just didn't bother at first. After a while later I had a really bad fall while going to the slope, the bike skidded with me. I had some cuts on my hand, twisted my shoulder and my whole left arm was numb.

I just didn't want to bother about the pain, I just laugh about it. I seriously think that was a bad night, whatever that was trying to get me.

I just got back from the movies. It was a interesting show, I'll just call it A&D. It kinda get you thinking about the Vatican. Not about the catholic church, more on the Vatican councils.

Well it's been a long day. Looking forward to tomorrow.

Till then,

God bless.

Ice-cream??!! 9:42:00 PM

Just got back from compass point... Had dinner with mum at KFC hahha haven't had dinner with her for a while now, just the two of us. Well, went to look around at stuff.. Kinda lazy.. today feels like a lazy Sunday, somehow.

I can't wait for next week! Tuesday somebody special is coming to my place to stay!! :) I think I'm becoming crazy... I'm so excited I can't stop this anxiety.

I'm so bored... There nothing to do, ON A SATURDAY NIGHT! nothing's on TV, facebook or the net is not doing any good..

Surprising this was in orchard...

A new place. a new routine! :) 3:24:00 AM

These are one of those nights that are silence, The streets seems so lifeless at this hour. Well it's not how the Friday night I pictured, but that would do. Hopefully my weekend is going to be supered! :)

I'm spending the night chilling with Jimmy today. We went to have supper at the Prata shop behind his place. Was not bad, something new.. It was kinda scary cycling through the private estate in the dark streets, but it was fun to have that thrill at the same time. I'm going to miss these time, cycling in the middle of the night to nowhere, laughing, talking shit about our daily lives.. I'm going to miss you when things start to change for us as we both have to go our own ways... Never taught I'd have a friend like you... Deep down I'm happy and sad at the same time, hopefully this will never end. Hmmm...

Anyways now I'm back at his place.. just surfing the net while you're sleeping! Told you'd sleep! :) hehe...

Friendship, a gift from God.

Life is just full of shits, thing that you have to go through and don't, things you got to try and things you have do to that you don't like. It's really unfair but that fucking life! Hopefully heaven would be better..

I see no change 1:45:00 PM

I have just change the templete.... Still working on it.

If only it was that easy...

$$$$ 11:40:00 PM

The paper with the 4 magic number has finally come,

it is in good hands now and all I have to do is wait for 3 days...

Soon.... :)

Thx for following me guys

The love that you bring. 3:43:00 AM

Saying a little prayer for you as I rest my head and go to bed,

Thinking of you every night before I sleep.

May you have the most wonderful dream and goodnight.

You'll always the warmth in my heart, love you.

Friday that seems to be like a Thursday. 4:40:00 AM

Sometimes I wish you would understand me better,
trust me and have faith that we'll grow old together.
There is no limits to what I'd do for you.
Let it be something so simple like a shoulder
or learning how to fly, I'd always want you to have the best.

You bring light into my life, when there's darkness.
You're always there even before I need you.
You have shown me what and how much you care;
I am grateful for that.

Now all I ask, if you could see the light that I bring to you.
I'll only give you when you need it, but not when you want it.
So if there's a day that we run out topics in our conversations,
let us just keep our mouth shut.
Because you wouldn't need a mounth to speak when there's love.

I hope we would last, because I've shown you all I have;
there's nothing more of me than what you can see now.
This is me, only me. No masks, no disguise.
If the day comes when need more, I'm sorry;
but that's all I have, now and forever more.






These rainy night makes me wonder. The thunder roars and the splattering rains sounds so familiar. I'm over at Jimmy's place now, we went to catch a midnight show; Star Trek. Well it's a good movie. Very future realistic. We walked back from AMK hub and now i'm dead tired. Going to take a shut eye soon and I can't wait to see what's installed for me tomorrow! Oh ya! I tottaly need to get a last minute present for mother's day. Far east flora! Till tmr good night.

wooo!!! rainey nights =D
ps: I had a dejavu during the movie.

Lost day, Bad dream...

Just another Monday's blue 9:21:00 PM

Woah, it’s been like so many days since I’ve updated. Load’s have happen since I last updated. We went night cycling again to Parsir Ris this time with Ricky. Went for a SJC drama play at NAFA; was really good. Yea and load more that I’m too lazy to think back now.

Today school was okay, accept they were a lot of health checkup because of the SIV. Damn sickening. Well after school I went down to ikea to buy some kitchenware… yea boring day, nothing much… I guess I’ll just wait for Sharon to get back home tonight :D

Bored = Bo red. 11:26:00 AM

Jude is dead tired and bored in school now. DAMN this projects....

Monday Blues 11:35:00 PM

Damn tired. Had to do my fitness test today, and I walk home from Ang Mo kio. yea. Legs are officially dead.. Goodnight.

We ain't so big no more.. 6:13:00 AM

(Spitzer's Infrared image of the Milky Way Galaxy)

Have you ever look up at the sky at night and asked yourself, where are we in this vast emptiness of space? Well I do. I don’t know about you, but if you can visualise big numbers, you’d understand what I’m talking about. Let us travel from the start, to the end.

Earth, or as we know it as home, is the only place in the universe where life is known to exist. Life on Earth is abundant, everywhere there’s life. From the deepest ocean to the peak of mountains, there’s certainly life. Earth has only one known satellite; or I’d like to call it, the Moon. Earth is home to everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar," every "supreme leader," every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived here.

(The first photograph of an Earthrise by humans.)

Let’s go back to something more down to earth, like our neighbourhood. We all know that there are eight planets in our solar system, and there are another five more dwarf planets, so there is a total of 13 planets in our solar system.
There’s the Sun, Mercury, Venus, Earth, Mars, (The Asteroids Belt), Ceres, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, (The Kuiper Belt), Pluto, Haumea, Makemake, (The scattered Disk), Eris and the Oort Cloud.
Well that’s just 13 planets, hundreds of moons, The asteroid belts and the other debris from the formation of the Solar System orbiting one star; our Sun.

(The Milky Way as seen from Death Valley.)

Than comes the Local Interstellar Cloud or called the Local Fluff is a cloud where our solar system is in and is moving.
Than next we’re in this Local Bubble, where it sits at the Orion Arm in our Milky Way Galaxy.
The Orion Arm is just one minor spiral arm in our Milky Way Galaxy. The Milky Way is know to harvest approximately 200 billion stars. Our Milky Way galaxy looks like a stream of milk in the night sky, hence it’s name, and our galaxy is one of a 100 billion in the known side of the universe.

(the majestic spiral galaxy NGC 4414, NASA, ESA Hubble Space Telescope)

Our known observable universe is very large, it spreads over a distance of 93 billion light years across of space. Once light year is roughly 9.4 trillion km, or the time light travels in one year.

So where is earth in this emptiness of space? I don’t know.

(The Hubble Ultra Deep Field, is an image of thousands of galaxies)

To me, life here on earth is so small. We’re like ants, digging holes into the earth to make cities. Oblivious to what’s really around us out there. There is so much wonder out there that I myself cannot possibly imagine. Look at it this way, when you sow a seed, how can that small seed turn in to bush of flowers? That one tiny seed, now made colours, sent, and beauty. The next time you see a plant, take a look at it’s leaves. You’d realise how unique and detailed a leave can be. So simple as it is, life can flourish around earth.

Weekend getaway 10:21:00 PM

Just another weekend runaway adventure. I'm tired and sleepy, but what the hack, I only have one weekend to enjoy every week.

Church tomorrow morning.

If i fall in love with you its not my fault... 8:37:00 PM

Falling in love with you

is one of the hardest things I've ever done.

Some people find that strange,

but then,

they haven't been fighting their heart for years,

relabling every feeling as "misguided" or worse.

When I speak to you,

I'm still waiting for the numbness that refuses to come.

The other day when you left,

my heart screamed a protest.

Was it fake?

I ask myself the question again,

the same question I've been asking for all this time.

The difficulty of the situation is made harder

by the fact you want me too.

How do I know?

The smiles you give me,

the phrases you choose,

your eyes.

I stare into your eyes and my heart jumps.

I stare into your eyes and my head reels.

You've taken over my mind and stolen my heart.

but its alright i dont want it back.

you can take it but please dont break it....

i loved you then and i love you now

i wanted to tell you i just didnt know how.

i lay in bed with thoughts of you

running through my head......

But I just want this part of me to disappear,

and back where we were before.

Food Fair! 2:29:00 AM

Today was my class Carnival food fair.. It was so fun. I didn't get to sleep much the night before, so what the hack, I just got to school. Got there, The crowed was great. We manage to make a profit of about $30 each. Hahaha at least it's better than nothing or better yet a lost. hahaha.

Well the cakes and brownies was so happening. My friend's mum made it was awesome. Other's sold donuts, sweets, satay, drink and muffins.

He's backkkk... 2:15:00 AM

Jude's back! :)

Fuck it, I quit. 3:20:00 PM

I feel so fucked up. So many shits that gotta be done. Please... hmmm… I just want to give up like seriously. No more shits has got to be done. Maybe the days aren't so happy anymore.

The stupid things that I do.

Crazy cross town cycle. 5:22:00 AM

After the night market at compass point, and all that Ramly burger we were chillout under the block like some mat deciding what to do next. We finally decided to go cycling. But to where?? Parsir Ris Park! Yup. We called Shina and she could join us too…

We took the Defu Lane - Old Tampines road – Elias Road. But when we were on our way back, we found out we could that the new Bungkok Road and we cut 20minutes off our clock.

So anyways we had so much fn at the playground! We went on the spiderweb thing, which I was soaked in perspiration, like as if I just came out form a bath. Did some flying fox thinging, which Jeremy nearly flew. And our usual disk like spin. And we ended off with the good ol’ swing. The RAIN CAME!! We rushed, and cycled to a bicycle shop that had a very small sheltered parameter. Well at least we’re out of the downpour. We kinda dryed ourself and chillout there for like I thin 40 minutes and afterwards dash to the toilet, than down to a block near by the park.

After awhile the rain stop and we headed home. Well it was a nice ride back home. Morning came, the birds started chipping and the air was fresh. Welll I really enjoyed myself at this crazy cross town cycle. We gotta do this some day again.

Woohoo!!