If i fall in love with you its not my fault...

Falling in love with you

is one of the hardest things I've ever done.

Some people find that strange,

but then,

they haven't been fighting their heart for years,

relabling every feeling as "misguided" or worse.

When I speak to you,

I'm still waiting for the numbness that refuses to come.

The other day when you left,

my heart screamed a protest.

Was it fake?

I ask myself the question again,

the same question I've been asking for all this time.

The difficulty of the situation is made harder

by the fact you want me too.

How do I know?

The smiles you give me,

the phrases you choose,

your eyes.

I stare into your eyes and my heart jumps.

I stare into your eyes and my head reels.

You've taken over my mind and stolen my heart.

but its alright i dont want it back.

you can take it but please dont break it....

i loved you then and i love you now

i wanted to tell you i just didnt know how.

i lay in bed with thoughts of you

running through my head......

But I just want this part of me to disappear,

and back where we were before.