Update 3:48:00 AM

Hahaha oh my gosh... finally I manage to do my blog layout... we i still haven't decided to stick with this or edit some more...

A small light, hopefully.. 1:51:00 AM

I don’t know what to say anymore.. the funny thing is that, you don’t know what you’re saying anymore. Let say if we ever get back together, is everything going to be the same or will there be a change? Nothing has been happening since the last time; it’s like history is just repeating itself. You tide me down, leave me out in the cold and expect me to play like nothing ever happen? I don’t know, maybe you’re just covering your tracks or just simply leading me off.
It’s seriously hurting when I stood by you all along and now I realise that it all never actually did started. Well I’ve learnt how to just forget about things easily, well same goes to you.
Family? A word that means nothing no more to me. Fate chooses your families but you choose your friends. I chose you to be my family, but what mistake it was. Nobody’s perfect. Life is full of imperfections; there is absolutely no room for perfection. That’s what I feel. If life was made perfect everyone would be the same.
Nothing would ever matter, nothing would ever change.
People change, some for the good, some for darkness.
But everyone can turn on a small light in a dark room if they try.
Forgiveness is something truly hard to do, not brothering is something different.
Trust is to earn, so as to respect. Easily broken, easily lost.

evening coffee 1:42:00 AM

Today was such a nice day… after I got down from the bus; I went to pick up lil from her place. We came back to my place for a while to change and stuff and we quickly chow to the beach. We meet jimmy there and just chill out for a while. By the way, I lost the button on my wallet… gotta go back to the shop soon to get it fix.
After the beach we headed to compass point to have dinner… and as for dessert, we went to Starbucks for a drink. I had my evening coffee, jimmy had a frapachino, lilly had ice tea. Yea we chit chatted till we started to shiver because it was so cold and needed to use the washrooms.

Yea, lilly and I sent jimmy off at the bus stop and we took a slow walk back home…

Its such a nice day! One more day till my H-O-L-I-D-A-Y!
Dead tired now, going to bed, talking to lil till I fall asleep. Night.

eastcosty 1:41:00 AM

The other day lilly and I went to spend the whole weekend at the beach again. We went camping! Hahaha It was so bloody fun! I wish everyday could be like that… Jimmy couldn’t make it couz he wasn’t feeling too well… well no worries.
When we got to the beach on Friday night, it was already 3am in the moring… I know, WHO THE FUCK goes to the beach at 3am in the moring?! Hahaha yea, the idea was kinda last minute. Well we set up camp, started marinating the chicken wings and sausages, after that we feel asleep.
We were woken up by the heat! The freakin tent became an oven balls! So we decided to start our BBQ and have chicken wings for breakfast. Went for a swim, chillout by the shore and just let the waves crash at us and just chillout for the whole night.
In the evening we went to the supermarket to stock up our supplies… it was so much cheaper than at the 7-11. Well I tottaly enjoyed my whole weekend. We were so sad when were had to go home, and back to our normal lives… IP Addresses, DNS servers, Geeky stuff and as for lilian, mocha frapachino, cappuccino, latte, ect.. hahaha!
Gosh I can’t wait to have another weekend at the beach… maybe next month or so… after easter. Well we can play beach volleyball.. hahaha


Well I’m on the bus now, Going to the beach I think, and after that I think we’ll be going to sbucks I need to finish up my projects! Can’t freaking wait for e holidays! Hahhaa
OMG it’s my stop! Chow!

How to get to... 1:20:00 AM

Today was awesome! after school lil and I went to orchard to have dinner at Far East Plaza, than we were off to the movies. We watch The Boy in Stripe pyjamas and it was an awesome show! Really sad though…
well I really enjoyed myself today… I can’t wait for tomorrow and the day after… well yea! I’m looking at the bright sunshine of life.

Sunny Day
Sweepin' the clouds away
On my way to where the air is sweet

Can you tell me how to get,
How to get to Sesame Street

Come and play
Everything's A-OK
Friendly neighbors there
That's where we meet

Can you tell me how to get
How to get to Sesame Street

It's a magic carpet ride
Every door will open wide
To happy people like you--
Happy people like
What a beautiful

Sunny Day
Sweepin' the clouds away
On my way to where the air is sweet

Can you tell me how to get,
How to get to Sesame Street...

How to get to Sesame Street

Reward 12:35:00 AM

I’m so angry and so sad right now. The disappointments in me just change to anger at the fact of the situation. I can’t think, I can’t believe and I can’t imagine what it’s like right now. Seriously, you threaten me, you throw shit at me and you even talk shit about me, I don’t give a fuck anymore. I have stood up and help you further and tried all my best, but nothing means shit no more. It’s funny how money can change a situation. But leave that out now.
I just wanna stand up and walk away because I can’t take no more shit from you and I’m sick of how you would change. I will remember you, but I can’t embrace you. If I stay on I’d learn to hate you, but I don’t want that. I guess I’d just have to move on.
I’m sad that you just leave me hanging. You expect everything to be all right. You always bring money into the situation. You were my best friend penniless, now I’d just don’t know what you’ve become. You ask what happen to us, I’d say what happen to you? I’ve been the same person all along; you just didn’t want to come along. I sit down and think, I’ve tried, I push myself and I realise I’m not the one who’s bringing this down. As for the record, things would never be the same this time. I have lost all my trust in you. I still can’t get over the fact of what you’ve done.

All I want to say is good bye, but i don't know if I could...

Projects 1:27:00 AM

Jude is having the busiest week with school ever and is too tired to blog...

Here comes the... 9:21:00 PM

Today was a good day for me beside that I had the worst migraine this year thanks to the stupid rain and shine… Well I started the day early, watched the 81 Oscars award. I like the musical part. After that I went to school to do my phase test and it was seriously too easy. I started to panic because I was thinking that the answers could not be so easy... I manage to finish the test within 15 minutes, after that I met up with lilian. We went to the mall where we met my mum and had lunch.
After that lil came over to just chill out, while I continued to the website for dru. These damn web hosting people, they are so not reliable. I keep calling them like 10 times to ask them for my account details. Anyways lil and I started listening to oldies from the 80’s and 90’s. Than we switch to Marvin Gaye with his sexual song hahaha wth.

Oh gosh, here’s the best part. I received an SMS from my teacher and he said I scored an A for my test. He must have marked it already. And while I was in school just now, he said I should be receiving a scholarship again! and on top of that I might, just might get a bursary also. Hahaha

I can’t stop think what I should do with that money. Should I get an oven? Or should I save for my driver’s license? I could also give my room a make over. Well let’s talk again when I have the Chi Ching! Hahaha

Well yea now just back home. Dead shag, going to bed now hopefully I can start the day early tomorrow like this morning. Yea well boo ya!

Jude wants these!! Yves Saint Laurent Classic 80's inspired sneaker.. wuooo please...

Stuck in reverse 10:43:00 PM

Right now, I’m just having a coffee and a banana walnut muffin at starbucks Wheelock. Lilian’s studying for her exams tomorrow and I’m just doing some accounting online. It’s been such a hectic week. I’m having mock tests in school in preparation for my exams. My lecturer said that the mock test is going to be harder than the actual exams but, it seem too simple. Hahaha. Well I’m just getting tired of all these computer stuff. I really with I could do something more down to earth.

As on the side line of my life right now, I’m creating a website for Rockstar Posters. And I just can’t get everything to be right. The web hosters are making so many mistakes with my account. And that’s just pissing me off.. Well let’s not get into that.

(I finish my muffing by the way *bellyrub*)

This evening when I got up from a nap, I realise that my herbs are dying. I’m so sad. I guess it was too freaking hot this afternoon. I started planting them about two months ago and they were looking great until this evening. I hope they’ll be okay.

Well lilian looks stress oppsite me, she’s like writing down notes and listening to her MP3. Hahaha the woman sitting next to her is so loud that’s why we started listening to music. Well I kinda like this starbucks in twon but I prefer the one at the Plaza.

I cannot wait for this weekend, I don’t know why but yea. I’ve been craving for a BBQ since last year man. Like a chalet with sting ray, prawns, kebabs… wooo
Yea, I miss those chalet days hahaha. But on the hand I can’t wait to get my driver’s license!! Or COLDPLAY! Well I can’t seem to get tickets to Coldplay though. That’s the saddest part. “When you get what you want, but now what you need”


Yesterday I met jimmy for dinner. I brought his to this Indonesian restaurant at Far East Plaza. After that we sat at the starbucks at Wisma and just chilled out. We started talking about Physics and Astronomy and just debating about stuff. Hahaha well I seriously think that if we all were to study physics we could create a worm hold.
(okay I’m going to stop this geekyness’ hahah)

Well lets see what happen this week!

Just another boring day... 2:01:00 AM

Okay today was the best. I woke up late and rush to school, and guess what? Class was only for 5 minutes. I was like WTF? Anyways after class, I followed jasper to Aljunied. After that we went to the coffee shop at the back of church to have lunch and stuff… yea. Hahaha

Friendship: a building contract you sign with laughter and break with tears. 1:59:00 AM

I'll never find another friend to take the place of you.
No one will ever touch my world exactly like you do.
No one who's quite so thoughtful, no one I cherish so.
No one will mean so much to me I just wanted you to know.
Why is it that after going through so much together, you act like it’s been so little?
There are times that I miss you when I'm sad and when I'm lonely.
But most of all, I miss you when I'm happy.
You don't seem to notice, you don't seem to care
You promise me something, and then you aren't even there
You tell people my secrets, tell me your lies...
Who wants a friend.. That makes you want to cry?
So if I have to leave you, I want you to know that in the end,
It wasn’t because I stopped caring, it’s because you stopped being a friend.
I swear on my life that if I could take this knife out of my back, I would,
But between the loss of blood and the trust I had in you,
I don’t think it’d do any good.
I'll never forget what you did to me, but I'll never let you know I remember it so dearly.
I was the one who said things changed;
You were the one who proved it.
People act all nice and then turn around and talk shit...
So as for trusting people...fuck it I quit.

Sleep walking without leaving the bed. 7:06:00 PM

Hahaha this music video is damn cute

Project 5:37:00 AM

Okay it’s 5:28am now and I’m still awake.. I suppose to get up at six and get ready for school… it’s going to be a long day tomorrow; I finish at 5pm.
I feel damn sucky now. The thing is, I didn’t do a thing for my project but my group mates finish it. I couldn’t go to school for the past few days because of my hair and stuff. So I couldn’t do my part of the project. I seriously don’t deserve any marks as I have not done anything accepts some backgrounds shit for the presentation.
I don’t know what to say to my group mates tomorrow as we’re supposed to hand it in by tomorrow. Hmmm… and the suckiest part is, I don’t know weather I’m still in their team anot. Hmmm well done Jude well done.
Ahhh!!! Will someone please tell me what to do. I have no clue. Looks like I just gotta face the music later. I hate this feeling. I need to change my life. Seriously.

Things to get... 5:37:00 AM

Things I hope to get before Christmas!
1. An oven
2. Driver’s license (or by next year)
3. A PHONE
4. New skates
5. Hard disk
6. Get a makeover for my room
7. Good results (so I can freaking get out of school!)
8. Cookbook
9. Play the guitar
10. May be, just maybe a car

Things to do before I leave this earth.. Hopefully
1. Sky Dive!
2. Explore this earth.
3. Understand the constellations
4. Visit the town Barrow (way north) and Vatican
5. Diving
6. Sky dive again
7. Maybe play the piano
8. Have some Jude junior I guess
9. And maybe explore space??
10. Get a house by the beach… pungol end?

Chinese New Year 5:36:00 AM

Okay, it has been a good Chinese new year for me this year. We’ve gotten a lot of stuff and deco for the year of the Ox. Man, I went to Chinatown a few times this year, gotten lots of flowers too. I think it’s going to be a good year.

On Chinese I played 21 and won! Hahaha I guess its beginner’s luck. The steamboat is awesome!! Hope we can have it again soon. Clara surprises us by coming home early for Chinese New Year!
Hahaha I can’t wait to see what else is installed.

Okay, I’m now at Starbuck, waiting for lil to finish work, yea… I feel like going to Ikea after this.. I need to take a break from this workload that I have on my shoulders for just a second. Man there’s so many things I’ve got to do ASAP. Firstly is a website. A WHOLE SITE. From scratch. Secondly are my projects, I have 3 due by the end of the month. And last but not least, things at home. Swhoos…

Well I prepared myself for a busy 2009. Well look like I predicted correctly. Well everything looking good so far, school is great. Everything that they are teaching I already know, so I hope I won’t fail this semester.
Well I can’t wait for Chinese New Year. I know, I sound chi-na but yea. It’s rather fun. Get money, have shark fin. Steam boat. Yea Chinese New Year don’t seems that bad at all.
Well, I’m still not sure if I’m going to have a open house at my place or I’m going on a holiday! Hahaha. Well I just can’t wait.
Hopefully after Chinese New Year I can give my room a make over like once and for all. I hate my room man. It’s so not what I wanted it to be. Well ass!

Wishing you were here 12:19:00 AM

Love is special,
Once bitten, twice shy.
Even if it hurts,
It’s forgiven.
All those secrets,
And questions.

Lonely and scared I maybe,
Thinking of you makes me happy.
The joy that you bring,
Is as everlasting as it could be.

Running is the easiest option,
Where is the hardest answer?
Clocks that tick by,
Is useless now.

Home is were I want to go,
But there’s no place.

Being in this box for so long,
I can’t breath or speak a word.
I feel so alone in the dark.
Is there anyone upon whom I flow?

Fantasy it may seem,
Reality it may be.
The truth is,
I miss you so.
I crawed back into your ams.

Warmth that can fill all hearts desires.

2009!! 7:19:00 AM

It’s has been a great 2008 for me. There was so joy and laughter, it’s so sad that 2008 is over but well 2009 here! I hope this will be a good year. I have a hunch that it’s going to be a really busy year.
Everything’s changing so fast, I hope thing will be good. Well I’m just glad I have what I have.

Swoosh, the parties that have been going on for the last week was crazy! Christmas was so nice this year. Everyone was there, family and friends. This year I spent Christmas with Jimmy, Lilian & dru.
Had such a wonderful Christmas, not forgetting the presents.

Sharon’s birthday was madness. I hope everyone enjoyed, we only started dancing at the stroke of dawn. Damn stupid police.
And as for New Year’s Day we partied till the afternoon. Hahaha we drank, sung and dance. Woo-Hoo 2009!!