Baybeats! 7:10:00 PM

Baybeats was awesome this year followed lilly, ricky and Jimy! Well Anberlin was good. We got smashed in the mosh pit. hahas

Cold Cold Heart 11:11:00 AM

Round and round carousel
Has got you under it's spell,
Moving so fast...
But going nowhere

Is it lonely?

Up and down
Ferris wheel
Tell me how does it feel
To be so high...
Looking down here

Is it lonely?

Did the clown
Make you smile
He was only your fool for a while
Now he's gone back home
And left you wandering there

Is it lonely?

twenty 6 august 11:04:00 AM

Birthday is finally over.. Had a great one this year too! Thanks for all the warm wishes and gifts. :)
Well like I always say, It was a great trip around the sun again. Hahaha Looking forward to another ride.

Sunday morning 10:47:00 PM

Today Lilly had her Rite of Acceptance into the Order of Catechumens!

Welcome to the faith Lilly, hope you will continue to seek the good news.. :)

Well today is another sleepy Sunday… Wanted to go to Holland to get Valrhona cocoa but was too tired..
Last night we met jimmy at gardens to have dinner. Really enjoyed the satay man… it’s been so long since we went night cycling, all of us.. hahas midnight supper.

Well as for me same ol' usual thing… have another week before I go back to school…
Till then! Bye bye

Not to late.... hopefully 6:17:00 AM

Firstly, my throat is still killing me. I think it got worst instead of healing.. I'm having blood clots and aches at the surgical area . Hmmm... I have an appointment with the doc this Friday.

Secondly for the past weeks I've been staying home.. boredom usually strikes at 4am. Have practically nothing to do besides the internet and Norah Jones to keep me company although she can make me crazy at time when she makes me think too deeply...

Thirdly, I taught I'd never say this but I miss school. ha. Hopefully I can graduate. Have like what 4 weeks MC and so so so much work to do... SIAN...

Lastly, I might lose my mind if I don't do something soon. I hate to be sick, I feel so dysfunctional. Hmmm there's so many things to be done but I can't because of this agonizing pain. I wish it could all go away. Happy birthday Jude. hmmm

Praying softly in my heart that everything's going alright.
The pain and pangs that are unbearable.
I close my eyes when you're away
because the pain comes when you go astray.

Lying in my bed
tears are dry out from the pain,
and memories are running through my head.

There's nothing I can do but sit here and wait.
I dream of you everyday when I fall asleep.
You make me so happy when I'm awake.
You mean so much to me, girl you know it's true.

monday blues 4:41:00 PM

Day 7 after post tonsillectomy.

Feels like there's knifes down my throat and I feel like ripping my ears out because of the pain affecting it . I miss my dose of pain killers yesterday and the pain was unbearable. But after all, I hope everything goes well.

I don't know why but I've been feeling very sad these few day. I can't understand why these feelings are here but they are here. I wished it would go all away. hmmm....
I'm going to bring benny to the vet now. I think he sprain his paw.. hmmm.
till then..

speechless 7:52:00 PM

Surgery is finally over and now I just have to endure this pain for another two week while I’m in recovery. It was kinda scary, never been so nervous before.. Had needles in me, big syringe was there too.. haha but all went well…

Just before I went in, I could see the worry in my mum’s eye and lil’s too.. Sometimes I wish I could do this surgery without telling anyone. Hate it to see everyone like so worried. Well I don’t know what I’d do without all of you...

Lilly brought balloons and the nurses were shock hahaha… Jimmy came over when I got home.. we watch Charlie Bartlet. Thanks so much you guys! With you guys around the pain didn’t seems all that pain… :)

another kind of feeling that cannot be explain... 5:49:00 AM

Let's see what happens tmr... WOW.

after movie walk home... 4:13:00 AM

Short post... Just got home form the movie theatre.. Jimmy, lilly and I went to watch GI Joe… It was an okay movie to me. Jimmy met us at AMK after work and we came from my aunt’s birthday party.

Well today was kinda of a long day to me.. but I had loads of fun! It’s not going to end so soon; sharon’s coming home! Hahaha…

Hmmm till then. bb

What do you say
when it's all gone away ?
baby I didn't mean to hurt you
truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart
no matter how hard you resist it
it never rains when you want it to

Time after Time 5:01:00 PM

Blogger is getting on my nerves! Anyways The other day I went for my appointment and guess what?! The doc said he's gonna stuff a camera down my nose! Yucks! It's was seriously disgusting to see the inside of your nose on TV... Hahhaah was rather uncomfortable but well.. This is how much I hate tonsillitis!.

I'm going to have my surgery on Tuesday and hopefully it goes well... There's a 1 in 25,000 chances that I might be in ICU... well hopefully I'm the 24,999th.. hehehe

Okays I gottta chow now.. Going leave you with my beautiful Throat, Voice Box, Tonsil and some weird ass thing... Chows!

BITCH BLOGGER!!!

Nightingale 5:52:00 AM

Blogger is finally working.. I'm happy and very nervous at the same time. Happy being I can resume updating my blog and nervous because of tomorrow.

I have an appointment in the morning with the doctor about my tonsillitis. Never did I imagine taking them out. I do not know how much it's gonna cost and everything... Hopefully not too much. hmmmm.

Listening to some jazz... trying to clam down, I'm full of anxiety; can't sleep.

wish me luck!

I turn your picture to the wall,

I don't want to see you anymore.

It's now all a memory,

now it can never be,

I'll never see you anymore..

Only thing now to do is close your eyes,

and dream.

everythings not lost... 3:26:00 AM

Everyone is tuck tightly in bed, as I watch the hour of the morning goes by. It is 3:15 am as I’m writing this. A shadow of sadness is around us, while our hearts fear for the worst and our tears try to wash the sorrows away.

Looking at the stars above us, praying for the storm to be over. The pain becomes numb and the heart changes. Feelings are thrown around, words hurts much more than actions. It’s no fantasy if you think about it.


Love; a feeling above all.

once again. 7:41:00 AM

my freaking tonsillitis just came back again. It's going to kill me... I can't go through this agonizing pain again, I want to have it removed so badly. hmmm... fever's back and i'm going crazy! It's too damn MF pain!!!

Every time when ever I have such good plans for the week ahead i'll get this... I feel like a virus/bacterial magnet. Someone please make this stop.

time that doesn't tick. 1:09:00 PM

THREE hours till freedom. bored to death in this class. Can't wait for the weekend to start. Better yet, school to end. 

walk by me... 12:07:00 AM

A lot had happen since the twenty third of July. Well last saturday jimmy and I went to the twenty four hours LAN shop at gardens. My friends told me about that place, the sucky thing was we spend thirty minutes figuring our how to work the computer and it kept jamming up. arrgh. Jimmy and I had a ridiculously good game of Left 4 Dead. hahaha we need to bring more ppl. it's hell lot of fun!

It's been awhile since I started working on something new. I'm up for a challenge. For the past few days I think my body has gone mad, couldn't do thing properly. what a question of science.

Right now I'm looking forward to tomorrow. School and than RCIA with lilly. Than come friday! woo-hoo! man how the days past.  

Confused as i can be

I know you're real to me.

days like this 12:56:00 AM

Today was a good day. Firstly, this morning was raining so heavily man i love rainy days. hahaha than jimmy and i had a L4D time out! woo-hoo! hahaha i think i love anything got to do with zombies... than met lilly and we went shopping ard city hall....

well just wanted to blog about today. such a nice day.

good night

Monday, monday, monday.... Woots! 8:30:00 PM

Well I guess today I had the Monday’s blues. I didn’t go to school, I know I have that bad habit which I’m trying to kick. Well I decided to make full use of my time by settling stuffs at home. Didn’t have the time to sort things out since the party. Major recovery. Hahaha

Well I’m looking forward to a good week. Have some tentative plans here and there. Right now I’m just learning some culinary stuff online, recipes and techniques. I’m thinking of enrolling myself into a pastry school next year, once I’m done with electronics. I’m so sick and tired of computers. I love doing things down to earth, like food, or clothes, or arts.

Well I guess I’ll take a day at a time. Right now I’m at lil’s workplace. Waiting for her to finish up. Hahaha I’m so excited! Can’t wait to spend a night out with her tonight! :)

Friday's bus ride 12:18:00 PM

On the bus ride home from school… It’s going to be a 45-minute ride. It’s so strange how time pass so fast without us noticing it. I feel so weird out inside of me. How I wish I could go back in time and make things different. What I would give to be in school another day. Hmmm… in a month time or so, it’s going to be my 18^th birthday. I seriously cannot believe it. I can remember my 8th birthday like it was months ago. Swhoosh.

Lilly 4:35:00 AM

Well it’s over, I’m glad it’s over and sad at the same time. I would say the party was a blast! Had tons of work to do, but I think it was all worth it.

Happy 18^th Birthday lilly!

Right now there’s nothing much to do, just unpacked and get going with our normal life. Hmmm…

You turned my darkness into light;

You made everything all right.

You picked me up when I was down;

You turned my life around.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A blessing is what you are to me.

When I needed you the most, you were there;

Even if it seemed like you didn't care.

When I didn't think I could make it another day,

You chased all my doubts away.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A treasure is what you are to me.

The world is full of many people, it's true;

But there is only one of you.

You fill my heart with love;

You're a God-sent gift from above.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

An angel is what you are to me.

Lost and alone, I will no longer be;

Because you are here with me.

There is no reason to be sad;

You've taken away all the bad.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A girlfriend is what you are to me.