everythings not lost... 3:26:00 AM

Everyone is tuck tightly in bed, as I watch the hour of the morning goes by. It is 3:15 am as I’m writing this. A shadow of sadness is around us, while our hearts fear for the worst and our tears try to wash the sorrows away.

Looking at the stars above us, praying for the storm to be over. The pain becomes numb and the heart changes. Feelings are thrown around, words hurts much more than actions. It’s no fantasy if you think about it.


Love; a feeling above all.

once again. 7:41:00 AM

my freaking tonsillitis just came back again. It's going to kill me... I can't go through this agonizing pain again, I want to have it removed so badly. hmmm... fever's back and i'm going crazy! It's too damn MF pain!!!

Every time when ever I have such good plans for the week ahead i'll get this... I feel like a virus/bacterial magnet. Someone please make this stop.

time that doesn't tick. 1:09:00 PM

THREE hours till freedom. bored to death in this class. Can't wait for the weekend to start. Better yet, school to end. 

walk by me... 12:07:00 AM

A lot had happen since the twenty third of July. Well last saturday jimmy and I went to the twenty four hours LAN shop at gardens. My friends told me about that place, the sucky thing was we spend thirty minutes figuring our how to work the computer and it kept jamming up. arrgh. Jimmy and I had a ridiculously good game of Left 4 Dead. hahaha we need to bring more ppl. it's hell lot of fun!

It's been awhile since I started working on something new. I'm up for a challenge. For the past few days I think my body has gone mad, couldn't do thing properly. what a question of science.

Right now I'm looking forward to tomorrow. School and than RCIA with lilly. Than come friday! woo-hoo! man how the days past.  

Confused as i can be

I know you're real to me.

days like this 12:56:00 AM

Today was a good day. Firstly, this morning was raining so heavily man i love rainy days. hahaha than jimmy and i had a L4D time out! woo-hoo! hahaha i think i love anything got to do with zombies... than met lilly and we went shopping ard city hall....

well just wanted to blog about today. such a nice day.

good night

Monday, monday, monday.... Woots! 8:30:00 PM

Well I guess today I had the Monday’s blues. I didn’t go to school, I know I have that bad habit which I’m trying to kick. Well I decided to make full use of my time by settling stuffs at home. Didn’t have the time to sort things out since the party. Major recovery. Hahaha

Well I’m looking forward to a good week. Have some tentative plans here and there. Right now I’m just learning some culinary stuff online, recipes and techniques. I’m thinking of enrolling myself into a pastry school next year, once I’m done with electronics. I’m so sick and tired of computers. I love doing things down to earth, like food, or clothes, or arts.

Well I guess I’ll take a day at a time. Right now I’m at lil’s workplace. Waiting for her to finish up. Hahaha I’m so excited! Can’t wait to spend a night out with her tonight! :)

Friday's bus ride 12:18:00 PM

On the bus ride home from school… It’s going to be a 45-minute ride. It’s so strange how time pass so fast without us noticing it. I feel so weird out inside of me. How I wish I could go back in time and make things different. What I would give to be in school another day. Hmmm… in a month time or so, it’s going to be my 18^th birthday. I seriously cannot believe it. I can remember my 8th birthday like it was months ago. Swhoosh.

Lilly 4:35:00 AM

Well it’s over, I’m glad it’s over and sad at the same time. I would say the party was a blast! Had tons of work to do, but I think it was all worth it.

Happy 18^th Birthday lilly!

Right now there’s nothing much to do, just unpacked and get going with our normal life. Hmmm…

You turned my darkness into light;

You made everything all right.

You picked me up when I was down;

You turned my life around.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A blessing is what you are to me.

When I needed you the most, you were there;

Even if it seemed like you didn't care.

When I didn't think I could make it another day,

You chased all my doubts away.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A treasure is what you are to me.

The world is full of many people, it's true;

But there is only one of you.

You fill my heart with love;

You're a God-sent gift from above.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

An angel is what you are to me.

Lost and alone, I will no longer be;

Because you are here with me.

There is no reason to be sad;

You've taken away all the bad.

If I didn't have you, what would I be?

A girlfriend is what you are to me.

My buddy 4:30:00 AM

The moon is at it's zenith,

I'm staring into space.

I take a glance at the stars,

There I see his face.

A smile stretched ear to ear,

Lights up my dingy soul.

He dances a jig through my thoughts,

My God! He's on a roll!

His soul is strong and full of will,

I'm so proud of him.

I admire his perseverance,

His laughter's never dim.

I spend a lot of time with him,

Happy it makes me feel.

He's the one in which I confide,

This I know is real.

Our friendship we now have

is something that I'd miss

but maybe once we let go

we will find eternal bliss.

When you think I'm being too tough,

Remember that which does not kill you

Makes you stronger.

When you need a friend to listen,

Remember that I am here for you,

Always.

When you doubt me,

Remember that I once knelt at your feet,

Washing them in service to you.

When you lose faith in yourself,

Remember that I never did,

Nor ever will.

A feeling that cannot be expressed. 7:26:00 AM

I can live with the nonsense, but not without you.

Please don't go so quickly, like a blink of an eye.

You are so much so a part of my life,

take that away and I might have five.

Maybe I'm delusional. [love you always]

Tonsillitis is killing me. Suffering in agonising pain.

We will miss you MJ 6:05:00 PM

I’m really sad and still in shocked that my childhood idol just pass away. He was seriously a great artist that shaped the world. All he ever wanted was peace and harmony with every nation and religion. And people accused him over the years with faults that they could not find in him. I’m deeply sadden with his sudden death and is legacy will definitely remain forever. Rest In Peace MJ.

Strange things 6:00:00 PM

This was seriously a strange week. Firstly Jeremy had an accident in the kitchen with his finger. Than Lil also had a mishap with her toe. Well I hope both of you guys get well soon.

Last night was an awesome night. Lil and I had a small little dinner date before we went to watch a movie with jimmy. Well we watched TRANSFORMERS! AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME. 2 thumbs up! Thx Jimmy for the movie! Hahaha let’s see what’s the next show we’ll watch. Burno? hahhaha

June, June 1:21:00 PM

In a weird way, time is actually passing by rather fast. I've been up all night thinking about it. Today is going to be a busy day for me, we'll be doing R&D for our projects. Hopefully I can take as much notes down as possible. Tomorrow's father's day and I haven't had much plan yet.

The next thing that is on my mind is Lil's 18th Birthday. There's loads of planing and I seriously can't wait. If any of you are having doubts of coming well you'll be missing BIG if you're not there. We're planing to have a Summer BBQ, Grill Lamb, Beef, Salmon ect. Oooo... Caviar with Malibu by the pool anyone? hahaha

Yup so there's going to be a whole lot of good food, booze and music. Man oh man. Lil!

hahahaha...

Well till than...

I kissed a boy. 7:38:00 AM

Holidays are here and it seems there's nothing to do. Boredom usually strikes in the middle of the night around 3 in the morning... Everyone seemed to be busy with something, well I'm just taking my time off and slacking the whole darn holidays.

I taught of getting a job a few times but I guess, I kinda want to have a little me time. I've been doing some studying online these few days about culinary and stuff.. I'm thinking of taking a part-time course next year... see how it goes than.

Life seems so unpredictable now, I hate it when that happens. Really confuse with alot of stuff; it seems like my head has been battling with my heart. Well not anymore, it's a fucking strange thing.

GOSH!! FUCKED!! Back to freaking square one! Have you ever felt like you're in two worlds?

Caught in between two personalities? Well yea.

The joy that is in my heart seem so cheerful. Glad to hear from you but why is this happening now? After a year since we last talk now this feeling's back?

We don't even talk anymore. You said you'd be here before but you never did.

It was the biggest mistake of our life. I had to leave something so precious before but now I wish it never happen at all.

The times that we had was good while it lasted. I miss you so, but it would be so weird now.

Wishful thinking always gets the side of me.

I'm so sorry,

Samuel Tristan Navarro

Mindless crap 8:21:00 AM

Every morning there is this black miner bird that will fly and crash into my window. At first it gave me a fright, I taught what was that. Since than every single day for the past few weeks it keeps coming. After it crashes it will just sit on the ledge of the window before flying off. Hahaha, the funny thing is, it's the only thing that's able to wake me up everyday.. haha.

Well for the past few days everything was alright, the usual shit that life throws at me. Firstly I spent $60 BUCKS on cab the other day. I started out in the central than down to the West, than back to the East. GOSH I feel like i've been rob. I could have bought the biggest bottle of Nielsen Massey Vanilla Extract with that money! Gosh

Well I stayed over at Cornell's place the other day. We did some photoshopping. Was really fun. I have nothing much to say... Later I'm going to meet Jimmy and most likely we're going town to get some shit.

Till than!

Slow days... 7:27:00 PM

Well, yesterday Lilly and I met up Cornell to pass her some stuff and chill out. We went all over town and we went to Holland Village also, got some chocolates there. We decided to make some cupcakes and we manage to thanks to lilian! =)

I'm super tired now, although I just got up from a long sleep. Hmmm... I'm going over to Cornell place today to chill out and do some shitz... well till tmr! :)

Untitled 8:28:00 AM

I had a nice time at Johor yesterday. Went to look at stuff at the shopping malls, sight seeing around the areas and just spending a day with a friend. Well it doesn't matter now...

Sadly I taught that beautiful day would end nicely, but I taught wrong.

Everything was going happily, until our differences came about.

Do what you have to, think what your have to think, to reach your "goal".

At the end of the day, I hope you're happy.......

Hmmm.. 4:24:00 AM

My holidays are finally here! I'm quite excited, I did well in my exams, I taught I was going to fail... Hopefully I can get a 4 this time round. The next thing is, this monday or tuesday we're be going to JB! Jeremy, lilly and I. Can't wait. Well jimmy is starting his internship soon so we don't have much time to hang out anymore. Lilly's going to start school soon and be busy with her studies. Looks like I'm stuck here with ol' brian and myself.

Maybe I should start finding a job. Something that I can do to earn myself some extra income.

Yea Jude you should do that...

Gosh six more months till xmas! hahaha call me crazy, I know it's kinda early but I just had a sudden rush. Another thing is hopefully I can freaking get my drivers license before xmas. hmmm....

I'm over at jimmy place now, super bored so pardon be on talking shit here. hahaha well it's my blog! shoosh!

bye I'll watch cartoon or something.

The strangest part. 4:06:00 AM

There is alot to be said and to be done, but i'd rather just time this time out and relax. Today is the firth day of the sixth month, I still can't accpect that half a year has just gone by.. In six month's time I'd be graduating and moving on with my life. I haven't quite picture a plan on where I'd go after college but I have somewhat a rough idea what I wanna do.

Two years ago I had a plan, but it didn't turn out how I expected it to be.

What I want to do is entirely different from what I'm studying. I'm good at what I'm studying but I don't have any interest in it whatsoever. I wouldn't want to ready a book that has more numbers than alphabets; I guess you wouldn't too. I want to do something more down to earth something that everyone would understand.

For the past few weeks I've been putting my mind onto the taught of what I want to do with my life. Where I'd like to go or be in five years time. Well, it's extremely hard for me to put a finger on that right now. Idea and taught has been going through my mind and I realise that it's only me out there in the real world. I think of starting up my own line of pastries but I haven't really taught of a 100% fool proof plan yet. There's still alot of detour and bumps. Money is one of the biggest issues; as usual.

But if all works well I hope I can be that tiny grain of salt of the earth.