June, June 1:21:00 PM

In a weird way, time is actually passing by rather fast. I've been up all night thinking about it. Today is going to be a busy day for me, we'll be doing R&D for our projects. Hopefully I can take as much notes down as possible. Tomorrow's father's day and I haven't had much plan yet.

The next thing that is on my mind is Lil's 18th Birthday. There's loads of planing and I seriously can't wait. If any of you are having doubts of coming well you'll be missing BIG if you're not there. We're planing to have a Summer BBQ, Grill Lamb, Beef, Salmon ect. Oooo... Caviar with Malibu by the pool anyone? hahaha

Yup so there's going to be a whole lot of good food, booze and music. Man oh man. Lil!

hahahaha...

Well till than...

I kissed a boy. 7:38:00 AM

Holidays are here and it seems there's nothing to do. Boredom usually strikes in the middle of the night around 3 in the morning... Everyone seemed to be busy with something, well I'm just taking my time off and slacking the whole darn holidays.

I taught of getting a job a few times but I guess, I kinda want to have a little me time. I've been doing some studying online these few days about culinary and stuff.. I'm thinking of taking a part-time course next year... see how it goes than.

Life seems so unpredictable now, I hate it when that happens. Really confuse with alot of stuff; it seems like my head has been battling with my heart. Well not anymore, it's a fucking strange thing.

GOSH!! FUCKED!! Back to freaking square one! Have you ever felt like you're in two worlds?

Caught in between two personalities? Well yea.

The joy that is in my heart seem so cheerful. Glad to hear from you but why is this happening now? After a year since we last talk now this feeling's back?

We don't even talk anymore. You said you'd be here before but you never did.

It was the biggest mistake of our life. I had to leave something so precious before but now I wish it never happen at all.

The times that we had was good while it lasted. I miss you so, but it would be so weird now.

Wishful thinking always gets the side of me.

I'm so sorry,

Samuel Tristan Navarro

Mindless crap 8:21:00 AM

Every morning there is this black miner bird that will fly and crash into my window. At first it gave me a fright, I taught what was that. Since than every single day for the past few weeks it keeps coming. After it crashes it will just sit on the ledge of the window before flying off. Hahaha, the funny thing is, it's the only thing that's able to wake me up everyday.. haha.

Well for the past few days everything was alright, the usual shit that life throws at me. Firstly I spent $60 BUCKS on cab the other day. I started out in the central than down to the West, than back to the East. GOSH I feel like i've been rob. I could have bought the biggest bottle of Nielsen Massey Vanilla Extract with that money! Gosh

Well I stayed over at Cornell's place the other day. We did some photoshopping. Was really fun. I have nothing much to say... Later I'm going to meet Jimmy and most likely we're going town to get some shit.

Till than!

Slow days... 7:27:00 PM

Well, yesterday Lilly and I met up Cornell to pass her some stuff and chill out. We went all over town and we went to Holland Village also, got some chocolates there. We decided to make some cupcakes and we manage to thanks to lilian! =)

I'm super tired now, although I just got up from a long sleep. Hmmm... I'm going over to Cornell place today to chill out and do some shitz... well till tmr! :)

Untitled 8:28:00 AM

I had a nice time at Johor yesterday. Went to look at stuff at the shopping malls, sight seeing around the areas and just spending a day with a friend. Well it doesn't matter now...

Sadly I taught that beautiful day would end nicely, but I taught wrong.

Everything was going happily, until our differences came about.

Do what you have to, think what your have to think, to reach your "goal".

At the end of the day, I hope you're happy.......

Hmmm.. 4:24:00 AM

My holidays are finally here! I'm quite excited, I did well in my exams, I taught I was going to fail... Hopefully I can get a 4 this time round. The next thing is, this monday or tuesday we're be going to JB! Jeremy, lilly and I. Can't wait. Well jimmy is starting his internship soon so we don't have much time to hang out anymore. Lilly's going to start school soon and be busy with her studies. Looks like I'm stuck here with ol' brian and myself.

Maybe I should start finding a job. Something that I can do to earn myself some extra income.

Yea Jude you should do that...

Gosh six more months till xmas! hahaha call me crazy, I know it's kinda early but I just had a sudden rush. Another thing is hopefully I can freaking get my drivers license before xmas. hmmm....

I'm over at jimmy place now, super bored so pardon be on talking shit here. hahaha well it's my blog! shoosh!

bye I'll watch cartoon or something.

The strangest part. 4:06:00 AM

There is alot to be said and to be done, but i'd rather just time this time out and relax. Today is the firth day of the sixth month, I still can't accpect that half a year has just gone by.. In six month's time I'd be graduating and moving on with my life. I haven't quite picture a plan on where I'd go after college but I have somewhat a rough idea what I wanna do.

Two years ago I had a plan, but it didn't turn out how I expected it to be.

What I want to do is entirely different from what I'm studying. I'm good at what I'm studying but I don't have any interest in it whatsoever. I wouldn't want to ready a book that has more numbers than alphabets; I guess you wouldn't too. I want to do something more down to earth something that everyone would understand.

For the past few weeks I've been putting my mind onto the taught of what I want to do with my life. Where I'd like to go or be in five years time. Well, it's extremely hard for me to put a finger on that right now. Idea and taught has been going through my mind and I realise that it's only me out there in the real world. I think of starting up my own line of pastries but I haven't really taught of a 100% fool proof plan yet. There's still alot of detour and bumps. Money is one of the biggest issues; as usual.

But if all works well I hope I can be that tiny grain of salt of the earth.

A lot has come 2:50:00 AM

Good by May, hello June! I can't believe it's June already, half the year just went by with a blink of an eye. Everything is changing so dramatically and I'm sure it's going to keep changing till the end of the year... I haven't been writting much, been busy lately. lots has happen since last week. Let me see..

• went for Jeremy's event
• went to watch terminator
• baked.
• and all the other shits that I can't remember right now.

Tomorrow I'm having my last and final exam. Hopefully I do well. I can't wait for the holidays! There's lots to do and plan. Projects are going to keep me busy. I hope I can finish as many of them successfully. Although sometimes I get head over heels.

Well let's see what this summer has to offer! Have a great June everyone!!

Sugar 4:34:00 PM

Oh gosh... Finally I'm resting on my bed. It's been nearly a week since I last baked, and I told myself, No! this could not be happening!! Well I went to the supermarket today after we made a useless trip down to downtown east. Lilian and I were suppose to booked a chalet for her birthday, but ended up, going back empty handed.

Well, anyways Got myself some flour and other baking needs and I decided to make some macaroons today.

Well the macaroons did not turn out to how the macaroons I intended it to be. It came out some sort of shortbread-cookie thingy. Well there's always another try.

I made classic sugar cookies instead! :) Awesomelisicous

Prayer 11:46:00 PM

I thank you for my friends, for those who understand me better than I understand myself, for those who know me at my worst and still love me, for those who have forgiven me when I had no right to expect to be forgiven.
Help me to be as true to my friends as I would wish them to be to me.
Help me to take the first step to get into touch again with friends from whom I have drifted apart.
and help me to have no bitterness but only forgiveness to any of my friends who failed or who turned against me; this I ask for your love;'s sake. Amen.


Source: Jeremy's prayer book.

Strange Saturday.. 9:22:00 PM

Another lazy Saturday.. Something seems different than usual, I just can't put a finger onto what it is. I had a good dinner. Had a bad dream last night, I dreamt about my worst fear. Couldn't believe when I woke up. Told myself thank god it was a dream. But maybe, just maybe it might happen in reality. The signs are there.

Music seems to be the only thing that understands. Feelings inside me are all jumbled up, I don't know what I'm feeling. It's mixed with pain, joy, jealousy, love and fearfulness.

I wish this feeling inside me would just disappear. Life is just full of shitz...

How far is far?? 1:09:00 AM

I am speechless, I don't know what to say. I am so tired right now, but I had a fantastic Friday night. It sounds a little crazy but maybe we'll try it someday again. Lil and I cycled all the way to east coast to chill out at the beach there.. So sad Jeremy couldn't make it, as he had something on this evening. Well we'll go someday again kk!! Anyways we took around 1 1/2 hrs to reach there. It was a 15.6km cycle to the park; wasn't too bad...

Loads of traffic, stupid ppl bumping into each other and women driver! hahaha. was really fun.

I'm going to sleep now.

(too tired to upload the pictures...)

Caramel thursday 2:21:00 AM

I'm finally on my bed resting. Today lil came over and we started making some muffins and sugar cookies. It was good I'd say. Everything went well except for the icing and not forgetting my eyebrows and toes. Freaking boiling hot caramel splash onto my brows and toe. damn pain balls... Now it's swelling really bad and I hope it gets better.

Well, today was good.

I wish, I really wish we could turn back time together..

More like I had a better week than day 4:52:00 PM

Still down with the cold... Look like it's going to stay for long.. I can't do anything, feeling so weak too. Plans today had to cancel. I was suppose to follow jimmy for his interview this morning, than chow down to school for awhile, but what the hack. Damn flu

I just got back from the clinic, and the doc gave me 2 days MC!! well it's not happening when you're unwell.. damn. Hahaha the doctor said I had most of the swine flu symptoms. well I ain't pig.

well I'm more than happy to stay home...

Oh wait! This seriously made my day. I need to find that owner! She's crazy like sharon with benny.

What's up with the party hats and balloons?? hahaha

In the middle of the night! 2:06:00 AM

waken up by the wary of life in the middles night. Shock and uncertain where I was, I realise it was only my room. Wondering who's still awake at this hour, I went online. Lil was still on, chatted with her for awhile and now, the silence in the night seems so dead. And lifeless.

My nose feels like a tap. My head feels like a drum and my body feel like a meat tenderiser is hitting it. Geezed! I guess i'd got to see a doctor.

Till the drips stop...

I had better days.. 10:04:00 PM

Down with the flu... hope its not swine or that hunch I had. WHO was right. I hope it's not the end of the world. Well anyways I just got a new oven and it's so cool. Just baked some bread to try out. It came out awesome.

till the flu's over.. bye

Something from the heart. 3:53:00 AM

I can't sleep. Somethings are in my head that are bothering me. I just need to let you know both that I'll sill love you the same what ever happens. It just hurts me sometimes, but I'm pointing fingers at anyone. We're only human, you and me. Life is too short to have pride and ego to cover up our true self.

I maybe sensitive at times, but I'll always try to understand your situation. Love and care is a two way path in human nature, I was taught to live with only one; give but have nothing in return. But sometimes it just kills me inside, so maybe today is one of those days.

I'm sorry if I have ever let you down; mistakes can only be learnt when the person sees the outcome. I'll try to do that.

For what it's worth, both of you'll are my biggest inspirations.

Something that was not to be spoken of. 3:20:00 AM

Saturday wasn't such a good day.. It was fun and everything, but not how I pictured the day would end. Three of us, Jimmy, Lil & I went to have supper at the new Prata shop near jimmy's place. While we were cycling there, I saw this ambulance next to me. Personally I don't like ambulance, police cars or fire trucks. It's kinda like an omen to me.

Yea so anyways, we went to eat, enjoyed the food.. After we left the coffeeshop, I felt like as if there was this weight next to me on my bike that was trying to pin me down. I just didn't bother at first. After a while later I had a really bad fall while going to the slope, the bike skidded with me. I had some cuts on my hand, twisted my shoulder and my whole left arm was numb.

I just didn't want to bother about the pain, I just laugh about it. I seriously think that was a bad night, whatever that was trying to get me.

I just got back from the movies. It was a interesting show, I'll just call it A&D. It kinda get you thinking about the Vatican. Not about the catholic church, more on the Vatican councils.

Well it's been a long day. Looking forward to tomorrow.

Till then,

God bless.

Ice-cream??!! 9:42:00 PM

Just got back from compass point... Had dinner with mum at KFC hahha haven't had dinner with her for a while now, just the two of us. Well, went to look around at stuff.. Kinda lazy.. today feels like a lazy Sunday, somehow.

I can't wait for next week! Tuesday somebody special is coming to my place to stay!! :) I think I'm becoming crazy... I'm so excited I can't stop this anxiety.

I'm so bored... There nothing to do, ON A SATURDAY NIGHT! nothing's on TV, facebook or the net is not doing any good..

Surprising this was in orchard...

A new place. a new routine! :) 3:24:00 AM

These are one of those nights that are silence, The streets seems so lifeless at this hour. Well it's not how the Friday night I pictured, but that would do. Hopefully my weekend is going to be supered! :)

I'm spending the night chilling with Jimmy today. We went to have supper at the Prata shop behind his place. Was not bad, something new.. It was kinda scary cycling through the private estate in the dark streets, but it was fun to have that thrill at the same time. I'm going to miss these time, cycling in the middle of the night to nowhere, laughing, talking shit about our daily lives.. I'm going to miss you when things start to change for us as we both have to go our own ways... Never taught I'd have a friend like you... Deep down I'm happy and sad at the same time, hopefully this will never end. Hmmm...

Anyways now I'm back at his place.. just surfing the net while you're sleeping! Told you'd sleep! :) hehe...

Friendship, a gift from God.

Life is just full of shits, thing that you have to go through and don't, things you got to try and things you have do to that you don't like. It's really unfair but that fucking life! Hopefully heaven would be better..