Lilly 2:20:00 AM

Something that should'nt have happen. 9:36:00 PM

Guess what? Tonsilitist is back after I went for a tonsilitomy... WHAT THE FUCK!! It's damn sucky...

Been having fever for the past few days.. was around 40.. :( Right now I'm feeling very weak and can't do much. I wish this would all go away. I'm tired of the doctors and the pain.. hmmm.. Feel like dying right now. Just wish I could.

Well hopefully there will be better days...

Feeling the same way all over again.. 12:35:00 AM

Should I leave it as it is?

sit back and watch it all end?

I know it takes two hands to clap,

but what the use of clapping if the hands are busy?

My heart is battling with my head

I guess I'd ignore all this feelings instead.

hmmm...

I wish we could go back to the past

to those days when we had a blast!

Maybe I'd just let us be

hopefully we can be free

There are so many thing left unsaid

but i know we choose to keep it in our heads.

If we ever meet again in a few years

just so you know, i'd still be here.

What a friend you're to me

well, that's all we can ever be.

A forced feeling 12:11:00 AM

Back to school for me. Although tomorrow is going to be a Thursday, it sure doesn't feel like it. I have left exactly 7 days left before my holidays again. great. It's strange why everything is going so differently nowadays, how I wish it would all slow down. Dear friends, night cycling, Beaches, laughter, skating, mid-night movies, and games nights are now only but a memory. hmmm...

I would say I'm happy where I'm at now, although it may not seem all that perfect but thanks to the people that touch my life I'm willing to give it another try. I did alot of thinking while at home.Man, how blind I can be. A few more months till the end of this year. I hope at the end of it I can say it was a good year. Being away from school for so long, I have lost this feeling of accomplishment. Like the times where you finish a project and you can say, wow I did that? Hahaha.

Maybe if I squeeze in the time for October I can try to do something I have the passion for. Well lets see how much workload are there on my desk tomorrow. Oh shit. I have my NAFA test to take still. great. Till tomorrow, Good bye

Autumn is back again
it may seem insane.
Time passes by so fast
I just want to embrace my past.

In denial I can be
that's something you won't agree.
Someone please save me
or can you just let me be?

I've gotta move on
and all the memories soon would be gone.
Till the next day we'll meet
I promises it'll be sweet.

Coffee afternoon 3:59:00 PM

So i'm at starbucks now... At raffle's city just waiting for lilly to finish school...
Just now jimmy and I went down to the CMBP place for his army... Before that we waited for like 2hrs for his glasses Hahaha like wtf?
Anyways i should have brought my laptop... Right now i'm bloging using my phone... How sad... Well i have another 2 more hours till lilly finish...
Till then!

Jeremy 1:03:00 PM

Waiting for his new glasses

Baybeats! 7:10:00 PM

Baybeats was awesome this year followed lilly, ricky and Jimy! Well Anberlin was good. We got smashed in the mosh pit. hahas

Cold Cold Heart 11:11:00 AM

Round and round carousel
Has got you under it's spell,
Moving so fast...
But going nowhere

Is it lonely?

Up and down
Ferris wheel
Tell me how does it feel
To be so high...
Looking down here

Is it lonely?

Did the clown
Make you smile
He was only your fool for a while
Now he's gone back home
And left you wandering there

Is it lonely?

twenty 6 august 11:04:00 AM

Birthday is finally over.. Had a great one this year too! Thanks for all the warm wishes and gifts. :)
Well like I always say, It was a great trip around the sun again. Hahaha Looking forward to another ride.

Sunday morning 10:47:00 PM

Today Lilly had her Rite of Acceptance into the Order of Catechumens!

Welcome to the faith Lilly, hope you will continue to seek the good news.. :)

Well today is another sleepy Sunday… Wanted to go to Holland to get Valrhona cocoa but was too tired..
Last night we met jimmy at gardens to have dinner. Really enjoyed the satay man… it’s been so long since we went night cycling, all of us.. hahas midnight supper.

Well as for me same ol' usual thing… have another week before I go back to school…
Till then! Bye bye

Not to late.... hopefully 6:17:00 AM

Firstly, my throat is still killing me. I think it got worst instead of healing.. I'm having blood clots and aches at the surgical area . Hmmm... I have an appointment with the doc this Friday.

Secondly for the past weeks I've been staying home.. boredom usually strikes at 4am. Have practically nothing to do besides the internet and Norah Jones to keep me company although she can make me crazy at time when she makes me think too deeply...

Thirdly, I taught I'd never say this but I miss school. ha. Hopefully I can graduate. Have like what 4 weeks MC and so so so much work to do... SIAN...

Lastly, I might lose my mind if I don't do something soon. I hate to be sick, I feel so dysfunctional. Hmmm there's so many things to be done but I can't because of this agonizing pain. I wish it could all go away. Happy birthday Jude. hmmm

Praying softly in my heart that everything's going alright.
The pain and pangs that are unbearable.
I close my eyes when you're away
because the pain comes when you go astray.

Lying in my bed
tears are dry out from the pain,
and memories are running through my head.

There's nothing I can do but sit here and wait.
I dream of you everyday when I fall asleep.
You make me so happy when I'm awake.
You mean so much to me, girl you know it's true.

monday blues 4:41:00 PM

Day 7 after post tonsillectomy.

Feels like there's knifes down my throat and I feel like ripping my ears out because of the pain affecting it . I miss my dose of pain killers yesterday and the pain was unbearable. But after all, I hope everything goes well.

I don't know why but I've been feeling very sad these few day. I can't understand why these feelings are here but they are here. I wished it would go all away. hmmm....
I'm going to bring benny to the vet now. I think he sprain his paw.. hmmm.
till then..

speechless 7:52:00 PM

Surgery is finally over and now I just have to endure this pain for another two week while I’m in recovery. It was kinda scary, never been so nervous before.. Had needles in me, big syringe was there too.. haha but all went well…

Just before I went in, I could see the worry in my mum’s eye and lil’s too.. Sometimes I wish I could do this surgery without telling anyone. Hate it to see everyone like so worried. Well I don’t know what I’d do without all of you...

Lilly brought balloons and the nurses were shock hahaha… Jimmy came over when I got home.. we watch Charlie Bartlet. Thanks so much you guys! With you guys around the pain didn’t seems all that pain… :)

another kind of feeling that cannot be explain... 5:49:00 AM

Let's see what happens tmr... WOW.

after movie walk home... 4:13:00 AM

Short post... Just got home form the movie theatre.. Jimmy, lilly and I went to watch GI Joe… It was an okay movie to me. Jimmy met us at AMK after work and we came from my aunt’s birthday party.

Well today was kinda of a long day to me.. but I had loads of fun! It’s not going to end so soon; sharon’s coming home! Hahaha…

Hmmm till then. bb

What do you say
when it's all gone away ?
baby I didn't mean to hurt you
truth spoke in whispers will tear you apart
no matter how hard you resist it
it never rains when you want it to

Time after Time 5:01:00 PM

Blogger is getting on my nerves! Anyways The other day I went for my appointment and guess what?! The doc said he's gonna stuff a camera down my nose! Yucks! It's was seriously disgusting to see the inside of your nose on TV... Hahhaah was rather uncomfortable but well.. This is how much I hate tonsillitis!.

I'm going to have my surgery on Tuesday and hopefully it goes well... There's a 1 in 25,000 chances that I might be in ICU... well hopefully I'm the 24,999th.. hehehe

Okays I gottta chow now.. Going leave you with my beautiful Throat, Voice Box, Tonsil and some weird ass thing... Chows!

BITCH BLOGGER!!!

Nightingale 5:52:00 AM

Blogger is finally working.. I'm happy and very nervous at the same time. Happy being I can resume updating my blog and nervous because of tomorrow.

I have an appointment in the morning with the doctor about my tonsillitis. Never did I imagine taking them out. I do not know how much it's gonna cost and everything... Hopefully not too much. hmmmm.

Listening to some jazz... trying to clam down, I'm full of anxiety; can't sleep.

wish me luck!

I turn your picture to the wall,

I don't want to see you anymore.

It's now all a memory,

now it can never be,

I'll never see you anymore..

Only thing now to do is close your eyes,

and dream.

everythings not lost... 3:26:00 AM

Everyone is tuck tightly in bed, as I watch the hour of the morning goes by. It is 3:15 am as I’m writing this. A shadow of sadness is around us, while our hearts fear for the worst and our tears try to wash the sorrows away.

Looking at the stars above us, praying for the storm to be over. The pain becomes numb and the heart changes. Feelings are thrown around, words hurts much more than actions. It’s no fantasy if you think about it.


Love; a feeling above all.

once again. 7:41:00 AM

my freaking tonsillitis just came back again. It's going to kill me... I can't go through this agonizing pain again, I want to have it removed so badly. hmmm... fever's back and i'm going crazy! It's too damn MF pain!!!

Every time when ever I have such good plans for the week ahead i'll get this... I feel like a virus/bacterial magnet. Someone please make this stop.