Everything is so different now. I don't know how and what to feel anymore.. I just I've been blinded by love once again..


I love you. Yes I do.

Midnight Starlights, highway streetlights. 1:35:00 AM

When warmth is in thy breeze, than do thee feel like loved. 

Why dost thou close thy eyes than do thou see such beauty? 

For tomorrow is just a worry, but yet today thy heart ache for tomorrow.

Tears of pain or tears of joy do thou cry for? 

For thou only leaves behind memories that I could wonder of.

If thou was meant to be, thou was meant to be. ~

It's been awhile.. 1:26:00 AM

I don't know where to start.  It's been so long since I last wrote, so many things has happen, so much has change.

Scars 2:05:00 AM

A fool I was when I rushed in, much disbelieve and denial I can be at this hour.
Since the other hour my soul yearn for your touch, indeed I was quick to judge.
The hands of time prove what it can never be, nor have ever been.
Poison was involved and so much seem so inviting, until time washed away our joy.

An hour like this alone I can be, it is where the beginning was.
Once again....

Through distance and time. 5:22:00 AM

Maybe; It could be, It shouldn't be. 

I wish I could write again, but it hurt so much.

Never Shout Never - Lousy Truth (Official Video) 4:11:00 AM

But just so ya know
I been thinking a lot about who we coulda been

and that's the lousy truth

Intended 5:26:00 PM

Hmmmm... I am speechless.
I have never felt such a feeling before,
it is strange, very strange.
But I know it's true..


My thoughts are out of this world,
Would I leave in the next hour to see you? Yes.
Would I give up everything to hold you? Yes.
I'd do anything...

I'm happy, but why am I hurting so much too?
I have so many questions about this feeling.
Is this love? Why? Why are we so far apart?
I can't help but to fall in love with you..

What dose the future holds?
Will you promises me you won't hurt me, like the others did?
I'll sacrifice everything, I want you. Period.

I love you, and I can't take you off my mind.
You're the first thing I think of when I wake
And the last when I go to bed.
You make my heart skips a beat.


S.H.K.N

Time.. 5:45:00 PM

Someone once told me that things would start to change, I didn't believe him.. Well now I know I was wrong.. Things did change, it change for the better... People walk in and out of your life like a waiter seen so many faces.. 

Something is starting deep inside of me.. It started not here, but 10,000 miles away from me. I'm happy to know that I'm not dead inside after all.. But I'm afraid of getting hurt again. The light inside of me is slowly glowing.. 

I think you'd be perfect. Just reality is in our way..

How can anyone be afraid of love? 3:13:00 AM

How can they not?

When you love someone… truly love them, friend or lover,

you lay your heart open to them.

you give them apart of yourself that you give to no one else,

and you let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt-you

literally hand them the razor with a map of where to cut deepest

and most painfully on your heart and soul.

And when they do strike, it’s crippling-like having your heart carved out.

It leaves you naked and exposed, wondering what you did to make them

want to hurt you so badly when all you did was love them.

What is so wrong with you that no one can keep faith with you?

That no one can love you?

To have it happen once is bad enough – but to have it repeated?

Who in their right mind would not be terrified of that?

Dangerously shattering... 1:49:00 AM

This guy lives thousands of miles away from me and I can't get him off my mind.. It's crazy how you can fall for someone who you don't even know in real life. But yet it's almost like you do know him in real life. And it's frustrating cause you can't hold him in your arms, and look into his eyes and tell him you love him. I believe one day we'll find away to each other. And I bet if you were to tell your friends or someone that you fell in love with someone who lives miles away they'd laugh and say its impossible but they don't know what it's like..

-Don't give up. If you love him and he loves you, you guys will find away to be together no matter what.

-Unknown 

Is this a phase.. or is my heart being true? If it is, than why am I risking to break it once again?

Just me and you. 1:45:00 AM

I don't know how to go a day without you.
You are my rain and my shine, my air my breezes.
You keep my heart warm and my soul filled.
I know I'm not completely true to you, but I love you.


You are so special. 

Lets clasp our hands together in the sand while we watch the sunrise and be completely filled by the sounds of waves..  

winter blues. 11:15:00 PM

It's easier to tell my problems to a stranger than to my close friends..
Its hard when nobody wants to listen, no one wants to care..
I'm back to where it all started; alone and feelings all bottled up inside.

I am lonesome tonight, and I do miss you.. 7:56:00 AM

I've met someone new, I wished you could tell me it's true.
You're so far, I'm wishing upon a star. 
It's so very strange, but I don't think my heart wants a change.
I'm so fragile, is any of this worth the while?


No one would understand, if I told them.
It would be just our little secret. Just a duet.
Every night this is my getaway.

iloveyoumorethanyouwilleverknow 4:16:00 AM

A couple of pills and a couple of scars

because of you it doesn't mean nothing. 

Behind these smiles and behind these unpublished blogs

lie what I truly want to say, what I truly feel.

When you are in Love you can't fall asleep

because reality is better than your dreams.

I'm not going to let you know if you don't ask.

Time 3:12:00 AM

I'm afraid. 

A wormhole 9:18:00 AM

Hey I know its been awhile since I've updated yeah Been busy with loads of stuff recently.. Let's see what I have in my album, oh Jrmy had a new tattoo, national day just passed, Lilly lost her iPhone and I'm still the same ol.. :/*
oh well my holidays are coming in about 1 hour time!! I'm on the way to school now in 31 but I'm supposed to meet Jrmy at the National university Hospital; fucked I wish I could be at both places at the same time! Oh fished!





That's all the pics that I have for now. Upload more soon! :3

My favourite childhood memory... 1:19:00 PM

Was craving for it the other night ... Muhahaha the next time will be 50!

Stranger 1:09:00 PM

FRIDAY'S HERE!! well well I hope today goes out as planned. Really really looking forward for a
movie tonight with jrmy and whoever's coming along. :) I'm actually craving for a Magnum Gold right now haha.. I'm on the bus on the way to the polyclinic to to meet Lilly and have lunch with her.. Oh well short post :|