Happy Days

2011-11-10T13:53:00.001+08:00

2011-10-07T04:55:00.000+08:00

Everything is so different now. I don't know how and what to feel anymore.. I just I've been blinded by love once again..

I love you. Yes I do.

Midnight Starlights, highway streetlights.

2011-07-28T01:35:00.000+08:00

When warmth is in thy breeze, than do thee feel like loved.

Why dost thou close thy eyes than do thou see such beauty?

For tomorrow is just a worry, but yet today thy heart ache for tomorrow.

Tears of pain or tears of joy do thou cry for?

For thou only leaves behind memories that I could wonder of.

If thou was meant to be, thou was meant to be. ~

It's been awhile..

2011-07-28T01:26:00.000+08:00

I don't know where to start. It's been so long since I last wrote, so many things has happen, so much has change.

Scars

2011-05-29T02:05:00.004+08:00

A fool I was when I rushed in, much disbelieve and denial I can be at this hour.
Since the other hour my soul yearn for your touch, indeed I was quick to judge.
The hands of time prove what it can never be, nor have ever been.
Poison was involved and so much seem so inviting, until time washed away our joy.

An hour like this alone I can be, it is where the beginning was.
Once again....

Through distance and time.

2011-03-23T05:22:00.001+08:00

Maybe; It could be, It shouldn't be.

2011-03-22T03:28:00.002+08:00

I wish I could write again, but it hurt so much.

Never Shout Never - Lousy Truth (Official Video)

2011-03-07T04:11:00.000+08:00

But just so ya know
I been thinking a lot about who we coulda been

and that's the lousy truth

Intended

2011-01-05T17:26:00.013+08:00

Hmmmm... I am speechless.
I have never felt such a feeling before,
it is strange, very strange.
But I know it's true..

My thoughts are out of this world,
Would I leave in the next hour to see you? Yes.
Would I give up everything to hold you? Yes.
I'd do anything...

I'm happy, but why am I hurting so much too?
I have so many questions about this feeling.
Is this love? Why? Why are we so far apart?
I can't help but to fall in love with you..

What dose the future holds?
Will you promises me you won't hurt me, like the others did?
I'll sacrifice everything, I want you. Period.

I love you, and I can't take you off my mind.
You're the first thing I think of when I wake
And the last when I go to bed.
You make my heart skips a beat.

S.H.K.N

Time..

2011-01-03T17:45:00.000+08:00

Someone once told me that things would start to change, I didn't believe him.. Well now I know I was wrong.. Things did change, it change for the better... People walk in and out of your life like a waiter seen so many faces..

Something is starting deep inside of me.. It started not here, but 10,000 miles away from me. I'm happy to know that I'm not dead inside after all.. But I'm afraid of getting hurt again. The light inside of me is slowly glowing..

I think you'd be perfect. Just reality is in our way..

How can anyone be afraid of love?

2010-11-04T03:13:00.001+08:00

How can they not?

When you love someone… truly love them, friend or lover,

you lay your heart open to them.

you give them apart of yourself that you give to no one else,

and you let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt-you

literally hand them the razor with a map of where to cut deepest

and most painfully on your heart and soul.

And when they do strike, it’s crippling-like having your heart carved out.

It leaves you naked and exposed, wondering what you did to make them

want to hurt you so badly when all you did was love them.

What is so wrong with you that no one can keep faith with you?

That no one can love you?

To have it happen once is bad enough – but to have it repeated?

Who in their right mind would not be terrified of that?

Dangerously shattering...

2010-10-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

This guy lives thousands of miles away from me and I can't get him off my mind.. It's crazy how you can fall for someone who you don't even know in real life. But yet it's almost like you do know him in real life. And it's frustrating cause you can't hold him in your arms, and look into his eyes and tell him you love him. I believe one day we'll find away to each other. And I bet if you were to tell your friends or someone that you fell in love with someone who lives miles away they'd laugh and say its impossible but they don't know what it's like..

-Don't give up. If you love him and he loves you, you guys will find away to be together no matter what.

-Unknown

Is this a phase.. or is my heart being true? If it is, than why am I risking to break it once again?

Just me and you.

2010-10-18T01:45:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to go a day without you.
You are my rain and my shine, my air my breezes.
You keep my heart warm and my soul filled.
I know I'm not completely true to you, but I love you.

You are so special.

Lets clasp our hands together in the sand while we watch the sunrise and be completely filled by the sounds of waves..

winter blues.

2010-10-10T23:15:00.004+08:00

It's easier to tell my problems to a stranger than to my close friends..
Its hard when nobody wants to listen, no one wants to care..
I'm back to where it all started; alone and feelings all bottled up inside.

I am lonesome tonight, and I do miss you..

2010-09-24T07:56:00.003+08:00

I've met someone new, I wished you could tell me it's true.
You're so far, I'm wishing upon a star.
It's so very strange, but I don't think my heart wants a change.
I'm so fragile, is any of this worth the while?

No one would understand, if I told them.
It would be just our little secret. Just a duet.
Every night this is my getaway.

iloveyoumorethanyouwilleverknow

2010-09-05T04:16:00.004+08:00

A couple of pills and a couple of scars

because of you it doesn't mean nothing.

Behind these smiles and behind these unpublished blogs

lie what I truly want to say, what I truly feel.

When you are in Love you can't fall asleep

because reality is better than your dreams.

I'm not going to let you know if you don't ask.

Time

2010-08-18T03:12:00.000+08:00

I'm afraid.

A wormhole

2010-08-12T09:18:00.000+08:00

Hey I know its been awhile since I've updated yeah Been busy with loads of stuff recently.. Let's see what I have in my album, oh Jrmy had a new tattoo, national day just passed, Lilly lost her iPhone and I'm still the same ol.. :/*
oh well my holidays are coming in about 1 hour time!! I'm on the way to school now in 31 but I'm supposed to meet Jrmy at the National university Hospital; fucked I wish I could be at both places at the same time! Oh fished!

That's all the pics that I have for now. Upload more soon! :3

My favourite childhood memory...

2010-07-30T13:19:00.000+08:00

Was craving for it the other night ... Muhahaha the next time will be 50!

Stranger

2010-07-30T13:09:00.001+08:00

FRIDAY'S HERE!! well well I hope today goes out as planned. Really really looking forward for a
movie tonight with jrmy and whoever's coming along. :) I'm actually craving for a Magnum Gold right now haha.. I'm on the bus on the way to the polyclinic to to meet Lilly and have lunch with her.. Oh well short post :|

Room 2.06

2010-07-29T15:25:00.001+08:00

Theres something for everyone today. Okay, right now I'm at the polyclinic with in uniform I was suppose to go to school but I taught I'd get an MC while I'm seriously sick and needs some checking up.. Its been awhile since I got here id just gotta wait and wait...

Well I hope the day don't get anymore boring.. I'm gonna help sharon later at her work place with some computer issues.. Well I hope she pays me! :) haha anyways I can't wait for the weekend!! Its gonna be jam packed with a whole lot of stuff!! Hehehe

Okay dokay I got to go... Tell then!!

People, places & time.

2010-07-25T21:04:00.001+08:00

You're the best thing that ever happen to me...

Dream a little dream of me

2010-07-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

What a Sunday is was, well I don't think the day is going to end anytime soon... This is how it all started...

Slept over at jimmy's place last night, was just blogging till late.. Had a hearty breakfast in the morning at the Indian prata shop. Than went for St Anne's church feast day. Was a huge fun and food fair ate there too haha... Music was so loud that we could hear Justin Biber during mass too... Oh the bishop serve the mass today..
So anyways went home to take a nap than went down to SGH for a while... Send jeremy off to camp and now I'm in the train on the way to Lilly's place to help her with her project...

Okay I'm not going to bore anyone anymore.. Hahah yea so that was my day so far.. Was nice.

A month left to be 18... :/*

Inked

2010-07-25T00:27:00.002+08:00

For me, why he got it, and who he makes himself out to be are two very different things. -You

Inked for all the right reasons.

Jesus, guide us.

2010-07-21T22:25:00.001+08:00

Wednesday Wednesday, what a day it have been.. Today was a nice day, it's one of those days that I don't think I'll forget and when I look back at it in the future I'll miss old times.. So anyways, I went to school and was not feeling well, so I decided to head back home and out of nowhere, cornell called and asked if she could meet up because she was lead of work early.. I swear just for that moment my fever was nowhere in sight.. hahaha After all those pondering on where we'd meet we decided to head down meet up at Temp and have lunch, After that cornell came over for awhile just to chill and all.. haha Yea I'm not feeling so good today man..

I swear I just can't wait to move on in life, I guess the feeling of me wanting to grow up quickly have not gotten out of me.. I'd rather work than study, simple as that.
I can't wait for the weekend! Hopefully Jrmy can book out on friday than we can chill out have dinner and maybe a MAGNUM GOLD?! or choco cone?? hahaha

Till I met you weekend, Take care

No camera in this world could every capture the beauty of my life..

2010-07-18T02:04:00.000+08:00

Okay, so right now I'm over at Jrmy's place, we just went to watch Predator at AMK hub. It was a nice show, enjoyed it and so was the BBQ Nachos, thanks jimmy by the way. Can't really sleep right now, I have alot on my mind.. Lilly's all the way in the north, working... I guess I'm going to pick her up when she finish later, can't wait. I swear, although I'm going through alot of shit right now, It's really the people that are close to me that keeps me going. I really love all you guys. You know who you are; if you've touched my life.

Alright I got to go now.. Till next time!

Lonely as I can be..

2010-07-17T01:55:00.001+08:00

You don't care to hear me out.. I have no one that would understand.

The Vines - Get Free

2010-07-16T18:27:00.000+08:00

Things I wasn't able to tell you..

2010-07-16T17:49:00.000+08:00

I can't stop myself from liking you,

or thinking about you.

You are the first thing I think of when I wake up

& the last thing I think of before I go to sleep.

I think that's a cliche form somewhere, but it's completely true.

Choco cone

2010-07-14T10:51:00.001+08:00

Okay seriously, I have no idea how much long I can deal with this. I'm in "School" right now which I have no idea why am I here agan, IT SUCKS! I always wonder why I rush to school early in the moring, get packed like sardines in bus 27 and come to school just to use Facebook? Is Facebook like the new TV? Seriosuly. It's boring as hell here...

I hope the day gets better though. Last night I brought lilly out to have a Birthday Dinner, we had shushi. It was awesome because it was a buffet.. haha :) I can't believe that we ate so darn much!
hmmm... Anyways the afternoon is not getting any better nowdays, Jeremy is required to "stay-in" camp and he's like on the other side of the freaking country... wth...

Okay so that's all for today I guess; Singapore is getting boring as you get older...

2010-07-12T09:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILLY!!! :)

Monday blues, Tues, Weds & Thurs too...

2010-07-12T09:46:00.000+08:00

A start of a new week, Monday.. What a week before that I had, Jeremy had his 10 days holiday starting right after his POP, we went out to celebrate.. than movies druing the weekdays, town and all the other usual shits that I can't remeber right now..Oh well.. Went to celebrate lil's birthday two days ago, lilly really got high man. haha hope she enjoyed :)

Just bored right now, in school haha as usual.. Well I hope the week get better and not so blue.. Weekend!!

A plain morning..

2010-07-09T10:07:00.000+08:00

This is a very strange week.

Just another day in July

2010-07-08T10:45:00.001+08:00

July July, why dose the time fly?? haha Well I'm in school just not doing anything at all.. bored to death, as usual... I think I need to get out more of my life.. you know what I mean? I'm going insaine just by doing all this stuff everyday, and it's not helping that the people around me is werid and strange.. Anyways I'm looking forward to what's gonna happen in the near future.. Can't wait to see what's installed.

I wish I could write as fast as I type, than I can just go on writing all day long.. brb

2010-07-07T16:37:00.003+08:00

2010-07-05T20:11:00.000+08:00

1.56e+11ly, that's just how much I love you.

In my eyes..

2010-07-04T12:34:00.004+08:00

YOU ARE SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!

You are so fucking beautiful,

you are all I ever dream of,

you are all I ever think of.

you're all I ever want,

you're all I ever need.

There is not an hour in my life that goes by not thinking about you, how's your day, what are you doing, how are you feeling?

Somehow you bring so much joy in my life although you don't even know. That's how strong my love is. If we ever spend the rest of our life together, I promise that I'll make you happy for the rest of my life. I won't let you feel lonely, I won't let you feel unloved. All I ever want for you is all joys that fills your heart.

Love Overcomes Virtually Everything

Strange world

2010-06-30T01:21:00.004+08:00

When I was seven years old they tried to test my IQ, they showed me this picture of three oranges and a pear. They asked me which one is different and does not belong, they taught me different was wrong..

Life.

2010-06-29T08:48:00.002+08:00

When exactly did we go from being kids to just being people, I'm not sure. I do know that it's not about turning a certain age or graduating from school. It happens when you're not paying attention. We go from playing with our friends to playing with our friend's feelings. Without our knowledge or consent childhood slips away in the night and our innocence escapes us and we wake up one morning to find we have become who we are.

We can't help who we fall in love with.

2010-06-27T03:13:00.002+08:00

I swear it sucks when you have no one to talk to about shits that you've bottled inside. All kinds of feelings are mixed; hate, anger, love, jealousy, sadness... I wish my heart would be different. I wish it wouldn't be so selfish. It only causes pain. FUCK this emotional shit. Seriously, it's hard.

I'm trying my best. I'm just different.
It usually happens when you're...
I can't continue...

You're in my life.

2010-06-25T00:46:00.001+08:00

Okay holidays are here, haven't been blogging much... Alot has been happening, hope things would get better. Pls. I need that bit of luck now. I can't wait for the weekend, I bet it's going to be great. haha well I'll blog whenever I can. till then!

Friendship is a priceless gift that cannot be bought of sold,
but it's value is far greater than mountains made of gold.
For gold is cold and lifeless, it can neither see nor hear,
and in time of trouble it has no power to cheer.
It has no ears to listen nor heart to understand,
it cannot comfort or reach out a helping hand.
So when you ask god for a gift
be thankful if he sends you not diamonds, pearls or riches
but the love of real true friends.

Happy days

2010-06-25T00:34:00.001+08:00

TOY STORY 3

It was one of the few highlights of my life. THANK YOU Jeremy and lil, you have no idea how much it meant to me. Yes I know all this over toys? yea. It's going to be part of me someday. :)

Friendship.

Missing you

2010-06-12T15:21:00.000+08:00

Every time I think of you
I always catch my breath
And I’m still standing here
And you’re miles away
And I'm wondering why you left
And there’s a storm that’s raging
Through my frozen heart tonight

I hear your name, in certain circles
And it always makes me smile
I spend my time,thinking about you
And it’s almost driving me wild
And there's a heart that’s breaking
Down this long distance line tonight

There’s a message, in the wires
And I’m sending you this signal tonight
You don’t know, how desperate I’ve become
And it looks like I’m losing this fight
In your world I have no meaning
Though Im trying hard to understand
And it's my heart that’s breaking
Down this long distance line tonight

And there’s a message that I’m sending out
Like a telegraph to your soul
And if I can’t bridge this distance
Stop this heartbreak overload

I ain’t missing you at all
Since you’ve been gone, away
I ain’t missing you
No matter, what my friends say
I ain’t missing you, I aint missing you
I can lie to myself
And there's a storm that's raging
Through my frozen heart tonight
I aint missing you at all
Since you’ve been gone, away
I ain’t missing you,
No matter, what my friends say
Aint missing you
I ain’t missing you, I aint missing you
I can lie to myself
I ain’t missing you
I aint missing you..

School scmool...

2010-06-04T11:16:00.000+08:00

Okay it's friday the fouth of June, 9.45am. I'm in school just sitting around not doing anything at all... I have no idea why I'm here in the first place, boredem is killing me.. Oh well at least on the bright side is that it's a friday! After school I have plans to meet Lilly, heading down to town to check out the summer collection.. Then again I have no idea why I'm here... Jeremy has been in army now for about four weeks already, I might meet him later, not so sure if he can come home today.. :( I hope he could... Oh well oh well I hope the days get better form no on..

13 more days!! I've been waiting for 10 years for that day. :) haha

2010-06-02T10:00:00.001+08:00

I'd never sing of love, if it does not exist..

2010-05-29T16:33:00.000+08:00

Wasted Love

2010-05-29T06:22:00.000+08:00

I'm having a feeling of enormious pain that is more then anything imaginable. It cannot be cured by medicine, or treated by anything but time. For those that know this feeling too well, it is not a physical pain that can be described, but soemething deep inside. Breathing gets hard, eating becomes tasteless, and love, well, what is love anymore. You forget. Yet you remember, remember how to love, and who you love - which makes it hurt so bad. Let it go people say, but how can you. Feelings are feelings, and you love who you love. Heartbrakes occur most when you love someone you are not suppose to.

Rollerblade-TRS

2010-05-28T19:18:00.004+08:00

#01- New Jack Skates!! :)

Structure: external cuff
Frame: Street (UFS). Super-Lock groove
Bearings: SG5

* smiling ear to ear *

Look at that beauty... & that beast!

I could go on... haha

Hidden Feelings

2010-05-27T02:34:00.000+08:00

I hurt inside
and cry,
because I can't tell you
about my feelings for you.

You are my friend
and I'm yours too.
That's why I don't want to tell you
how my heart enjoys being with you.

I don't want to ruin our friendship
by wanting to start a relationship
but I need to tell you,
cuz i can't learn how to stop loving you.

If I Could Tell You

2010-05-27T02:30:00.000+08:00

When I see you in the morning
it brightens up my day
there are so many thoughts on my mind
so many words I want to say

I want to tell you how I feel
but the words I can not find
they're all mixed up with my thoughts
that are running through my mind

I've been keeping it locked up
because I know there's not a chance
you never look my way
you don't even take a glance

You don't even know you're doing this
toying with my heart
I wish I could just tell you
but I don't know where to start

Should I tell you how much you mean to me
or how bad I want to be with you
if I were to say these things
how would you react, what would you do

Would you never talk to me again
would you never look my way
that would just bring me back
to where I am today

Then I'd start all over
and choose a different route
to make you understand
my feelings that want out

I don't know what to do
or even how to say
maybe I should lock it up
and keep myself away

My heart would ache even more
but maybe for the good
I just really want to tell you
only if I could.

Truth Number Fourteen-Feelings Never Go Away. They Just Get Buried And Resurface At The Most Unexpected Moments...

In Between

2010-05-27T02:02:00.002+08:00

Between love and friendship
I'm waving like a lost ship
Between black and white
Grey takes away my sight

Between doubt and certitude
How can I have such an attitude?
I no more bear the confusion
Tell me is it truth or illusion?

I was dreaming when there came
A strange feeling I can not name
Since long you've been my only mate
My soul only you can penetrate

Inside me only you can see
Like sugar in a cup of tea
Like the door knows the key
Like the flower waits the bee

Today it is clearly seen
In between I should never have been
To a strong feeling you were blind
Something your eyes no longer hide

To your love I can fake
Not knowing my heart you can break

:P

2010-05-24T00:32:00.002+08:00

Jesus was walking along one day, when He came upon a group of people surrounding a lady of ill repute. It was obvious that the crowd was preparing to stone her, so Jesus made His now-famous statement, "Let the person who has no sin cast the first stone."

The crowd was shamed and one by one began to turn away. All of a sudden, a lovely little woman made her way through the crowd. Finally getting to the front, she tossed a pebble towards the woman.
Jesus looks over and says, "I really hate it when you do that,
Mom."

Blood rush

2010-05-23T20:46:00.001+08:00

It hurts when you leave.. Can we rewind the hands of time to back where we were always together?.. You've change my life.

I wish time would stop

2010-05-21T20:22:00.001+08:00

What a week, fridays that were not as planned. Jeremy was suppose to book out today but he had confinement... I'm kinda sad, hope he's doing well. hmmm.. Well there's always the next long weekend.
Right now I'm just chilling at home with lilly. It's been awhile since we spent time together.. maybe tonight we'll do something.. Well that's all that has been happening beside the fact of boring school.. hmmm..

Caught in the middle.

Lord Jesus and Guardian Angels, watch over those whose names you can read in my heart. Guard over them with every care and make their way easy and their labours fruitful. Dry their tears if they weep; sanctify their joys; raise their courage if they weaken; restore their hope if they lose heart, their health if they be ill, truth if they err, repentance if they fail. Amen.

Clouds are beautiful.

2010-05-20T00:29:00.001+08:00

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over. I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you're doing... I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you..

"The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when you discover that someone else believes in you and is willing to trust you with a friendship. "

only fools rush in..

2010-05-17T14:07:00.003+08:00

Scream my heart out, break it, hurt it. I don't want to have it.

Not anymore.

Your making me insane

2010-05-15T03:47:00.001+08:00

Leave me alone now, let me think.

Bromance

2010-05-11T02:29:00.000+08:00

There are moments in my life that dreams can be so real that you just want to pick them up and embrace them; only to wake up and realise it's just reality playing a game on you. It's funny how life brings you where you are right now with the choices that you've made. “They say when you are missing someone that they are probably feeling the same, but I don't think it's possible for you to miss me as much as I'm missing you right now”

A feeling that cannot be explain only to be felt by one, it is such a complicated expression of the love that I have in me. Sometimes I see you, it feels so real but I know its a figment of my imagination, it is what I want you to be. Well it's not what's in your mind, it is what's in your heart that I see.

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with eachother; for those were some of the best times of my life.

The joy of meeting pays the pangs of absence; else who could bear it?

2010-05-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

I can't stand it anymore, emotions are driving me out of my mind. I just don't know what to do, or how to stop it. Why dose my past keeps coming back to haunt me? I know what the logical answer is, but some part of me just can't accept that. Maybe its time I do something about it? Will someone please take a knife and stab my heart, the pain that I'm feeling might just go away.

Maybe in another life time, or universe.

Covenant Thursday

2010-04-02T03:56:00.001+08:00

This year Maundy Thursday was nice, we manager to go around 6 churches only... Had lots of hot cross buns. yea.. Tomorrow will be the same, saint Joseph's for the procession than comes Saturday Easter vigil! :) Can't wait for it. haha

Okay, now I'm just shag, so goodnight internet people..

Bonds of trusts

2010-03-30T23:18:00.001+08:00

My mind is in a whirl, only to be understood by someone, who appears to be insane to the universe. Because this is what people do, they judge. from the path chosen to the colour of clouds a reigning in your sky. This is a sad place where acceptance exists only in gorgeous dreams. No where near my heart is peace; expect for a brief few moments of escape which will be cherished for as long as the beauty of the ocean shall live.

And where that beauty resides, shall the memories everlasting be a constant reminder of the most divine yet uninhibited expression of euphoria.

- Anonymous

Its not the things you've said, it's those you didn't.

2010-03-27T00:09:00.004+08:00

This month has not been a good month for me, alot of things has happen and is happening, and is not stopping just yet. Everything is just going wrong.

Sometimes the people closest to you hurt you the most. They say things that you could never imagine, do things that you'd never do. Well what can I do but try to forgive? I'm tired of trying to make things at peace all the time, be treated as a doormat, and just be used when needed. That just shows how much I mean to you; how much you really care. Well I don't think I need someone like that so please just go, I'd do better without you.

"True colours are shown not by the biggest of things, but the tiniest."

Poem?

2010-03-15T05:01:00.000+08:00

Read this little poem, I love it. No, I didn't write it

If i dont call you

[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When i walk away from you mad

[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth

[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you

[ Grab me and dont let go ]

When i call you and say i cant sleep

[stay on the phone till i go to sleep]

When i start cussing at you

[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When im quiet

[ Ask me whats wrong ]

When i ignore you

[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away

[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst

[ Tell me im beautiful ]

When you see me start crying

[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking

[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When im scared

[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder

[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i grab at your hands

[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i tease you

[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time

[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt

[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i love you

[ I really do more than you could understand ]

When i bump into you

[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret

[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes

[ dont look away until i do ]

When i miss you

[ im hurting inside ]

When you break my heart

[ the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over

[ i still want you to be mine ]

this is painfully obvious.

2010-03-10T18:41:00.002+08:00

I wish I could tell all of you my secret, maybe in the next life.

maybe you're not worth it.

Silence

2010-02-25T17:58:00.003+08:00

I thought that I knew you

But now I'm not sure

You used to be friendly

But not anymore

Each day we grow farther

Apart and I'm sad

We used to be best friends

The best I ever had.

At some point things changed

And our lives split apart

I miss you so much

In my life – In my heart.

Sometimes things must happen

And friends drift away

I wish it weren't us

I wish not this way...

Your beautiful soul.

2010-02-07T05:19:00.013+08:00

What a week.. I just met Jimmy Jim jim just now, we went to have dinner at Chomp Comp.. Freaking bus too like forever to get there. Had a good dinner with him.
The last few days Sharon asked me to bake a cake last minute; which is in a shape of 30!! God I almost killed myself if without the help of Lillykerniweeeeee!! Hahahha all in all it was good.
I cant wait for monday and Friday!! :)

Would you be my best friend and follow me
through this never ending drama called life?
I believe we only have to go through it once.
It won't be a smooth journey that's what I've been told,
there's back-stabbers, liars and crooks along the way.
I'd watch your back every minute, but would you watch mine?
There's going to be happy moments too; one of them is
spending time with you. Well that's all I know about this journey, so would you follow me and and find out together?

Photo Caption:
"My husband is the best friend I've ever had, and I'm the best friend he's ever had. We know we can always rely on each other, like we can on no one else. My pool of friends has slowly whittled down over the years, as person after person flaked out on me or proved themselves to be unreliable or too self-involved to really be able to give me back as much as they expected in return.
But not him. He gives me everything he has, without question, and I give him back just as much...and so neither of us really loses anything despite giving everything.
Instead, we gain. And that's love. Giving your whole self away, but being richer for it."

-Artful Magpie

Fearless

2010-02-03T07:55:00.001+08:00

It's a typical Tuesday night and she doesn't get your humor like I do.
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like and she'll never know your story like I do.

Graduation later in the afternoon, anxiety is possessing me.. The sun is beautiful today.

Love, the sand by the shore.

2010-01-30T08:08:00.000+08:00

“Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same."

There's something about you and the beach that I don't think I'll ever understand... Shall we just sit here and watch the sun set??

The footprints that you left me are still warm in my heart every time I think of you. Clasping our hands beneath the sands, laying here under stars with all our dreams; now, that's a wonderful night...

Someday all this would happen.

Remembering Sunday

2010-01-25T18:16:00.001+08:00

I still see you every night..

Blood rushes to my head when I'm awake.

I know now dreams are truly just dreams.

Fairy tales are not of this world.

Everything thing seems so perfect;

you we're sooo happy!

We were just two sentimental fools

traveling around the world with our hands together.

See you in the next life..

you keep hurting, I keep quiet..

2010-01-22T17:18:00.000+08:00

Why do i even brother?? you treat me like i owe you a return.. I don't even know why I keep trying to stay on, what's the point? After all that we've been through, you act like nothing has ever happen. whatever fuck happen from now I'm not giving two shits. (or at least i'll try not to) it's just hurting me. To hell with all of you!

Think whatever you want of me..

Kokomo sounds good now..

2010-01-13T10:11:00.000+08:00

So it's the new year already.. Well there's new worries... hmmm I've been so stress out with this Poly/ITE/Army shit. Right now seriously, I feel like just going in NS this year. At least I don't have to worry about studying and all that crap. Arrrrgh.

Why oh why?!?!

Well let's see where the fuck this goes.

A part of life, a joy to the soul.

2010-01-01T16:31:00.003+08:00

Yes we are [friends] and I do like to pass the day with you in serious and inconsequential chatter. I wouldn't mind washing up beside you, dusting beside you, reading the back half of the paper while you read the front. We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often. I don't want to lose this happy space where I have found someone who is smart and easy and doesn't bother to check her diary when we arrange to meet. ~Jeanette Winterson, Written on the Body, 1992

“Never explain yourself. Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it.”
“True friends are like diamonds, precious and rare. False friends are like leaves, found everywhere.”
A friend will come bail you out of jail but, your best friend will be sitting next to you saying… “Wow that was fun!”

you're the reason.

2009-12-30T22:00:00.002+08:00

The year might be over, but I'm still selfish. It really hurts deep inside, for the things you wanna say but will never be able to. Its not a nice feeling, really. I'm still in denial and I'm still part of two worlds.
I wish I didn't have you in my life at all, at least I know I don't have to go through this pain that I think about everyday. Our expressions are like a mask that we wear on our face, hiding the truth about what we feel. Life is too short for us to have pride and ego.
Well, for what its worth you're just like any other, they come and they go.

But on the other hand, you're the world to me. I'm so happy down to my soul. The things that you've done, the action that you do, it simply speaks louder. IT'S RINGING IN MY EAR. I'm glad that I have you. I just have to remind myself. :)

I have to stop my wishful thinking; wishes never happens.

Christmas Christmas

2009-12-27T09:54:00.001+08:00

First of all, Merry Christmas everyone!! Or Bong Natal to those kristang people out there :)
Man oh man why is like everyone rushing? I'm seriously feeling the Christmas rush hmmm Sharon's surprise party is in like 2 days time man.. I have yet to get stuff and on top of that I'm baking *~*hahaha

Well I can't wait although!!

Love you guys, see you on the 29 whoever you are haha

Christmas's eve's eve

2009-12-23T17:52:00.001+08:00

It dosent seem that long anymore eh? I can't believe it the 23rd alreay balls.. No!!! I want my 2009!!

:(

Lies, the one thing that makes you human.

2009-12-18T16:02:00.003+08:00

Things are happening so fast nowadays, I'm just feeling a little lost thats all... Hopefully this is not how it ends, because I pictured it ending differently. I wish I could just press the rest button and everything will be good to go, rather than working from my heart inside out..
Currently at Jrmy's place, chilling out. hmmm...

I wish for you...

12 dec 2009

2009-12-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

December december, why are you such a junkie? I don't mind mid night video games runaways but i ain't such a hunky. It's creepy when the days are passing so fast when I'm here still thinking about my past. Well oh well December, thanks for making such a wonderful one so far, keep it up.

with love,
Jude

Music makes me happy :)

:)

2009-12-12T23:24:00.001+08:00

Never Shout Never - New Music - More Music Videos

The season of killing!

2009-12-10T18:55:00.000+08:00

HUNGRY HUNGRY... Left 4 Dead anyone??

JING JING JING

2009-12-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

realise
It's official, Christmas shopping is happening! Hahaha. Well the other day Lilly and I went to town to "look around" and I ended up buying a pair of shoes and jeans that finally fit me!

I so wanted to get this pair of jeans since like forever and its something totally different from what I'd usually wear. Plus they have my size.
:)

I I have something about shoes... I' won't usually wear them till i feel like using them. Last 2 years I bought 3 pairs of converse and I only started wearing them recently... hehe.. Well i need to get new footwear soon.

Christmas Wish list,

1. Bed side ipod dock/clock (for my new bed that is coming tmr =)

2. A pack of Dunhill fragrance

3. Jeans from penny

4. Belt

5. RAM

7. New skates (if only... haha)

8. A new coat of paint

9.The biggest bottle of Nielsen Massey Pure Vanilla Extract

10. Driver's licenses

I believe the list can go on... haha

CHRISTMAS IS IN 20 DAYS PEOPLE! 20! OMFGS Noooooo... I want my 2009... :( If only I can keep it eh?

I'm just at home now... was feeling sick for the past few days.. later maybe i'll meet up with jimmy.. see how.. well lilly's at camp.. doing her camping stuff haha...
i'll just be a internet junkie good bye

Hearts.

Nevershoutnever!

2009-11-30T17:24:00.001+08:00

My new found Love. (Was just thinking of this song :)' )

Hearts.

November oh November

2009-11-30T05:37:00.001+08:00

This weeked was a good one.. Jrmy, rickly, lilly, shern and I went to check out the new left 4 dead game. It was so happening that we went back to play the day after also!! Hahaha

Well was a good week... Been so busy with stuff and Xmas. I can't believe I'm saying this but my army check up I coming soon.. Whooray to adulthood!! -_-

That's all for now..

hearts.

memories

2009-11-20T00:43:00.002+08:00

A friend not worth,

is another on this dearth.

A heart full of pain,

you're just to be blame.

A soul that cares,

will never be fair.

Fuck all that have been done

I'll try to overcome.

Cold Cold heart,

who's going to break us apart?

I wish I knew how to quit you.

I'm just a twit that slit.

Hearts.

Tearin' Us Apart

2009-11-18T22:43:00.002+08:00

I have officially fucked my life up. Well done me, >>> I just want to run away and start a new life from now on. Anywhere would do. But bullshit. Life is seriously unfair, when you get your taste of it you'd know. hmmm

Well I guess I can't keep sucking at this moment, I'm just going to deal with the future.

Hearts.

Chasing Pirates

2009-11-17T19:12:00.000+08:00

This is the Bitch! :)

On the verge crying.

2009-11-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

Seriously Seriously sad right now... It hurts so much when you dream about something and that dream is just taken away from you with a blink. hmmm... I have no other place where my heart wants to go, I'll just let my head to do the talking.

fuck those fucking policy and requirements. There seriously no fucking justice this world.

I don't know why Y didn't come..

2009-11-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

On the way home form jrmy's place.. Meeting lilly girl to get started on school work.. Bus 82
(just using up my data credits)
This is such a nice jazzy night.. Chills :)'

Hearts.

It's wearing me down this holiday...

2009-11-05T13:54:00.001+08:00

Heavy rain once again this morning.. Had a massive tummy ache.. :( haha not feeling too well gonna get an MC and prepair for mum's b'day.. Hmmm
HUNGRY!

Something ulgy/cute for you:)

Hearts

You might think I'm incapable of loving a soul like yours..

2009-11-03T21:52:00.002+08:00

On the train now.. On the way home from a long day of adventures. Mum's and dad's birthday is coming up soon.. Gotta get the cake ready and party stuff :)

Well I woke up late, had a bad dream lastnigh>>> than off to meet lilly to grab our baking supplies at the pastry store. After that we chowed down to have dinner at far east.. 0.o

The weather have been great for the past few days.. Not to hot anymore.. Well let's see what school has for me tomorrow.. Having my final test,(I'm going to flunk that btw)
Till tmr!

Hearts.

I want to know what Love is..

2009-11-02T20:23:00.008+08:00

∂ Woof! Woof! ∂
Last night Lilly and I met up with jimmy boy to catch Hurt Locker, It was a good show.. Miss having movie nights.. I have this strong feeling that this november is going to be a month filled with movies and impulse spending. Well once a year is alright right? :)'

"Waddle waddle", Any Christmas tree yet??
Okay it's official (I think) that I'm making Christmas at my place this year on boxing day. Can't wait! (lilly, do the Mariah Carey scream!) hahaha. For the next few weeks it's going to be mind boggling for me, christmas
planing, savings, baking &
everything that i love!! HAHA I've always look forward to the end of the year. Hopefully everything goes well.

Well right now a few more weeks of school and out of college east, going to miss my two years there. hmmm.. never taught i'd see it end. AND Oh I had a new hair cut and I'm getting used to it.. Lilly's idea. That's all for now..

Hearts.

A Monday that I Skipped.

2009-11-02T14:07:00.000+08:00

Well I haven't blog for awhile now... Been busy for the past few days.. Happy hallowen, All Saints and souls days everyone.. Yesterday we went to the cemetry.. Was nice.

I'm going to meet Lilian at the polyclinc now, on the LRT.. Write back to you soon :)'

They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.

2009-10-26T04:22:00.000+08:00

Jude wish he was;

intelligent,
beautiful,
dexterous,
assertive,
ambitious,
extrovert,
polyglot,

debonair,

witty,
& knows what to do.

crazy pool

2009-10-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

Just got back from swimming... Dead tired right now, but I hope this saturday won't end yet! Sides was awesome. haha

New York snow

2009-10-22T14:35:00.000+08:00

Bored as hell in school, I'm just waiting for my group mates to finish their part than I'll be done for today.. Well the day isn't getting any shorter; Lilly and I have RCIA later in the late eveing. Hmmm Well there's nothing much to blog for today... I stayed over Lilly's last night and had a good time. I can't wait for the weekends, and to start on my projects! :) Jrmy have gone MIA and I haven't seen sharon for awhile now, our timing are messed up.

Well everything is going good in school for now, I just found out today that one of my CA is a fucker.. I can mangae things so far, die die have too.. 28more days till school end!! But they want to cut my hair... :( nvm in time for Christmas too...

Well I'll update you soon... take care!

Question 11a

2009-10-20T02:13:00.000+08:00

If;

Tired + Monday = Sleepy
Sleepy + Shower = Hungry
Hungry + Lazy = Tired

Then what should Jude do?

FUCK EVERYTHING!

2009-10-17T18:24:00.001+08:00

A huge decision I'm about to make, result: Unknown.

It comes down to three options, Pâtisserie arts, Pastry and Baking or Cryptographer. Colleges vary from distance, length of course and tuition fees too.

Every fucking thing seems SO SO hard nowadays. I can cry trying to understand and choose my right path. Questions ponder in me, should I follow my heart or my head?? Is it a logical choice? Is this the right thing to do? It's just a fucking battle in there.

Passion versus Talent.

Friday morning

2009-10-16T08:06:00.000+08:00

This week has been rather hectic, bed time had to earlier; around 9.. Well I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm glad to be back in school... I love the feeling of new challenges and accomplishment that I face everyday. >>> Two more months till Christmas and a brand new year ahead, I too am not quite ready to leave this past year. Alot has happen. Ups and downs, center and side.. haha

Well let's make the best of out the last few months!

Airport lunch

2009-10-13T12:55:00.001+08:00

Why is every thing so unpredictable now days... A few more weeks and we know it, it's Christmas. But everything seems so strange now days. How i wish October would go by quickly... And this feeling too.

I'm having lunch at the airport now... Kinda bored right now... Just waiting for my friend than back to school till evening...

These are surely one of those dayszzz

A new 16GB added in my life ;)

2009-10-13T08:55:00.001+08:00

I'm still in disbelieve that I bought a new phone... Well not just any phone, it's the iPhone hahaha.. Well it's cool... Games and stuff have yet to get covers..

Well I'm in school now just doing nothing, yes nothing.. Hmmm well till then then!

Out Here On My Own

2009-10-12T08:13:00.001+08:00

Last night was a blast! Lilly, Ricky, Jimmy and I went to watch Fame because today it's Ricky's 16th!!

Well back to school for me, It's 8:06am now, 2 hours before I go through hell for the next 1 month...
Hahaha, Well let's see the best out of it!

There's something about you I can't let go..

You're the most significant mark I've ever seen.